30 days of Moderation

[Waves 2]

30 days of Moderation

:HTawny
Thanks Ducky
Julie hope things improve soon
R hope you too are ok

[Quiescent]

30 days of Moderation

Here

Lots to say but not enough time to say it.

I am so pleased that you are all hanging in here!

We'll talk soon.

xoxoxoxo
R-

[Waves 2]

30 days of Moderation

If you are familiar with my posts you may know that I have a tendency to count things. I once counted all the yellow days on the drink tracker for the whole of the community!

Last month I counted 6 mods days ( for me- not the whole community:H ).
This month, already, I count 16.

Not quite the 30 I was wanting but more inspirational than April was.
Thanks R :l

love Waves

[ducky]

30 days of Moderation

Waves, 16 is great! I have one more challenge ahead of me and then it will be easier for a while. I have my inlaws coming to sleep over, lol. It is generally hard to be mods on those days but I will try. I am ready for a new week/month. Tomorrow I start a new package (12 sessions) with my personal trainer. The last 12 pack was bad because I have been having a lot of minor health isssues that have made the workouts hard. I am feeling a bit better and seeing a new doc so hoping for better workouts and more mods over the next month.

R, glad you popped in. We were concerned!

Later, gators...

[julie001]

30 days of Moderation

Good morning all,

I had a successful night of mods yesterday. Our cookout was delicious. Grilled tuna, couscous with roasted garlic, and grilled asparagus. Yum. I woke up thinking about that food. We managed to polish off a few bottles of wine, but I was definitely not the biggest drinker. I actually said no a few times when they were topping off drinks. I wanted to enjoy the yummy food and not feel guilty the next day. No guilt! I had a nice time. Oh, and hubby is being more sociable. I didn't let his pouting bother me much too much. I guilt myself enough. I don't need to add more to the mix.

My mods goals this month are to beat my AF days from last month (17) and to not drink alone at home. So far so good.

Good luck moderating with your in-laws over, Ducky. When I have family over, I don't serve alcohol at all because it would become a huge drunkfest! And Waves, I love your name...it could mean waves of happiness, waves of laughter, waves of compassion...Hope everyone has a wonderful rest of the weekend. Hugs.

Julie

[ducky]

30 days of Moderation

Great job Julie! The topping off thing gets me in trouble. I need to finish a glass and count it otherwise I conveniently forget how much I have really had.

The inlaws have to have their pre-dinner cocktail. FIL is a mod drinker. MIL is a little like me, sneaking a couple more ounces here or there. So it's always tough for me to be mods because of that, and because they drive me crazy sometimes. Oh well, they leave tomorrow so it's not too bad. I just could have used a w/e without company.

Everyone have a great day!

[Quiescent]

30 days of Moderation

Oh God, I just had a whole post here and hit the wrong button and it was gone:upset:

It is important enough to write again though!

Okay, I've had an awful last couple of days.....drinking more than I should or intend to.

I spoke with a friend at a party yesterday she is three weeks AF (she had a liver test come back abnormal so she has to quit) Her doctor gave her welbutrin to help with anxiety and she is in therapy she looked awesome.

I know now that I will never be able to moderate without a solid foundation of being AF. I don't know how long that will take but it has to happen. I need help, the help of a therapist and doctor. I can't do this alone no matter how much I want to be able to, it just isn't going the way I had planned.

In August, I will have been a member of the MWO community for a year. I've tried just about everything I can to help myself and I have failed at moderation.

In the coming weeks, I will find the help I need and move to the abstinence board.

I will always come back here to share my experience because so many people have helped me get to this point.

Thank You All for your support and friendship!

I will need it more than ever soon.:l :l :l

R-

[ducky]

30 days of Moderation

R, sounds like a good decision for you. I hope you will visit us here now and then. Some of us may follow you to the ab board too. It seems like you have tried very hard to do mods so if AF is necessary so be it. Good luck and let us know how you are doing.

[Pebbles]

30 days of Moderation

R - you're right, it was important enough to write again! Sometimes the time is just right for certain things and maybe it's just the time for you to go for Abs and get a good solid grounding. You know you'll always have the support from everyone both mods and abs which ever you chose. Good luck!

