Muffin Monday

[Bookish]

Muffin Monday

Hi all,
I was good with moderation last week, but what I noticed was by drinking even small amounts, 1-2 glasses of wine a night, my limits for the weekend went up. I never felt I was out of control, but my waist line cannot take the extra calories. My weight goes up, my self-esteem goes down and then I end up drinking more. Not a good formula for success, so I will be AF during most of the week as well.

I wanted to let you know my close family had a bad ?Cell Phone? scare this weekend. It seems my 13 year old cousin has been text messaging and receiving pornographic pictures from someone claiming to be her age over her cell phone. Her parents found out about it accidentally this weekend and have already reported it to the police. The reason I bring this up is because at this point her parents and the police are pretty sure the only way she could have hooked up with this person is through a chat room solely accessed by her cell phone. I wanted to pass this on because I think of myself as pretty tech savvy and I didn?t know this was possible. It has been quite a scare for my family.

I?m thinking of all of you today and will try and get back later.

Laura

[Mighty Mouse II]

Muffin Monday

Hi, just dropping by; WOW! A lot going on!

E, thanks for sharing -- you are right, it is hard to stay tiny -- I love the group support in the focus on fitness area -- hope it works for all of us!

Gypsi, wherever you are, my prayers are with you! So sorry to hear about your loss. If you need anything, please do not hesitate to PM me if you feel I can help you in any way.

MKR - Mary, glad to hear work is going well -- hope you get some time to relax in all of that.

Allie, glad to hear about your cat.

PP, glad you got to rest and CONGRATS on the AF

Hawk, thanks for the kind words and it is soooo wonderful to hear from you. Always miss you when you are away.

Laura, thanks for the heads-up on the cell phone -- that is scary!!!

Beth, CONGRATS - you are doing great!

Lush, good luck with your AF's -- you have so much strength, I'm sure you will accomplish anything you put your mind to!!

Sophia, that was such an incredibly touching story.

Jen, sounds like you had a great weekend, I hope you week goes well also.

Mike, hope you are continuing to re-cooperate.

Love to all; please forgive me if I have forgotten anyone; I love you all, but the memory fades with age (and sometimes I feel older with each passing minute!).
MM

[Saint Jude]

Muffin Monday

Hey there everybody:hiya: Looking like another pretty day here! I had a fun wake up this morning. I was snoozing back to sleep after Scott left for work... just being lazy on my day off, when I felt this thumping on my side... I opened my eyes & realized it was my doggie sleeping beside me having a dream about something,... and wagging his tail, thumping me in the process! Had to get up smiling.

Gypsi, sending many prayers & hugs your way...:h Please do stay close if you can. I have something I'd like to send you. I'll PM ya.

Allie so glad to hear your kitty's doing better. It's hard having sick "babies" just tears your heart out...

MM it sounds like you are doing so well moderating! Awsome job!

Fan, great to see ya again! Love the bathroom story..well kinda.

I'm doing much better..comparitively speaking... But I still could be more "strict" with myself. It's all good though. I'm not gonna beat myself up for behaviors that have taken a lifetime to learn. Just keep working at it as I go.
We are all works in progress, for that I think we all have a lot to be proud of!



Love & hugs
Judie

[dilayne]

Muffin Monday

Hi everyone..just a flyby here, but I guess I'm officially a moderator today because after 4.5 months I had some wine Saturday night...my husband shared a large bottle...long story, but some unexpected family business has come up that has required my four other sister's (from my father) and I needed to align on some...we live hundreds of miles apart and it took a few days to do it...so, stuff came up, but it's all smoothed out now and everybody is happy..looks like we may be recieving some unexpected income from a mineral rights deal on some property that my father once owned. He's been gone for 20 years, so you can imagine the surprise!

I'll try to check in for more personals when the dust settles around her. Hugs to those who need them and cheers to those who want them..and a slap and a laugh with those in the mood! :0)
XOXO
di

[dilayne]

Muffin Monday

..geez...sorry for the illegibility of my last post...hope you could make sense of it! whoa Di, slow down!!!

[DidItForMe]

Muffin Monday

Hello All and (hopefully) happy Monday:
Beth: I just read what you wrote on Sunday about drinking being such a head trip and it is so true for me as well. I actually find myself thinking that I don't really WANT a drink, but that it is TIME for a drink. If I don't drink NOW, I won't have time for it LATER. How bizarre?! Does anyone else feel like this? I have just increased my Topa to 100mgs and I can feel some of the positive effects, but I still want to understand what happens in my brain.

Hugs to all, and double hugs to all who need them more.

[Preciouspinot]

Muffin Monday

Yes, I am in the same boat with you Beth and Did it...in this rush and hurried life...sometimes it feels like I need to hurry up and have a drink because can't later so, I can hurry up and relax / switch gears ect....I am finding other ways to relax these days!

