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    Moderation.. and your story

    I came to MWO about a month ago, ordered the CD's and supplements. I just didn't feel ready and put them on the shelf. I now really want to get going and have ordered Topa, which I should receive next week. I wholeheartetly believe in meditation and think that the CD's will be of great benefit. I also beleive in supplementing and like what I read in RJ's book about the alcoholic and Topa.

    So, I am ready.. I plan to go AF for 30 days and then see how it goes. I would love to be able to moderate and be one of the sucess stories like RJ and Brenda. But, I really wanted to hear from you guys.. I would like to hear some new, real stories...

    Thank you!
    Face your deficiencies and acknowledge them, but do not let them master you. Let them teach you patience, sweetness, insight.
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    #2
    Moderation.. and your story

    Hi MM,

    This is what I posted as my story ....

    Hi All, I've been here for 5 months now and finally have my life back, I've decided now to share my story, I just posted this in the subscriber section but wanted to share it here as well ....

    We were talking about vodka!!!!

    The night that was the worst for me was ironically the night that I bought vodka home!!!!

    It does get worse though! We used to go to france twice a year and fill our cellar with wine because its approx ?1 a bottle for what costs ?5 here, and we get free diesel and a HUGE truck with our job.....

    I'd been getting up in the night for a long time and drinking a second bottle by myself and putting the empty bottle back in the box ......then disposing of them when hubby was at work, he never fetched the bottles up so he didn't realise how quick they were going down .....

    Pretty soon I was sneaking a third bottle and on the day that Kerrie's brain surgery was cancelled at the last minute I started drinking at 6am, as soon as hubby had gone to work.....

    Soon started sneaking home form work (work with my parents) to keep topping up ....

    The day that it all came to a head was when I had been drinking all day, went along to my second job as a slimming consultant (in a pub) drank two more bottles there (told my members I had migraine) drove home terribly drunk, and picked up a bottle of vodka on the way home ...

    Told hubby that I didn't want any wine tonight as I was being good.... and went to bed with the vodka, he knew obviously, and when I wet the bed unconcious it was the final straw....

    It wasn't easy back then and I had slips, but it really is worth all the hard work ......

    Thanks to everyone here, I couldn't have done it without you ..

    Love you all very much xx

    Anyway MM, I gradually dropped my one glass a day and started later and later every day, I managed 16 days AF early january, and now I only drink at weekends and never alone .......

    All the best in your journey .....
    sigpicXXX

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      #3
      Moderation.. and your story

      Wow, Betty Boop. Thank you for your courage in sharing your story. I am so glad to hear how well you are doing. Are you doing Topa, Supplements or the CD'S?
      Face your deficiencies and acknowledge them, but do not let them master you. Let them teach you patience, sweetness, insight.

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        #4
        Moderation.. and your story

        Hi Meditation
        Yes moderation is possible. I came here a mess. Really a mess. I started out with the book, Topa and the supp's. Just recently I have incorporated the CD's and I am amazed they make such a difference. All through my teens, 20's and early 30's I used to listen to the "gentle ocean" CD when I went to bed. I guess in a sense I was meditating then and didn't realize it. Now I am back to listening to the CD's from here at bedtime.

        If you put your mind to it you can do this. It took me awhile and I still have my weak times but overall my life has improved more than I could have imagined.

        I wish you the best!
        "Keep your eyes and heart focused on the end goal at all times, and never settle for less."

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          #5
          Moderation.. and your story

          Hi MM

          For me it was the supps and the cd's but I think that it was because I really wanted it that was the main thing. If you want to do then you will ....
          sigpicXXX

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            #6
            Moderation.. and your story

            I think it is first & foremost about something in you simply really wanting it... period.

            I started here a yr ago & did well for about 5 months. But I simply could not perform on my job & in my life on the topa. I was extremely depressed & when I went off the topa then was totally disappointed. You see I was looking to something external, not internal, to fix it.

            As far as the program goes for me, I loved some of the cds & am starting to get back into them. My system was such a mess from the topa I could not tell about the supps. I now find that kudzu is very effective for cravings, but it affects my intestines. I can live with that one!!

            For now I am really tired of feeling crappy & depressed. I know one thing for sure ...I cannot drink vodka. ALthough I knew that before ...it is just seems so stupid now. Tonight I am happy because my husband brought home some vodka for some bloody mary's & I simply do not want one at all. I am sipping my sparkling wine & looking forward to a productive Saturday. Sigh..of relief...

            Deep down, the last 10 years I have had a real problem with discipline. I think I relate to ascetism & sufferring. I don't know. Honestly I don't know why or how I change. I just keep hoping that I do so for the better and that God is with me.

            I'm sure this sounds all pretty, pretty pathetic!!!.

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              #7
              Moderation.. and your story

              meditation mama,

              suffice to say, we are all different, but on a similar journey..each finds their own way....right

              where do you live in VT & what do you do? my son lives in burlington. he is a yoga instructor.

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                #8
                Moderation.. and your story

                I am feeling so motivated and wonderful today. i started the CD's this morning and LOVE them!! I am very ready for this change. I will try the Topa as I really connected with RJ in the book about genetics and brain chemistry. I have alcoholics on both sides of my family. I am OK with the fact that I am geneticly predisposed to this disease - I can live with that. I am ready to do some re-wiring and work to change my life. I am going to take this program as seriously as I have ever taken anything. I am ready and determined!!
                Face your deficiencies and acknowledge them, but do not let them master you. Let them teach you patience, sweetness, insight.

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                  #9
                  Moderation.. and your story

                  Hi all

                  well i can only say i did 45 days AF for lent and it gave me time to think what i need to do about the booze longterm. hubby did it too which was a great help.
                  Have just been on holiday and we both agreed to moderate for the week we were away and guess what...we did!!

                  we went out for meals etc and shared one bottle of wine between us and then went on the soda water or went home if it was late.. we really enjoyed the weeek abroad and we hope to support each other in moderating longterm ..plus using this site for support.have unopacked and got the soda water lined up for this evening...i dont know how it will work out for me longterm..just know today i wont be drinking.

                  whatever your plan, goals , hopes are i can only say i wish you all well.

                  Funny thing is whilst i was on holiday i kept thinking i hope everyone on here is doing ok and how pleased i found this site when i realised i had crossed into a heavy drinking pattern.

                  good luck is wished to those who find weekends tough in relation to the booze..i know how that can feel too.

                  regards Cassy

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