I already posted this on another forum, but I'm going to post my whole story here. Please feel free to leave any comments, as the only person I can really talk to is my husband.
I am 39 years old, and have never been much of a drinker. I might drink some wine coolers or something a few times per year but thats it. Then I had my 3 children within 3 years, and it was very stressful. I started drinking a few coolers at night, every so often. Then as the children got older, and on the days i wasn't working outside the home, I might have 1 cooler with lunch, and another with dinner. Then I discovered the wonderful taste of wine!! So the past several years I have been drinking wine, on the average a few BIG bottles per week. Time of day doesn't matter anymore. My husband knows how much I drink because he buys it, and I stash the bottles away, so the kids won't see them in the trash. Then he gets rid of them when it gets to be too many empty bottles in the closet.
Earlier, this year, my menstraul cycle went nuts on me. I went to the dr., who said I had elevated prolactin levels. This could be caused from many things, including alcohol consumption. Since the day I left the dr, which was 2 weeks ago, I haven't had anything to drink. I am worried about what I may have done to my body. Has anyone had this happen to them?
BY the grace of God, I haven't had anything else bad happen. No DUI's, no getting too drunk while out...none of that. But I need to stop drinking. My children are now in elementary school, and I don't want them to see anything. Life is hard enough, without having to deal with a mom who's drunk, but pretending not to be.
This secretive stuff is hard. And the paranoia about who knows what, who smells what, who thinks I might've been drinking is taking a toll. Plus the health issues...I will die if there is something wrong with me due to drinking. How humiliating to have to sit with a dr, as a kind of young (lol) mom, and have to confess to being a closet drinker. I hope it doesn't come down to that.
Thats my story. Today is 23 days without any drinking. If I hadn't have gotten scared, I might be sipping on a glass of wine right now. Give me some feeedback, please.
I am 39 years old, and have never been much of a drinker. I might drink some wine coolers or something a few times per year but thats it. Then I had my 3 children within 3 years, and it was very stressful. I started drinking a few coolers at night, every so often. Then as the children got older, and on the days i wasn't working outside the home, I might have 1 cooler with lunch, and another with dinner. Then I discovered the wonderful taste of wine!! So the past several years I have been drinking wine, on the average a few BIG bottles per week. Time of day doesn't matter anymore. My husband knows how much I drink because he buys it, and I stash the bottles away, so the kids won't see them in the trash. Then he gets rid of them when it gets to be too many empty bottles in the closet.
Earlier, this year, my menstraul cycle went nuts on me. I went to the dr., who said I had elevated prolactin levels. This could be caused from many things, including alcohol consumption. Since the day I left the dr, which was 2 weeks ago, I haven't had anything to drink. I am worried about what I may have done to my body. Has anyone had this happen to them?
BY the grace of God, I haven't had anything else bad happen. No DUI's, no getting too drunk while out...none of that. But I need to stop drinking. My children are now in elementary school, and I don't want them to see anything. Life is hard enough, without having to deal with a mom who's drunk, but pretending not to be.
This secretive stuff is hard. And the paranoia about who knows what, who smells what, who thinks I might've been drinking is taking a toll. Plus the health issues...I will die if there is something wrong with me due to drinking. How humiliating to have to sit with a dr, as a kind of young (lol) mom, and have to confess to being a closet drinker. I hope it doesn't come down to that.
Thats my story. Today is 23 days without any drinking. If I hadn't have gotten scared, I might be sipping on a glass of wine right now. Give me some feeedback, please.
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