Thursday, May 3

[eustacia]

Hi everyone!

I guess that it is officially morning although I, at least, am angling for a way to fall back asleep even though I went to bed really early last night. Sorry about my pity party yesterday. Thanks, though, to everyone who responded.

I actually like it when I wake up at this hour. Even the cats are asleep. No one is demanding breakfast, help with homework or a walk. My time.

I'm still thinking that I might have to cut the regular use of alcohol out of my life which is certainly different from the kind of moderation that I thought that I would attempt when I found this forum. I am still so chagrined when I think of the fact that I probably had about five or six drinks at the wedding I attended this weekend and when I remember the stupidest of the comments I made. Yuck! mg

Anyway, I hope that everyone in Muffinland has a glorious day!

:heart: E

[betty boop]

Thursday, May 3

Morning E, you seem a little brighter today which is good .....

Love & Hugs to every one else ....

Paula xx

[dilayne]

Thursday, May 3

Morning Eustacia, you do sound better, glad to see you present here...and also glad to hear that you are reading of Zen...i can see how you would respond to that.

Hi Betty..you are an early riser as well, aren't you?

I'm ok this morning..still flip flopping a little about my decision to do the topa..I guess the look on my therapist face threw me a little, and then not feeling well on it really set me off yesterday afternoon. I guess I need to be patient..take it very slow, experiment with the time of day to take it. I've been taking my dose at 2:00 in the afternoon..I may need to take it even later in the day..I want to take it so that I can ward off the after work desire to drink, but I don't want to walk around in the dopa fog all day for it. Some people have stayed on a low dose over a long period of time, so that is an option for me too..I think some of the effect is psychological for me...the decision to take it is kin to the commitment to be AF. Anyway..been going to bed very early all week, that has been nice.

It's Thursday, which means tomorrow is Friday..Yay

It's been a weird week...is it just me? :0)

Have a marvelous muffin day everyone...isn't this weekend Cinco de Mayo?

[southernbelle47]

Thursday, May 3

Good morning E, Betty and Di.
Yes ,it has been a kind of weird week here at MWO.

I am happy to see that we are ALL still here and working things out in how to "do" this life we have.. It IS a process, isn't it?

In the words of our wise Weemelon..."Peckers up"!
Love,
Nancy

[Beaches]

Thursday, May 3

Good morning E, Betty and Di!

Sorry I wasn't here yesterday I will have to catch up on all the posts. Sorry you were having a tough time E and it is nice to see you back.

Yesterday we out to dinner for my mothers birthday and took all the kids. My son, who has autism, did not have a very good time to say the least. He cried and was trying to get out of his chair the entire time. He was almost wrestling me at times at the table and my brother took him outside for awhile to see if that would allow him to re-group. Well once he came back into the restaurant it started all over again. To me, I am used to this, really because it's a daily thing but to the people around me I think they thought he was a kid having a temper tantrum and was a spoiled brat. I was just about to say that when I was tapped on the shoulder. A woman said to me that she admired me for what I was doing and that her daugther worked with children who had autism. Then her daugther said you are doing a great job and keep doing what you are doing. I just took a deep breath and felt so much better. I put myself in his position and just listened to all the noises going on in the restaurant and it would be overwhelming if you couldn't process them all, people talking, dishes clattering, babies crying etc. Just another learning experience for me in the world of autism However my son was not feeling better at all so I ended up taking him home. On top of this all my husband forgot about the dinner and ended up calling after it all and felt like crap he missed it. grrr

Have a great day to all that come.

[Beaches]

Thursday, May 3

Good morning Nancy!!

Yes the full moon is over....let's get back to normal now.

[dilayne]

Thursday, May 3

Beaches...How old is your son? Sorry that I've missed that in the past. How nice to have those women affirm what you were doing..and that you could put yourself in your son's shoes in that instant...I see such a transference of love in all of those exchanges. Those are the gifts that are present everyday, all of the time..thanks for sharing that. I just really felt overwhelmed with compassion for your difficulties, but also very happy for the blessings that I know are there for your whole family with that precious boy. Namaste! :0) Di

[southernbelle47]

Thursday, May 3

Beaches,
I admire you also.
Sometimes I feel that same way when there are so many noises and conversations going on. My hubby gets mad at me when we're out because I "hear" a little of all of them!
Huggs to you
Nancy
Di...I'm glad the full moon is gone but it did help in the armidillo hunting! LOL

[sammys]

Thursday, May 3

Good Morning everyone, I to am always intrigued by people when out and the dynamic of the placed et. it is almost as much to watch as the event or dinner we are at. Beaches and Southern Belle I know exactly what you are saying in that respect. Diylane it has been a weird week for sure. Betty Boop morning to you and E glad you started today off, it made my day.

Everyone to come I say Hi!

