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[mightymite]

Good Morning everyone,
I have decided to come over to this neck of the woods on MWO. I have been hanging out in the Newbie's Nest and have come to the decision that I do not want to go completely AF. I joined here in Oct. and had gone 22 days AF after a wicked party we had thrown and I ended up past out in the bathroom, hugging the toilet and waking up not knowing where I was. It scared the sh*t out of me. So I found this wonderful site and joined up in the Nest for some much needed advise and guidance.
I was never a daily drinker but I would have 2-3 glasses of Chardonnay Th-Sun. Drinking becomes a problem with me when I socialize. My off switch goes on the blink and I lose myself completely. I have been to the Tool Box and found it so very helpful. I have always wanted to cut down but had no idea how to do that until I came to this site. Everyone is so lovely, compassionate and wise.
I chose to have a glass of wine on a beautiful, warm evening and watch the sun go down on my day 23. It was a very carefully thought out decision and I did not grow two heads. I did not want a second glass and felt confident in my decision.
I have set new goals. I do not want to ever drink at a party again. I know I can not do that. I do not want to wake up feeling like sh*t ever again. I only want to have a couple of glasses of wine on Sat. and Sun and not on Thur and Fri.
We are hosting Thanksgiving and that will be difficult. My family can drink like fish but I will not have anything. I am stocking up on AF drinks for me.
I don't feel like I fit in the Newbies Nest anymore and am happy this place is here. I did not want to leave MWO for good. I still need advice and I find it comforting coming here. So if you will have me, I would like to hang here for awhile. :thanks:

[ToMyHealth]

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Hi Mightymite! Congratulations on your 22 days AF! Welcome and glad you were able to come to the point of knowing you needed to change habits and make the best decision for yourself. I am also a Modder and had been posting on Long Term Moderators but that thread has kind of died.

Funny comment about not growing 2 heads and sounds like you're not into the ok, so I drank a glass of wine, now I have to feel guilty??? Having said that, I do need to revisit my goals and get back on track. My issue has been lack of sleep with no alcohol. Have tried OTC meds to no avail and just today have call into my dr to see if I can get on trazadone for sleep. Hear you on the 'party' aspect; I can be guilty of that too. Good luck and stay close; you sound determined!

TMH

TMH

[mightymite]

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Thanks TMH. Yea, if I felt guilty about it I would just abstain. I am happy with the decision I made but it took awhile to get here. I am accountable to myself and my hubby so I am determined.
Wish I could help you with the sleep problem. Hope you find some answers and the doc can help you.
MM

[Guitarista]

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Mightymite,

Just wanted to wish you all the very best on your journey.

Great to see you sticking with the site. As you know, it has a lot to offer.

Hi TMH.

[mightymite]

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Hey Mr. G. Thanks and good to see you. I got to know so many people over in the nest that I'm a little lonely over here but I know I am always welcome and will stop by from time to time. Plus I know I will get to know many new faces here as well. Take care Mr. G.
MM

[Guitarista]

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mightymite;1210242 wrote: Hey Mr. G. Thanks and good to see you. I got to know so many people over in the nest that I'm a little lonely over here but I know I am always welcome and will stop by from time to time. Plus I know I will get to know many new faces here as well. Take care Mr. G.
MM

Thank's MM. Will do. You too.

[ToMyHealth]

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Hi back Mr. G. Did you ever try modding after quitting? Great to see you so supportive of MM's decision.

TMH

[LostButFound]

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New

I posted in the new section.
Just trying to find my way (and trying to find the time to get back to this site here and there).
Much of the same story; binging then angry at myself.
For me, moderation would truly be a godsend.
Looking forward to help, love, support and understanding. :new:

[mightymite]

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Hi LBF,
Welcome. I was reading your past posts and it seems that you want to try to be af. Am I right? If you do, have you set up your goals and have your tools in place to help you along. I find that having goals and parameters in place helps tremendously. That is important even if you choose to mod. Keep posting and coming to MWO. As you already know there is so much support here. Good luck in whatever path you choose. :welcome:

[LostButFound]

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I wish I had more time to dedicate to being at this site.
I'm not sure what is the best part of it - but a big part of it is just having people not judge me. Not judging for what I've done and not judging about how I'm trying to handle things.

In part I think I need to congratulate myself for moderation and/or abstinence during the work week. Appreciating the good nights sleep followed by a clear head (and normal stomach) in the morning. Realizing that it will take time to think and behave differently due to an adulthood full of bad drinking habits.
I want so badly to change, to be more responsible and learn moderation and to be happy with it.
I've taken many good steps forward but have also fallen back weekly. Trudging forward is difficult. Keeping positive or believing things can change is very difficult.

[RingingCedars]

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Hi LFB-do find the time to at least read and post when you can. Keeping things positive and believing things can change is difficult but necessary for progress. Believing I could change along with behaviour modifications along the way has brought me a tremendous amount of positive progress. At the heart of all that is being honest with yourself. There are some long term moderation threads you can pop into as well. There you can learn from others trial and errors. Be well and stay your course.