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    Sober Saturday Morning!

    Morning' Muffin Darlings,
    Well, it's nice to wake up without a hangover for the 5th day in a row. Just had a conversation with hubby about it all...I think he got it. What is it about men's wiring? I guess we are the same way, sometimes but it's the difference between high speed internet and dial up sometimes, isn't it. I forget that I have to spell it all out...if I could just remember that all of the time, it would save me a LOT of emotional energy. If I could be patient, he always eventually gets it...but then, of course, he forgets it in about a day, and we have to start all over again...oh, geesh...anyway, it was a good talk. I reminded him of the time when we first got married..when we met, I had stopped drinking, so he quit drinking on our first date, so, we never even had a drink together..ever. However, I did continue to sneak a little smoke, from time to time, and he caught me one time. He put his foot down and just said no. I reminded him of that, because really, that is what I wanted and needed from him at the time, I was raising children at the time and before then, all I got from men was them wanting to get me drunk or high...so it felt like a real strong act of love and strength for him to stand up for our family like that..I told him that I need him to do that for me now, if I get weak and want to drink...no to throw up his hands and say, "let's party". As a result of him saying no early in our marriage, we were able to raise our kids in a drug, alcohol and smoke free environment and it made all of the difference in the world about how we taught our kids about these things. My older daughter was already dabbling with cigs by then, so it was too late, but none of them have ever had any issues with substances and I'm very grateful. I told my husband that I am not upset about how he has been with the alcohol but it puts me in a position to where I feel like I have to bare the burden alone, and if this is the case, my best choice right now is the topamax. I'll be taking it until or unless we come up with a solid plan for the future in the event I slip up, because I know by now that if I start again, and if he joins me, that we'll fall right back in to weeks or months of drinking every night..so somebody has to be responsible. If he isn't willing to be strong for me, then I have the topamax, which is not my first choice. This isn't putting the responsibility fully on him..the fact is, is that it doesn't take but a little whisper from him that 'maybe we shouldn't drink tonight' that would turn me the other way, and if I'm so out of it that nothing will stop, me, (I've never been there before), so I'm not going to worry about that..(I guess I always have the topa, in that case.) So he is thinking about it..his first excuse is that he can't stop me..well, that is bullshit, I asked him to think about why he doesn't want to be responsible for setting boundaries and why he doesn't want to stop me...well, I know that is harder because he has to deal with himself and how he is putting some of his selfish needs above my welfare..ouch, I know that has to hurt..and you know how people can be..if it hurts, well, they usually would rather you wear it..at least that seems to be how it works around here. So that is where my story is today. Thanks for being a place I can share it. Lord knows I've needed a place to come!!!

    I hope everyone has a really good day.
    XOXOXO
    Dianne

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    p.s. I want to make it clear that the goal I have with my husband is one that our therapist has suggested in the past, and that is that we have a mutually set goals around the alcohol..which is going to have to include whether we abstain or moderate. I believe it's going to have to be abstanence for me, maybe beer for him, but minimally around me...no wine in the house..and this probably has to be permanent. We need a plan in place if something comes up and I go 'unconscious' like I did at the end of Feb. when some family news came..which sent me into two months of drinking daily. The plan would be that he has permission to pour the bottle down the sink, or something like that..I would probably determine what it is. I would most likely be fine with that as his act of strength is much more desireable to me than getting drunk..if he did it lovingly, which would most likely be his nature..so, just wanted to clarify what all of this would look like.

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      #3
      Sober Saturday Morning!

      Hi all,

      I agree that it is hard when you both want to drink really and one of you wants to stop and the other doesn't. We seem to be on a roundabout in our house. This last month was my worst since finding this site so I want a better one this month. Last night was an AF night so that is why I chose to reply to this thread. No offense to Beaches.

      I have not itme to catch up on the week's threads today so I am just hoping that people are ok.

      Love to all as always.

      Waves:l :l :l :l
      Enough is enough

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        #4
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        Hi Waves! Good luck tonight dear!
        d

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          #5
          Sober Saturday Morning!

          Good morning everyone

          Dilayne, you had me laughing with your description of men's wiring - I know exactly what you mean! And it sounds like you and your husband are settling in on what you need to do, and that's great; I hope it works for you. I'm struggling with similar issues, at this point it's my fault, not my husband's, because I haven't been clear to him what I'd like from him, I think partly because I like that he can talk me into drinking some nights....argh.

          Waves, I hope this month is better for you.