[Hawk]

Muffin Monday

Yup - I'm with you Beth, PP and Did It. When I am in the store I think, "What if I run out or can’t get out tomorrow and I might (haha) want some wine? I better buy 2 bottles." Then, I drink one and foolishly think I can have A glass out of #2 and then I drink ? or ? of that bottle and dump the rest so I don't drink it. What a waste. So now I stand there and talk to myself in the wine store - "just buy one - then you will drink no more than one." It must be an absolute riot to work in the liquor store and watch idiots like me.

Judie – I love the doggie in the bed story. Nothing better than that! I really miss my pups.

E – So good to hear from you, love. Been thinking of you.

Laura – I hear you on the waistline thing. It’s a vicious cycle. So hard to break.

Di – I hope you are ok with having had the wine – be easy with yourself but stay your course. And Hey – Congrats on the mines – I’d celebrate too!!!

[dilayne]

Muffin Monday

Hawk..thanks!
I'm having some wine tonight as well. My husband is at his 'men's' meeting and I just wanted to have some alone. I'm sneaking it..it's crazy. I definitely prefer to drink alone. I guess I hit overload with emotions..it wasn't so much the actual news about the possible drillings, but family..we are all spread out. It's amazing how you can not see eachother for six months at a time, but you pull us all together (via email, an issue or a conference call) how all of a sudden, you have 5 15 year old midlife women..and then there is mom...Today I made copies of my fathers will, the papers for an old trust fund (we never really recieved any money, so that makes all of this doubly intense) and then I'm copying his post mortem papers and broke out in tears in Kinkos..out of the blue, so I'm just observing how I can really fill up with some emotions...act very well in intense situations (I'm the peacemaker and organizer)...I guess it reached an unconscious breaking point because I didn't think twice about having some wine. It doesn't help that my husband, who has abstained along with me, hints every once in a while about having wine..I know he wants us to have some sometimes, but since our therapy together about it, he hasn't been willing to suggest it..so he is operating covertly..it's so obvious to me!!! And, I think I've told you what his ulterior motive is most of the time..it kind of makes me angry because when I want to drink, it's not for the same reasons as him...so I'm walking on fragile ground. I'll see my therapist Wed. unless I can get in to see him tomorrow to help me deal with some of these feelings I'm wanting to drown..and get back on track.

it's a wild and complicated ride....glad you guys and gals are here. I am ok though, I don't want anyone to worry! The only thing I'm worried about is getting caught! :0)
di

[dilayne]

Muffin Monday

where is everyone?

[InnerStrength]

Muffin Monday

Hey Di
Im here. JUst checked in quickly. I understand what you are talking about. There are so many underlying emotions and things that go hand in hand with drinking its really amazing. You have been dealing with a lot of emotions, no one can blame you for wanting to blot things out. Gosh, how many times have I turned to alcohol to help ME cope with something?? Too many to count?.
You have been doing so well with the AF though and I can only imagine that you have probably been feeling some resentment too toward your for husband hinting that he wants to drink without coming out and saying it. So maybe you figure you might as well have some wine now, thinking this might be what you and your husband try doing again (drinking in moderation)...I could be way off base, but if that's even slightly how you are feeling, I completely understand this. When I am trying for a period of AF (usually because I want to but also because my husband is pushing for it) but then I know an event is coming up at which my husband has already indicated that we can have some drinks, that gives me a reason to go off the AF train before that event. I think to myself, why torture myself (horrible way to put it eh??) up to then if I am obviously not going to be AF for life? What a horrible mindset. I just got the CDs a short while ago, so I really want to delve into those. But I am thinking that I should really get into some sort of counselling as well..
Anwyays I am here for you Di...thats what my rambling is really supposed to mean
Love you
Jen

[dilayne]

Muffin Monday

Hi Jenneh..thanks for being there...you encapsulated what I'm feeling very well. I'm not going to burden myelf today, or this week whether I am going Abs or Mods...this is where I am today, and harmones are blazing..so, I'll be gentle with myself and get back on track in a few days. Thank you again..it's a trip, isn't it?
:0)
d

[eustacia]

Muffin Monday

Gypsi, if you check in tonight, I want you to know that I'm sending you love and a lot of hugs.:l

:heart: E

[InnerStrength]

Muffin Monday

I find that when it is just before that time of the month, my hormones really make me crave drinks!! I have really discovered this lately. That and food - food really seems to bring out craving too - if I am hungry, this seems to have a major impact as well. If I eat, this seems to calm things down, which I discovered last night. I had cravings last night (which is rare for a Monday) and the only thing I could attrinbute it to is the exitement of getting this house coupled with hormones from that time of the month....but i faught it off (reluctantly) by having a nice dinner and a latte. It just really shows how much food/hormones really effect our cravings!!
Love you all
Jen