I've had a mad few days myself.

I've had the dodgy pain near my right ribs, but a bit more central for a dew months now, getting more frequent and painful even though I've been cutting down a lot on my intake. Bucked up the courage and went to the GP on Friday. I was in there literally nano seconds...he diagnosed too much acid in my stomach and reflux/indigestion type issues.

I came out of the surgery gobsmacked, furious that I hadn't been given any chance to discuss any of my drinking/liver worries but also relieved that he seemed absolutley certain that he was right and it is my stomach...got some tablets, so we'll see. 3 days in and I do feel better !

Been moderating well, been out for dinner twice and only ordered small glasses of wine (2) and not topped up at home afterwards.

Then...crisis..laptop locked up and died for a day. Fortunately patrner sorted it out, but I nearly had a fit.

Also, I've had a PM from the people trying to fix the drinktracker, want to change my password so try and sort it, so if I go awol for a while, it's cos they've done it and I can't tell what they change it back to! Phew! complicated stuff.

Waves - I like your name too!

take care everyone
xxx

[ducky]

30 days of Moderation

Morning Pebbles,

Well I overdid it last night with the inlaws...I am ready to recommit. I start a new package of training sessions at the gym today. I want to get my money's worth and lose some weight. Going in with a hangover doesn't help.

I worry about my health too. I had a metabolic panel last month and my bilirubin was slightly high. The doc said he was not worried and the other liver tests were normal. He thought it was high because I mistakenly fasted. Still, I am paranoid that I have damaged my liver. I get a real liver panel later this year. I guess I'll find out the truth then, but in the meantime I have to get this under control.

Hope everyone has a great day. Off to suffer in the gym and will check back later.

[Pebbles]

30 days of Moderation

Hi Ducky,

Liver Paranoia - we all have it, difficult to mention how worried we are without saying how much we drink and for how long we've done it! I heard once, Doctors automatically double what people admit to...yikes !

have a good one at the gym.

[Waves 2]

30 days of Moderation

Hi all,
I agree- the liver paranoia gets to me every time I have the pain under my right ribs. And yes I do have the acid reflux- comes from drinking too much white wine.
R- I so well know the feeling. i too am coming up to a year at MWO and am still so far away from where I want to be. Wishing you all the best with your AF stint. I think you are being very wise. :l
Ducky, Pebbles, Julie, Hope you are well.

[ducky]

30 days of Moderation

Back from the gym after one hour of cardio and one hour with the trainer. Not the best workout but feeling better. I see I am not alone in worrying about my poor liver. I hesitate to be honest with the doc because I am afraid what happens insurance wise. We buy our own coverage and I am afraid if my record gets "sullied" we could be denied in the future...Probably not a good reason for not leveling with the doc though. I am sure they know most people lie.

Off to run errands. Everyone have a great day. Will check in later.

[Pebbles]

30 days of Moderation

Morning all,

My heartburn/indigestion came on when pregnant and stayed for ages afterwards. I used to sleep sitting up ! So I have pages on the GP's computer for meds for it, which is why I think the GP jumped at it. But he did say the place I indicated the pain was, was almost always stomach/relux/ulcer related. So hopefully it's not liver related.

Overdid it slightly yesterday, I blame the weather, we had so many plans for the Bank Holiday and then it rained for 3 days. Boredom set in and we ended up at friends for dinner where wine was flowing. I only had one glass over my allocation, but I'm now used to less so feel it more.

Never mind, back on track today.

xxxx

[Waves 2]

30 days of Moderation

One of the docs at my practice is superb but the others have you in and out as quickly as possible. But the worrying thing for me is that last time I went( about my constant coughing-which they say is due to acid reflux and sinus problems) the doc asked me if I was still smoking. I have never smoked in my life! But on her computer it said I was a chain smoker. How can that be?

R- big big hugs to you
Julie- invite me to your next cook-out please. It sounded delicious.
Ducky- congrats on being deaf to that last drop of wine left in the bottle. I can't do that. I have to buy less or throw it away.

Caved at 9:30 last night and downed 3. How dumb was that? But the trigger darts hit the bullseye after several treble 20s earlier in the evening!
:l