Steadily drinking about seven standard drinks most nights of the week with a binge or two in the mix.. The effects of the acohoI has let my friends down at some point, been an average example to my daughter.. but most of all has damaged me to the point where I have little self respect. I'm in my early 30s, financially secure, have an amazing child, a highly demanding/prestious job, good looks (for now anyway) and good friends...but still feel very lonely and helpless. Truth is my father is a cronic alcoholic (with brain damage now) and I am becoming him on the "jungle juice" - so he calls it.
At nights I feel like I'm just filling in time and scared of realising my potential....a friend said to me the other day that "Im a Prada bag in the bargin bin". This rings true when it comes to my putting myself out there with guys. Pathetic sorry.
I've been a single working mum for about a year and half now and feel like I need to get myself involved in another relationship (its habitual for me) so I can be emotionally co-dependant and again delay taking responsibility for my own issues.
I know I'm not ready for a relationship now..but I want one! Another drink too please!
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