Colorful Friday 02/02

[lushy]

Morning all. Could not pick a color for today so just made it generic.

Guess I will start the thread today since I have been up since 5am!!! Arghhh!!! Was AF last night but I do not think that is why I am up early. Started fretting about paying bills, etc., and then figured I might as well get up. Sooooooo, I hope you all have a great weekend. For those of you with Superbowl "issues" drink lots of water and make sure you eat!!! I am pathetic in that I am not interested in the game this year so Sunday will not be an issue for me.

Have a great weekend all!!! :l

[Mighty Mouse II]

Colorful Friday 02/02

Hi Everbody. This is a bad, bad day for me. I have just hit my wall of pain. I usually handle stress so well, but I just cracked yesterday and can't get it back together. I'm acting like some "girlie", sitting around depressed, crying -- you know, wallowing in self-pity.

I have a client that came to me last year and asked me to set up a watershed association -- came all the way from New Hampshire to see me. Wonderful couple. Its a lot of work, but I decided to do it because their cause was so important and they were so lovely. We charged them very little up-front and they signed a contract that we would get paid when things got going. We came out of the box very strong. I put a lot of my own money out on their promise to reimburse my expenses no matter what (in writing of course). Well, he has contracted pancreatic cancer and it doesn't look good. She has slipped a disk in her spine. Now, they want us to keep running a tab when the association isn't sustainable and is declining, but they don't want to send any money for reimbursement or otherwise. And they're crying.

Meanwhile, everyone here thinks I'm nuts. I put us in a terrible financial bind on their promises. My boss wants to sue them. My husband under so much pressure yesterday filling out all of the financial aid applications on his own when I should have been helping him, I'm dealing with them. We got in a terrible fight. We rarely fight, about three or four times a year, but they are doozies. We instantly made up, but it always leaves me so depressed. I have a terrible, mean temper. I keep it locked up, but when it gets out, it is just terrible and leaves me stripped and ashamed. Then, of course, I have my mother telling me all the reasons her life is worse than mine - yeah right!

So, I'm sitting here at 10:30 in the morning wondering why the h e double hockey sticks I shouldn't just drink myself silly -- but if I do, it would be terrible because I have a radio show at 3:30. To make matters worse, it is a new internet station and I'm bringing major sponsors. I can't blow it, but I'm so miserable, I don't know how I'm going to act up during the show. It's just a bad day. Sorry to be such a self-pittying fool here. But it really helped to let it out. Thanks for listening!

Monica

[southernbelle47]

Colorful Friday 02/02

Monica...........your signature says it all Honey......"one minute at a time"..
Take a deep breath.........and think on something positive you have done to help someone that did work out....I KNOW you have some....I've read them here and you always support us!
Even Mighty Mouse has to "be still" sometimes and consider....Hey! Who Moved My Cheese? :h ...

Mike......don't you love the way clean laundry smells! If yours doesn't smell good, then get some new fabric softener with fabreeze!

Lush...........I hate paying bills! I did it for many years and then hubby retired and wanted to do it......Whaaaaa Whooo! Free at last!

Have a good weekend...in return for doing the bills, I'm sure I will be watching the superbowl! And cooking.....I think it is a pretty good exchange!

:h to all!
Nancy
AF

[Allie]

Colorful Friday 02/02

Oh Monica,
I'm sorry to hear that things are so overwhelming today... think about all the encouraging things you would be saying to someone else if they were in your shoes! Please stay stong and not blow it by drinking before your show because you know you will be even more depressed and compound what you are already feeling if you do. (I know you know that). Deep breaths..... Your feelings are valid "I" think with what you have on your plate, but remember part of what we are all trying to do with this program is learn to face life's challenges without the sauce. I'm not one to talk, as this is still my biggest battle is my stress triggers. I wish you the best today!

I have had some of the best four days/ nights in a long time since starting on the Lexapro. I have talked to others here who are also on it, and none of them seem to have reaped the wonderful "side effect" that I have of having little to no desire to drink. I have had a glass of wine a few times in the last four days, but it is really hard to get a whole glass down. Its like I'm pushing for that buzz, but i cant get it because I cannot make myself drink that much. It just tastes bitter and not good to me. I'm also having a hard time drinking anything... coffee, water, etc, so it isnt just the wine. I am also waking up really early in the mornings (which all anti-deppressant/anxiety meds have always done to me), so I am really liking that too! Eyes are popping open at 6:30 and I get so much done before I even have to leave to take my son to school. I just hope these side effects will not wear off!!! Its also helping a lot too for the reason that I am taking it to begin with... STRESS/ ANXIETY/ Depreesion.

Its a beautfiul day here today.... warm and balmy and the beach is calling me for a long run!

Have a great weekend everyone!
Allie

[Quiescent]

Colorful Friday 02/02

Hi Lush, Mike, Monica and Nancy!


TGIF


Monica, I'm so sorry you are going through this. You are so generous with your spirit here and now I see that you are so kind to others, as well. That should be applauded and I'm sure your husband will come back to his senses and remember that's why he loves you!:l

Mike, I have about 8 loads of laundry I should be doing right now.....I need your help!

Lush, thanks for the super bowl advice. I would like to add...."if you're drunk you won't be able to enjoy the game! The later you start the better off you will be too."

Hugs Nancy....I will be enjoying the super bowl with you.....even if in spirit!

Sm Mary where the hay are you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I love you all........and I just can't say it enough. I'm so glad you are here for me

Love,
Rachele

[Quiescent]

Colorful Friday 02/02

Allie, we were posting at the same time!

I'm so glad you are doing well on the Leprexo. I hope it's the majic bullet for you!

Now, I want some

Now, I'm off to fill in that stupid drink tracker.

