I'm not looking for a fight, but it seems as if you are in denial even about what moderation really is. I think it's great that you went from 12-15 drinks a day to 5 drinks a day. And if you are able to continue to lower your drinking rate I am sure that would be alot more healthy for you. But if you heard a heroin addict say, "I used to shoot up twice a day everyday, but now I only shoot up once a day and I skip Sunday's would you think they are getting better? I wouldn't, I would still think they are addicted to heroin and it's killing them.
I apologize if I can't look at it as anything other than a life or death, black or white issue. I was also drinking 12-15 drinks a day, and a half a bottle of vodka a night, I was drinking myself to death, and I know that even if I told myself I would try to mod occasionally before I quit, when I was slowing down, I could successfully have a 6 pack a night to keep the shakes away, but I would always tie on a big bender a couple times a month. If you aren't like me, then that is awesome, but I know how hard it was for me to mod...especially when I was constantly thinking about it. Drinking was a job for me.
I am not saying that you have to quit, because you don't...you will drink as long as you want to, but don't come here and act like it's candy and rainbows now, because I have been there and it ain't...it's hell. And for the first 3 months quitting was close to hell, but that hell was well worth the payoff in the end.
You and RC can continue your way, and continue drinking excessively and pat yourselves on the back to make each other feel better. All I'm saying is don't paint a pretty picture about it, because it might influence someone to believe that you found that wonderful makebelieve world where alcoholics can just slow down and live a wonderful life. Because there ain't no such place.
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