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[Doggygirl]

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Marshy am I remembering correctly that you linked pics of your new house back when? I wonder if I'm thinking of the correct thing. Could you share those again? If you can make a box out of wood, you are miles ahead of me in that department.

DG

[greeneyes]

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Me too. I haven't moved past the chainsaw. I'd like to see links too. Got the info. you sent!

[Marshy]

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Here's some pix during the work we've been having done. GF has some of the finished work on her phone and as soon as she figures out how to download them I can post those!



Getting the chimney swept.



Old carpets gone, waiting for new flooring.



Hallway waiting for new flooring.

I don't seem to have any of the outside of the house on my computer. Will have to wait for GF to sort those out!

[Doggygirl]

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Greenie. Road trip?? Lav?? I don't know but it sure would be very fun to think about, eh?

Marshy - the pix remind me of 1) what a PIA it is to live through remodeling and 2) how fun it is to remodel!!! Can't wait to see the afters!

Still fighting the battle with sugar. This is rediculous. No sugar yesterday though and I'm determined - none today. Sugar and wheat have got to be OUT.

This is exactly like the pain, frustration, shame, etc. of drinking everyday. And also the pain, shame and frustration of the many months after relapse trying to stop again, but then kept starting again. Ugh. Just get it over with already.

DG

[Cinders]

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A shout out to DG. I am glad to see you back and posting. :-)

My husband has to follow a strict high protein diet prior to his surgery at the end of May. I am attempting to follow it with him.

The diet the doctor gave him is:

Four protein shakes a day, low carb ones, two at breakfast, two at lunch.

Chicken or fish, not fried, for dinner with a low carb vegetable.

I suffered horrible headaches yesterday and will probably suffer them for a few more days as my body adjusts. Carb reduction has its own withdrawals.

I am omitting one of the protein shakes, if possible, as I am female vs male and I would like to lose about 25 lbs. I would love to ask his doctor what diet he recommends for women vs men but figure that would cost me $$$. :-)

Speaking of the,

"This is exactly like the pain, frustration, shame, etc. of drinking everyday. And also the pain, shame and frustration of the many months after relapse trying to stop again, but then kept starting again. Ugh. Just get it over with already"

comment. I am now seeing a counselor. We discussed shame. Something many of us alcoholics have to deal with.

She pointed out that guilt is a very good emotion. It is our brains letting us know we are doing something we should stop. Remorse is a good emotion. It is our brains letting us know we did something in the past we should not do again.

We have no place in our lives for shame. It is a negative emotion and does not produce any positive action.

If you think about it, this agrees with several of the AA 12 Steps.

Marshy, I too, am remodeling. Satisfying and exhausting.

Love,
Cindi

[Lavande]

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Don't be too hard on yourself DG. We are still just human, right?

I have been dealing with some extra stress lately but have not even considered screwing up my quits. Maybe I have learned a little something along the way - yay!
My oldest brother (67) is now residing in a nursing home after having a foot amputated last weekend. Extremely poor circulation & diabetes & his lack of self-care are all to blame. Sad!
My youngest grandson spent a week in the hospital last month after a mysterious virus left him unable to swallow properly, weak & unable to walk. Thankfully he has retuned to near normal, has made great strides this past week. As a matter of fact, he walked up to me last evening & left me with a 'love bite' on my left thigh. He thought he was being funny :H It wasn't really that funny.
YB is still YB for the most part. Just another freaking hiccup in the mystery of life :H

Marshy, good luck with the renovations!
I have been through all that with 2 homes over the years.....money pits! But they did turn out pretty nice & when we sold them we made a good profit. Just remember to try to enjoy the journey

[Doggygirl]

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Hi Cindi and Lav! Wow this is like old home week. Newcomers welcome too! :welcome:

Cindi - it's so awesome to *see* you. What type of surgery is your husband preparing for? That is good info from your counselor about guilt / remorse / shame. Are you finding counseling helpful? I dont' think I could live on liquid meals and only one solid meal per day. But I haven't tried either!! Let us know how it goes for you, OK?

Lav - so sorry to hear about your brother. That is the path my Dad went down and I do NOT want to follow. Continuing to return to the sugar is NOT the way for me to go. Like you I am very glad to be hanging on to my other "quits" (booze, cigarettes, what else??). Sorry to hear YB is just still bein' YB. I bet your g-kids are adoreable as always even though they must be a LOT bigger than last time I saw pics! PICS!! YES!! Bring 'em please!!!