Sammys

[optimist]

Thursday, May 3

Morning all - sure has been a challenging week so far - full moon for sure - hugs to all
OP

[fsophiah]

Thursday, May 3

Dilayne, I am exactly where you are regarding after work and wondering about topa. I had terrible digestive problems, which ended up in what was basically IBS, when I took topa last summer. I keep trying to go back on it, and I have the same problems. Interestingly, kudzu does the same thing. This is sort of discouraging because I am wondering what it is physiologically that makes this happen, whether it is my brain or my digestive system. I still have hope that there is a drug that can block the buzz and the craving. Topa did that for me, and the fog, the tingling, the strange taste of soda, were a small price to pay for the benefits. I even took imodium twice a day, but it didn't help the digestive pain. So I have been going without topa, and I still fall back on chardonnay when I'm tired or stressed.

Beaches, it seems a little odd to me that so many people have autistic kids. Beaches, happycamper, and Fan, at least. Do people drink because of the autism, or is there just more autism happening these days? What a lovely thing to happen with the lady at the restaurant. People can be kind and wonderful--we do have to remember that.

[Beaches]

Thursday, May 3

Thanks all for the kind words
Di-my son is 4.

Fsophiah-I think that autism awareness is on the rise right now because doctors are now being better educated and diagnosing children earlier who are showing signs of autism. Lots of money is finally going into research and these kids will have a chance. 1 in 150 kids are being diagnosed that's not a small number. Early intervention is the key. And yes I am still thinking about that woman today

Have a good one.

[Allie]

Thursday, May 3

Morning all~
Wow - nice to see the thread up to two pages so early (well 10 a.m.)

E- So glad you are feeling a little better today. I understand so much the analogy you shared yesterday about having your toothbrush in one hand and the toothpaste in the other, but somehow you just couldnt, or didnt have the strength to make them connect and do what they are supposed to do. I've been that way so much lately as well..... depression is the worst pain I think.

Beaches, my best friend from high school has a son with autism who is now twelve. I have spent countless hours with her and on the phone with her watching her struggles with him through the years. They finally wound up moving to a new city that had a special school that has turned out to be the best thing they ever did for him. She now works at the school as well, so its really turning into a positive. But one neat thing about her son is that he is a literal genius in the area of sculpting with clay. He has a photographic memory. He mostly does cartoon charachters, but can will do people's faces as well, and the finished product is so unbelievably detailed and real looking it is just amazing. He will spend an entire day or longer on one sculpture and he will freak out if anyone tries to get near it or touch them. Then after a few days, he will add it to his collection and then he is fine for you to touch it. They are in the process of building a website for autism awareness and selling some of his sculptures (with his permission of course) to raise money to help pay for his school. I am decorating my son's room right now and doing a "Cars" theme from the Disney movie, so I have ordered a few of the cars from him to do in clay to put on shelves in his room. Austistic children are incredibly gifted.

Dilayne and Sophia - I'm trying to find my balance again with the Topa as well. I'm on 50 mg, and cannot handle the side effects of much more than that, and this dosage seems to give me good benefits. I find if I take it around 4:30 to 5:00 in the afternoon along with two of the kudzu (from this website - its the best), then 90% of the battle is over. It even takes away a lot of the mental battle because it just "taste bud" wise, does not appeal to me at all. I just have that 10% of me that really wants that buzz, but its easier to deal with or stop at one or two glasses.

Have a wonderful day everyone!
Allie

[Lorelei]

Thursday, May 3

Last night was a bad night for me. I went to do some errands after work and ended up at the bar. My boyfriend is frustrated with me and for good reason. He says I operate just like "clockwork", every few days going out and drinking. I realized that I forgot my Kudzu yesterday but I have it today. I have promised him 10 sober days in a row.....here's to day 1.

-Lorelei

[lushy]

Thursday, May 3

Morning all! Wow, so much going on today. So nice to see.

Beaches, you know I think you are a wonderful mom. I am glad that woman got up the gumption to say something to you. It sounds like it was just what you needed right then.

E, I was sorry to hear how down you were yesterday but you have had your fair share of stressful situations. I hope you are on the upswing now.

Lorelei, good luck on the 10 days. Sometimes it is easier to grab a drink than remember to take the supps even though we know they work.

Di, sorry you are struggling so much right now. You were AF for so long and you seemed so content with it. I hope that comes back to you. Our husbands sound so similar in that they allow us to "rule the roost" but it can become overwhelming and exhausting. I understand that. And that can lead to wanting to drink to alleviate the stress. Oh boy do I get that.

Allie, sounds like you have gotten a lot of AF days in. Good for you.

I still have morning brain with no coffee yet so I know I forgot half of you but I wish you all a great day. I am ready for the full moon effect to be gone as well!!!