Hugs,
Rachele

[southernbelle47]

Colorful Friday 02/02

Allie.......I'm so happy that you have found something that works for you.....I've taken SSRI"S for the past ten years off and on....They are very hard for me to come off of...
Drinking while on them deminishes their effectiveness for me.
The beach sounds wonderful! It is a worship experience for me! "It is well with my soul" comes to mind every time I go there!
Enjoy!

:l Nancy

[MKR]

Colorful Friday 02/02

It seemed like a good idea at the time, but who would have ever thought that the physical senses would be used to draw conclusions about where you're headed, instead of simply taking notice of where you've been?

Nope. The illusions that surround you today, have absolutely no relation to the illusions that will surround you tomorrow.

Which barely hints at how unlimited you truly are.

Yeah, way cool -
**** The Universe

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Good morning all,

Monica, I am so sorry to hear your stress right now. Allie is right, please don't drink today it will only compound how bad you feel. Nancy is so right on, one breath at a time, one moment at a time. Monica you are allowed to NOT be superwoman for a day or two. Can you try to do that? JUST take care of you?

Allie, so wonderful to hear you are feeling so much better.

Lush, WAAAAAAAAAAHOOOOOOOOOOOO! two down . . I am so proud of you. I hate paying bills, I started doing so much of it online which I find I can hack my way through it quicker as it is a list of websites rather than a huge physical stack. Of course, there is still money leaving the account. . . and really how fun can that ever be!

Mike, my husband did laundry this week as well, I have not been great at housekeeping or company this week. Last night, I went to do some laundry and found a full load of damp, moldy clothes in the dryer with a bunch of those sheets - as though that is going to fix wet nasty smelling clothes. I know he gets it . . .but hey gotta let get away with some stuff right?!!

Rachele, have a great weekend doing the superbowl thing.

Nancy, always such kind words of wisdom. Great to have you here in Modsville.

Hugs and love to all and those to come later today,
Mary

[MKR]

Colorful Friday 02/02

You too Mike!

7 dryer sheets tells me he figured it out and tried to cover it up! god love him! No one ever accused him of being a neatnik though.

[pixie]

Colorful Friday 02/02

Hello everyone - Happy Friday!!

Monica - I admire you for all that you have accomplished, and I'm sorry that things are overwhelming right now. You sound like a strong person, so keep good thoughts, you will get through it.

Allie - It's great to hear that the Lexapro is working for you!

I'm hoping for the day when they invent a pill that will:
- stop the cravings for alcohol
- melt the pounds (or stones)
- cure depression and anxiety
- boost self confidence
- get rid of fatigue
- turn you into an exercising maniac
- make housework fun

Think that will be invented anytime soon?

Hope everyone has a good day.

pixie

[Saint Jude]

Colorful Friday 02/02

Morning Ya'll!

Monica, I'm so sorry you're feeling overwhelmed and sad. That's not a good place to be, but it will pass, hang in there... You're always so strong and supportive to everyone, lean on us for a bit if you can. Like everyone else has said, keep breathing ... just get thru this day a moment at a time. I'm sure your show come off great. :thumbs:

MKR, Ha Ha, ya I find laundry in all diff forms of being started... & left in the washing machine, or dryer... Seems as though some "guys" consider "doing" the laundry... as just throwing it in the machine & it magically finishes itself! Folded & everything! (doesn't happen often though)
Kinda like my Dad always said..."It's just as easy to do it right, the first time"

Fan, Well, I guess if you're in Chat... that's understandable.
I've been known to forget to feed my dog if it's kayak season, & beautiful out!(But of course he's on the boat with me, ... eating whatever I have in the Kayak... string cheez & beer, usually) maybe a milk bone or 2!

Pixie, that sounds like a great pill! I'd like to place an order!

Allie, I was on Lexapro a few years ago & it had that effect on me as well. I'd forgotten about that till I read some of your posts.

Lush, thanks for the reminder. I need to pay some bills too! Dang it!~

Nancy & Rachele, enjoy the Super bowl! I'll be cheering for both teams! Truth be told... I don't even know who's playing! I'll be painting. Go team Go!
Just still an Ol cheerleader @ heart!

Hugs & love, Judie

[lushy]

Colorful Friday 02/02

Always trying to impress the women............or is it OCD?

[MKR]

Colorful Friday 02/02

Gotta admit I am impressed - I am still hypnotized and mesmorized by that avatar!

Hey Judie, don't work too hard this weekend!

Lush, here you are saying you are not thrilled being a medical transcriptionist and yet look at all the conditions you remember and have at your finger tips!

Pixie, one of my sons is going into pharmaceutical research - He was trying to decide a couple weeks ago, which field of research he was going into - I will mention this inspirational drug to him!

[dilayne]

Colorful Friday 02/02

HI Everyone,
Monica..go ahead and be girlie girl..nothin' wrong with that. Sorry that it's all hit the wall, but it will pass..and will be dispersed out to the universe in no time..sometimes it just has to hit, at least then you know what's next. Breathe, take it one minute at at time as has been suggested...there just isn 't a lot that can happen in that one minute at a time, so it's the best place to be.

Fan, funny thing..laundry has been my favorite thing to do lately..I NEVER thought I'd say that, but it's a time that I can just sit...and chop would, carry water...if I could learn to do everything in peace like I can do laundry, I will have learned all that I need to learn.

MKR, I'm sorry to hear about your loss..and as always. thank you for all you bring here.

Hi Lush, and Judie and Pixie and Allie...and everyone I missed..

Just really glad its Friday!!!
Di

[dilayne]

Colorful Friday 02/02

...chop wood, carry water, chop wood, carry water, chop wood, carry water

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