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[sammys]

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Hi everone to those doing ok I am so glad and to those who need encouragment I truly believe you are in the right place by being here now. Things can and do get better. I have a ton of work to complete today yet but all of your posts made me respond even if it is brief.

Take care you guys,
Sammys

[Beaches]

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So basically I called the school and decided to stop proscrastinating. Why is is so easy to advocate for the entire world and not yourself sometimes. I was told "well it depends" I depends on who is available and we'll see if some aides stay and who's there and then I started questioning more and was told that if I found an aide maybe they could accomodate me and train the aide before school started in his current program. Never talked about the consultant...that was tabled until the big meeting in April. I'm left a bit unsettled but not sure if I should be. Oh well I guess that's life. Still got laundry to do and a diaper to change now....good thing I have many distractions at any given moment.

[chrysa]

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Hello,
Everyone. Meant to sign in this morning but forgot. Took a topamx yesterday & drank some wine. Woke up feeling fine except was exhausted all day. I know I can't tolerate the topa so I am just going to do it every other day as a kick start.

Wanted to say that I really like the leaders here .. so to speak. I don't feel that I have to declare a detailed plan & then have to report on it everyday. I think that will work better for me -- psychological thing.

Hope you all have a good evening.

Welcome or welcome back Lose. I think you have come to the right place. I think if you read all over the forums you will be able to create a program that's just right for you & support for it. Good suggestion to post in the bigger forums like General Discussion & Just Starting.

~C~

[Allie]

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Hello everyone,
Seems like everyone is treading their own waters in shallow or deep these days. I for one decided last week to start the whole program over as if it were the first time as I had gotten slack with certain supps I'd run out of of and the CDs. So I took inventory over the weekend to see what I needed to get to start fresh on Monday. One thing I never got was a pill box to organize them, which is amazingly helpful. Also found out the cheap versions of Kudzu Ive been using are not effective, and after talking to others who swear by the brand endorsed here by RJ, I just got through ordering it. I was AF last night and did great over the weekend and going on four days of feeling great and just as I processed my order, the phone rang and it was my daughter crying hysterically and I immediately knew she had been in a wreck. She is okay, and my husband is on his way to get her. This is the 3rd wreck she has had since she got her license in July, although the first was not her fault at all. The second time she scraped a parked car and now she has rear-ended somebody at rush hour on a busy road. She is fine, the lady she hit is fine but I just got off phone with her and she is hysterical and keeps saying that "her life is over" as she knows we will not let her drive for a long time much less will she have a car. She says this one is smashed in the front and probably totaled. I hope she is just being dramatic. I so dont want to go overboard with my own emotions and stress with this, and I am so glad she is okay. I worry all the time. I also am thinking that my life is about to change because now I will have to make the daily commute to drive her 40 miles each way back and forth to school each day.... I just dont know how I will do it with my 9 y/o in tow as his school starts an hour later and I cant leave him home alone. My husband is travelling almost the whole month of April, so will not be here to help me.... oh my mind is going nuts. Words of encouragement would be appreciated! I know ultimately that this too shall pass....

Allie

[cassy]

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hi losetheboooze

I guess most of us have been there..drinking night after night and functioning maybe at high professional level daily and hoping nobody notices!!!I hope not to drink during the week ever againas i really feel better getting up on time, guilt free, enjoying putting my make up,(instead of wondering about bloodshot eyes, broken veins.

i can brush teeth without thinking "have i got alcohol breath".I can eat a fruit salad and yoghurt for breakfast without the "perhaps i cant face breakfast just yet feeling"

I can look at myself in the mirror and believe i am good enough and really loved by God.


Its good to go sometimes with friends and not be drinking sd it guarantees no tears, tantrums, inappropriate behaviours...just a good evening.

Like you i want so much to moderate..I dont know if thats possible for me ..as i havent tried it since coming to this site...I,m DAY 30 AF today and my goal originally was to get through the 40 days aof Lent(I started AF before Ash Wednesday) and have a few wines on Easter Sunday with a meal.

I read bible reading briefly each am and as a catholic am aware Easter is a time of new beginnings....not sure if this journey for me means I can try to moderate and that will be the New Beginning or does it mean AF forever??


At present I am basking in the fact I got to day 30...I have to admit i havent read the book or sent for any supplements. My style has been
1. hubby and drinking/close friend on boeard with me...they are both day 30 too!

2. I have stuck with the discipline of daily bible reading...and an English publication known as Bible Alive..which gives thoughts for the day based on the readings/ gospel. I believe the holy spirit is right in this situation with me and the power of prayer has helped enormously(Please dont write me off as some quirky Bible basher!)just trying to share strategies that help me.

3. Keep fit once or twice a week and walks after work seem to keep the fat off...I,ve ate more chocs as rewards!!

3.looking after my apppearance..new outfits, perfume, lipstick..Everything has been waxed and plucked like it never was before!!!

4.At the risk of offering too much information the one thing that takes some getting used to for me is Sex without a few wines...its been years since i didnt use a few wines as a relaxant pre ..the bedroom scene!!!
No more info on that except to say how much better to be intimate with your parner/ hubby when youa re fully alert, not smelling of booze etc and then if you manage to do whatever the plan was ....Oh no snoring, farting may follow...not attractive!!!!!!!!

worse still you wake up with yesterdays make up on...bedroom a bit whiffy, dry lips that are cracked and cant get the lippy on to and that big black cloud of guilt about alcohol, fuelled behaviours.