          Have a great day everyone.

          pixie
          AF since 6JUN2012

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            #6
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            I didn't see the other thread started by Beaches until just now - I didn't mean to choose sides!

            pixie
            AF since 6JUN2012

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              #7
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              Good morning Muffins! It "is" so nice to wake up on a Sat with out a hangover. The garden state allergies are kickin my behind...but that's OK.

              dilayne ..what a thinker you are!! You and your husband sound really close, as close as any female creature can be with that of the odd species..To all the men..here ..just a joke about the difference in wiring!!!

              dilayne ...how are you feeling on the topamax? Why did you choose not to use campral?

              Well I want to have a productive day so need to keep going here! Talk to you all later.

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                #8
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                Mornin' Chrysa. I never heard of campral before I guess..when I read RJs book, I just latched on to the topamax and got a prescription for it. I'm feeling OK, not great on it. Since I don't feel like I HAVE to titrate up quickly, I'm a little more relaxed about it..and I know if I drink a lot of water and exercise, It really helps, so that is what I'm focusing on..besides, I don't want to titrate up while hubby and I are in negotiations about it. Ideally, I'll feel secure enough to get off of it.

                I guess Beaches and I started at the same time..I didn't see her thread till I after I posted.

                Balancing my checkbook and hubby's books...fun, fun...then the laundry! It's wet outside, so I won't be in the garden too much, but the pond is full! YAY!

                I'm feeling FAT, FAT, FAT though! I need to get on the treadmill and knock off about 12 pounds! I'm such a vain woman, I can't stand it, even if hubby says he likes me 'this way'..I'm thinking 'WHAT WAY????' LOL!!!

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                  #9
                  Sober Saturday Morning!

                  Morning everyone! Just got a chance to check back in. Hope you all have a great Saturday and it's going to be a beautiful one here in NY.
                  Di, you really have thought this through, that is great.
                  "Keep your eyes and heart focused on the end goal at all times, and never settle for less."

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                    #10
                    Sober Saturday Morning!

                    Happy Cinco de Mayo!

                    Di, I laughed about the dial-up versus high speed internet analogy. That completely describes me and mine. I can say something that is of real importance to me, he hears me, he looks like he gets it, and then a few days later does not remember talking about it. I, like you, am trying very hard to realize there is a huge distinct difference in how men and women find their way in the world. Neither one is bad, it is just sometimes hard to deal with when I/we want it a certain way.

                    Waves, I am sorry you have not had a good month. I hope that does not keep you from posting here because you are missed around here.

                    I find May to be a very difficult month for me as both of my parents died in May. It should be a month of beauty and flowers and spring coming into full gear and instead for me it is full of dread, depression and sadness, so I am working very, very hard to not drink to numb the pain. I spent a lot of time on chat last night with a great group of people and it helped me from refilling my glass too quickly so I am feeling top notch today.

                    Pixie, Janie, Chrysa, and Beaches and everyone to come have a great Saturday.

                    P.S. If anyone has their webcam I think some of us are going to try and meet up in video chat tomorrow night around 6 pm West Coast time and 9 East Coast if anyone can join. I got to see Tawny and Jude the other night and it was great fun.
                    I'm really easy to get along with once people learn to worship me

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                      #11
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                      Lushy, I am so sorry about your parents. What a horrible thing to have both parents pass away in the same month. Love you sista!
                      "Keep your eyes and heart focused on the end goal at all times, and never settle for less."

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                        #12
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                        Different wiring for sure... But thank God the "connections" fit! LOL

                        Just having a relaxing Cinco de Mayo, so far...

                        My Hubby & I have gone around & around the issue of having alky in the house or not. Seems we always end up with some beer here eventually. At this point I'm sticking to that, and no wine. I tend to go overboard too easily when I start drinking wine, or anything stronger than beer. It's definately a full time job to keep myself in check though. Especially on my days off from work. It does help to keep myself busy, hiking or kayaking, etc...

                        Speaking of keeping busy, guess I'd better get outside & takle some weeds... yuck!

                        Have a great day everybody.
                        peace & hugs,
                        Judie

                        PS, Lushy I hope this May is better than the last for you.:h
                        The only thing worth stealing is a kiss...:flower: zwink:

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                          #13
                          Sober Saturday Morning!

                          Hello All!

                          Happy Cinco de Mayo!!!!

                          Cheers! Or Not!

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                            #14
                            Sober Saturday Morning!

                            Love it Duck!!!
                            I'm really easy to get along with once people learn to worship me

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                              #15
                              Sober Saturday Morning!

                              Fiesta, I have already played Ricky Martin and the Macharina( wrong spelling) and La Bamba its gonna be fun. I will check in later and ducky it's you!!! Off to have fun and going to moderate. Fiesta forever, come on and join the fun.


                              Senores' and Senoritas' have a mucho grande day!!!

                              P.S. I only speak and write spanglish

                              Sammys

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