Well, I have had a decent eating day today. Yay. One day at a time. I'm very grateful that the compulsion to drink (and smoke) has completely left me. At least for now. I hope the sugar compulsion can be history one day as well. Abstinence is the key for me, I believe.

Well...off to the showers. Hope everyone is having a great finish to the weekend! It sure rocks to be sober.

DG

[NoSugar]

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Hi, DG

Do you test your blood glucose? My steadily creeping upwards fasting concentrations (despite a diet generally considered "good" but containing some sugar as well as carbs that are converted rapidly) were what motivated me to do whatever it took. The vast improvement in energy and general health was a nice bonus that has been increased by now eliminating AL, the worst carb of all!!

Anyway, my concentration is now normal in the morning and 25-30 mg/dL less than a couple years ago. Anyway, if you haven't tried it already (and if your levels are higher than you would like), a glucose meter can be a really useful tool.

All the best, NS

[Doggygirl]

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Hi NS! I totally agree with you about the meter being a useful tool. I have one (two actually) and do use it. I flog myself for the times when I stick my head in the sand. Because that's what it is.

Another good clean eating day here. YAY!

DG

[Lavande]

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I'm still wondering how by brother ended up an insulin dependent diabetic. No one else in the family has had it, not parents or grandparents. Could it all be due to his shitty lifestyle, maybe
In addition to using your glucose home monitors, be sure to have your docs check your A1A from time to time

[Cinders]

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Lavande;1496209 wrote: I'm still wondering how by brother ended up an insulin dependent diabetic. No one else in the family has had it, not parents or grandparents. Could it all be due to his shitty lifestyle, maybe
In addition to using your glucose home monitors, be sure to have your docs check your A1A from time to time

Lav,

The same with my brother. However, the doctors say that it is most likely that my brother "got" diabetes from taking the Swine Flu vaccine back in the 70s. A small percentage of people who had that vaccine came down with Type I diabetes and the speculation is that the vaccine caused an auto-immune response in the body that made the body attack the pancreatic cells (Isles of Langerhorn I believe?) and destroyed them.

I also knew a man who became Type I in his 30s after having a virus. The doctors told him the same thing. His body misread the viral infection as being caused by the pancreas and killed the cells.

I am sure that all Type I diabetes is not caused by the same thing but perhaps it is the result of the body misreading a response to some stimulus.

Cindi

[Doggygirl]

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Diabetes is SCARY. (that's what killed my Dad) A1C is checked every 6 months for me along with about 35739573957 other things from those many vials of blood.

Good to see you Lav and Cinders!!!!!!!!!!

Gotta make this quick tonight but am pretty excited to report that I got my letter yesterday accepting me into the Mater of Social Work program at a University near me. Scared...excited...feeling all of it today!!!

The sober life continues to roll along!

DG

[Doggygirl]

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Whew. I feel emotionally exhausted and I'm not sure why. I attended a seminar today. The morning session was on mindfulness meditation and the afternoon session was on experiential therapy. There were some exercises we did in the training that brought up some issues for me, I think.

I'm actually seeing a therapist next Tuesday. Did I mention that already??? I'm getting so forgetful. Anyway....one of this woman's specialties is EMDR (eye movement desensitization & reprocessing) and I'm hoping it can help me with the PTSD from the pit bull incident about 1.5 years ago. I'm tired of my heart being in my throat every time I try to walk somewhere and hear a dog in the distance or God forbid, have to actually walk by one. If I like her, I might also look to explore some other stuff with her.

Earlier this week I got the letter accepting me to the Master of Social Work program I applied to. I'm pretty excited (and scared!) about that. The mindfulness teacher this morning will be one of my professors at some point.

Today is day 7 back on Atkins. YAY. No sugar. No booze. No caffeine. No nicotine. No drugs of any kind except thyroid meds and aspirin. Wow I sure have a lot of addiction!!!!!! Freedom rocks, that's for sure. I think I will have more energy after a good night sleep.

DG

[Guitarista]

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Hey DG!

Congratulations on being accepted into the Master of social work program.

And congrat's on day 7 Atkins. Umm, what's that? The Atkins diet thing?

All good here. Rock on sista!

Great to see Greenie and Marshy popping in and hearing the latest goss.

[Lavande]

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Hey DG,
Congrats on your acceptance
My DIL is starting her Masters in Social Work at Bryn Mawr next month. She has advanced standing so she will go straight thru & be done in 10 months!!!!! I hope we all live thru it with her :H

Hi there G - great to see you doing well