Oh well enough rambling ..heres hoping those of us that want to moderate can get the support to do so without crossing the fine line to drunkeness again!!!


good luck to you all


regards cassy

3.This site is also my daily strength

[Hawk]

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Lots of good stuff here today.

MRK - Hang on sweetie. you are one of the strongest, most inspirational people I know.

Allie - Glad to hear your daughter is OK. I can appreciate your worry and tell you to try not to worry so much but I don't think that's terribly helpful....You raised a smart girl and she will do ok. She'll get her focus and attention directed to the task. And you will be OK too. You know you did a good job with her.

Lose - Are you my evil twin? Have I been in your shoes. You have found a great place with a tremendous amount of support and care and friendship. Hang in here - it gets better.

Laura - Looking at my old posts is good....and bad. What a friggin lunatic I was. Now I am just a lunatic.....

Love to all!

[sammys]

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Allie what a worry for you, sounds like she is hysterical not because of the accident but because she thinks her life is over as far as driving. I think sometimes the only way to learn is to make mistakes like she is, she probably is going to realize what she has done if you give her financial responsibilites like she works and pays back the deductible.

Hope it helps
P.S. you are about the 3rd mom I have talked to this winter that had the exact same thing happen with there teenager.

Hang in there!
Sammys

[Beaches]

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Oh Allie that is so terrible. My kids aren't old enough yet but I put my mother through the same thing. She was ready to pull her hair out. I can tell you that it will get better. Take care!

[Allie]

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thanks...
She and my husband just got home about 20 minutes ago. Her face is swollen from crying and I just hugged her and felt so helpless. She is in her room crying. My husband informed me that she hit a brand new Audi TT Roadster which then slammed into a van in front of that... so there were three cars involved. Hers is totaled. The Audi is messed up pretty good on the front end, and luckily the van had only a scratch on the bumper.

She will learn a lot from this. That's one thing about her; she rarely seems to make the same mistake twice. (unlike her mother) . I'm just glad school is out the rest of this week and I have until next Monday to figure out what we are going to do about transportation with her, especially in the mornings. The evenings are a pain, but I can do them. The mornings are basically impossible for me unless my husband is here to help.

I think all the supplements are really helping today and I just took my Topamax (started back on it yesterday) and a big FAT dose of L-glut and a dose of Gaba. Sigh. Hopefully I will get to sleep early tonight and not fret.

:thanks:
Allie

[Beaches]

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Sending you big hugs Allie, I know this has to be stressful. Anytime you want to vent and talk we are all here for you.

[ScoobyDoo]

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Allie, good to hear that you're back in the swing of the programme. I can just imagine what you must be feeling with the accident! This is my worst fear for my 15 (going on 16) year old. Can your daughter catch public transport to school?

This is my first time on this mods section, and I think it's great, so I'll become a regular here.

Well, it's Wednesday here, and my second week of week night abs. I'm feeling great about it but know it will take a long time to properly adjust and adapt to the new lifestyle, and I'm not quite sure how to mentally prepare and deal with weekend social drinking yet, seeing as it's early days for me.

I'm a bit down on myself for not getting out running 3 times a week, as I know this will really help me in the grand scheme of things.

Doo

[Beaches]

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Welcome Doo Doo,
You are doing so well with your weekly abs! Glad that you joined us.

[Preciouspinot]

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Welcome Scooby Doo. Nice to have you around..

[Saint Jude]

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Hi Everybody,
Well I'm back! Fell down a REAL DEEP HOLE this past week and just now climbing back out. Glad to be back, but not quite me yet...

Allie I'm glad your daughter's ok, but sorry about the accident.
I think I need to re-start my program too. Funny we started here about the same time I think!

Welcome Lose, I think you're my Evil Twin too! I just hadn't seen her in so long... Unfortunately, she really was here all of last week... Time for me to pull my head out ... & start over. Darn it.

MKR- I sent ya a PM... Been thinking of you.

Welcome Scooby.

God it's hard to catch back up after being gone for so long.
At the risk of missing someone... Hope everyones doing well, :h
Lush, Jenneh,Hawk, Fan, PP,Tawny,Waves, Beaches,Laura, Betty Boop, Monica,Max's,Irish, Sammys... Everybody ! this board's gotten so big,
:l TO ALL!
Judie

[chrysa]

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MKR....
I am sorry that I missed this & did not reply earlier. I have been thinking about your type of situation lately...in relation to me & some others in my life....You are a special soul...one of God's own..AND could be one of his Teachers..I have read several times now that one of the first steps to becoming a real teacher is to experience loss all around. Why does this happen...I have no answer..

this is what I have learned...but what I know is that you are a deep & caring person...maybe you are being called to just continue on with how you care for others..maybe something different....forgive me, my boldness,,,but your are a wonderful person.& I do believe GOd is taking care of you.& will continue to do so..The lesson..?? I dunno......

Where is the good energy??...we live on Earth, a physical plane, not in a heavenly kingdom -- you are the source of the Good Energy...Luv..C