Rainy Monday

[InnerStrength]

Rainy Monday

Lusch if it makes you feel better, Sundays are hard for a LOT of people - love you girl. I know you can do it

[DidItForMe]

Rainy Monday

Good Morning All:

I wish I had something positive to say but I really blew it last night and drank WAY too much. I feel horrible this morning because I remember my thirteen year old daughter talking to me last night and she was crying. She was looking for me to give her emotional support and I can barely remember the conversation. What a crappy mom I am. Later in the evening I was trying to read a book and had to close one eye to see the words. Can't even remember those words today. ARRGGG!! I hate guilty mornings.

I think I will try to have a few AF days this week and dry out this brain of mine.

Hope everyone else is doing well. MMII-so sorry to hear about your dad. It sounds like you have the support of your family however and that is precious.

xo

[lushy]

Rainy Monday

Didit, yep nothing worse than those guilty mornings when we know it was all our own doing. Do some AF days this week. It will make you feel soooo much better.

[Mighty Mouse II]

Rainy Monday

Jen, Allie, Lush, Did It For Me, Thanks for the kind words this morning!!

Jen and Allie, thank you for sharing. In some strange way it really did make me feel better -- kind of the "I'm not alone" feeling. I think the real embarrassment was for my mother. When the ambulance arrived, the attendant asked her what type of beer my father drank. She wasn't sure (talk about mentally blind! - He's been on the same beer since I can remember - but I don't know the name either). So she went to the kitchen to check and he followed her. There were about 19 empty beers on the countertop. In total amazement, the guy said to my mom, "Did he drink all those beers today!". Then when they got to the hospital (I was on the board of that hospital for years and they know me and my family), the doctor had to hold him all night because as he explained to my mother, he wanted to wait for Dad to sober up before he took the blood test! My poor mother!!!

What a life!!!

Lush, so glad you're feeling better this week!

Did It For Me - We have all been there!! Some of the most helpful moments with my son relative to my drinking was while sober admitting to him that I am having a hard time dealing with it. That I hope that he never starts because it is so hard to stop -- at least, it helps him to understand that it is not because of anything he had done but because of my shortcomings! But boy, once you do that, they keep on you!! For me it is a good thing!! If we get a large bottle, the first thing he does when he sees it is say to me, "remember mom, you only get two to three". He says it so sweetly and then comes over and kisses me on the cheek, gives me a big hug and says "you can do it". Melts my heart. I walk on my tongue all evening as its dragging the floor wishing a drop of wine would whisp by, but I would die before I take a drink. When you feel ready, you might want to share with your daughter. According to counselors that kind of openess of our struggles to stop helps them not to want to start. I don't know if it is true, but my son doesn't drink -- don't know if it is because of that or not. Just sharing some thoughts!!!!

As I ramble on, the papers are piling up -- can't even see me from the other side they are so high!!!

Love to all,
MM

[InnerStrength]

Rainy Monday

Fan, do you have an accent? I am trying to picture it. Please dont ask. I am hyper again. Is a caffeine addiction dangerous?

[Waves 2]

Rainy Monday

I am on self destruct tonight. Don't try to stop me. For one day all is well with the world. I am celebrating cos I know it won't last.

Apologies in advance. We have just finished bottle no. 2 But I can still correct my posts. I think I am celebrating lasting through Feb 11th!!!!

Sorry everyone. I don't usually post on here if I have had a few.

[Beaches]

Rainy Monday

HI everyone just checking in quick after a very busy day. THanks for sharing all the family stories.

Waves, no need to apologize. No need at all. We are here no matter what. You know that.

I hope to address each of you...I need to get better at that. It's just crazy at this time when all the kids are home.

Much love.

[Diana]

Rainy Monday

Hi everyone,
I am now in my second week of moderation after 34 days AF and I am doing OK thanks to all the support from this site. I have made a decision to only drink every second or third night and then only 2 to 3 glasses of wine. So far all is going well. I think God is helping because I am not even craving more drinks. I haven't felt this well for years and good things are happening to me in a lot of ways.

I just want to say that I am glad to be part of this forum and how much you all mean to me.

Kind regards
Diana

[betty boop]

Rainy Monday

Waves,

You never have to apologise for posting anything here ......

Take care love .....

Paula xxx

[betty boop]

Rainy Monday

Diana,

Sorry I was still posting and missed you ....

Well done, & I need to 'ditto' your words 'I am glad to be part of this forum and how much you all mean to me'. Same from me ....

Love you all ....


Paula xx

[Bookish]

Rainy Monday

Pebbles, Pixis, Waves and all, thank you for the welcome back. This journey if very bumpy and complicated. Oh :sigh:

The parent thread got to me this morning. I talked to my Grandmother for the 1st time in a long time last night and mostly because my Aunt made me. Her health is failing and she had a pace maker put in last week. She is not doing well and her speech was a little slurred when I spoke to her. I have been thinking about her since we talked and then this topic came up. My Grandmother was a mean, hateful, vicious drunk as far back as my memory goes. When she had to quit drinking due to health problems about 10 years ago, she was still a mean, hateful, completely unsatisfied person. It is hard to reconcile that person with this fragile, sick woman I talked to last night. My Mother has made plans to see my Grandma at the end of March; I can?t even image how hard this is going to be for her.

I also have been known to be a little mean spirited when I have had to much red wine and thinking about my Grandmother is one more reason to get this under control and keep it there.

Waves, I know all about how hard this is. No apologies needed, now if you start telling jokes about Blonde, Polish girls, then we will have to talk.

Laura

[Waves 2]

Rainy Monday

There was once a blonde polish girl who was walking down the street with an inteeligent blonde polish girl and Father Christmas.. THEY SPOTTED A COIN ON THE FLOOR, wHO PICKED IT UP?

The blonde polish girl the other two are fictional characters.

Love ya really Laura'

If ya take offense remember this is not really me.

Thanx to all who have been supportive. Hubby is complaining tha I am being holier than thou! What does that say about his inytake?? And his support??

[InnerStrength]

Rainy Monday

Laura
You are such a kind person and I can feel the pain in your post. You are so brave to have put everything aside and talked to your grandmother despite the hurt she has obviously caused you. I pray for your mother's strength and for yours. You are such a good person.
Waves, you are always welcome here. Love you always
Jen

[lushy]

Rainy Monday

Aww Waves, I hope you are okay.

Laura, that is a sad story. When someone is some mean and rotten it is hard to reconcile that, even when they are sick. Sounds like her behavior in life has been a good lesson for you not to repeat it.

Diana, Bravo. Your idea of moderation sounds perfect to me. We are all glad you are here too......

[Waves 2]

Rainy Monday

laura, I am sorry if I offend. Don't mean to. O kno how far you have come in these last few months. And I know I don't want to become like the one you describe... but will I remember tomorrow?