Hi Everyone,
Starting my own thread, but wanted to say to Janice congrats on sticking to her resolutions!
I, like a lot of others it seems, make it my goal to go AF Sun-Thur and moderate during the weekends. For me moderating is less of How Much I drink, and more of How I Feel while drinking. I always know when the next drink is going to take me from Nicely Buzzed to Drunk. Sometimes it's after two glasses sometimes four. Saturday though, I got in a funk, and irritated w/ my BF, and just sat on the couch and watched 3 episodes of Law and Order and drank the better part of a regular size bottle of wine. I was fairly drunk when I went to bed, even crying (one of the reasons why I stopped drinking alone because I tend to get very depressed and emotional) Sunday I felt depressed and almost couldn't look my BF in the eye. He had been home the whole time Sat night, but in the basement watching the GD TV like always or playing poker online. He asked me a couple times if I was going to come down and watch my movie and I just told him I was tired and didn't feel like watching it. But what I really felt was, no I'd rather sit up here by myself, be depressed, and wallow in it w/ my Best Friend Pinot Grigio.
I have done really good moderating prior to this. My biggest rules are not drinking at home and alone. I justified drinking by resolving to stay upstairs away from my BF so I couldn't say or do anything stupid while I was drunk.
I know no harm was done in the long run but just had to get it out. I have to stop feeling like it's ok to throw my rules out the window because I'm upset or depressed, as alcohol only makes all these things much worse!
Gita
Starting my own thread, but wanted to say to Janice congrats on sticking to her resolutions!
I, like a lot of others it seems, make it my goal to go AF Sun-Thur and moderate during the weekends. For me moderating is less of How Much I drink, and more of How I Feel while drinking. I always know when the next drink is going to take me from Nicely Buzzed to Drunk. Sometimes it's after two glasses sometimes four. Saturday though, I got in a funk, and irritated w/ my BF, and just sat on the couch and watched 3 episodes of Law and Order and drank the better part of a regular size bottle of wine. I was fairly drunk when I went to bed, even crying (one of the reasons why I stopped drinking alone because I tend to get very depressed and emotional) Sunday I felt depressed and almost couldn't look my BF in the eye. He had been home the whole time Sat night, but in the basement watching the GD TV like always or playing poker online. He asked me a couple times if I was going to come down and watch my movie and I just told him I was tired and didn't feel like watching it. But what I really felt was, no I'd rather sit up here by myself, be depressed, and wallow in it w/ my Best Friend Pinot Grigio.
I have done really good moderating prior to this. My biggest rules are not drinking at home and alone. I justified drinking by resolving to stay upstairs away from my BF so I couldn't say or do anything stupid while I was drunk.
I know no harm was done in the long run but just had to get it out. I have to stop feeling like it's ok to throw my rules out the window because I'm upset or depressed, as alcohol only makes all these things much worse!
Gita
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