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Billy J , I have read your 8 pages of posts and i have been fighting my addiction to alcohol for a number of years like you, I am a daily drinker and my 6-7 day binge had a 1 maybe 2 day break before the cycle continued and the frustration waking up every morning knowing i am killing myself , knowing i have lost my job, home, been bankrupt and missed my kids growing up drove me close to insanity, I went to AA numerous times over the years and i cant remember my record for being sober but it was never more than a week , 2 at the most , I was anti AA and did'nt go near the place for years until 9 days ago when i hit rock bottom , just wrecked and could'nt do this any more, Best thing i ever done , I am going to at least 1 meeting a day and making it my no1 priority and it is bloody working, i hav'nt looked at 12 steps or shared much but the meetings remove my desire to drink , not rocket science and can't explain why but i am not drinking , you said you were sober for 1 1/2 years before when going to AA , must be something there, I think i avoided going to meeting and told myself they were rubbish because in my head i knew they helped me stop drinking and i was'nt ready to stop and did'nt want to stop, i don't care if the same old timers tell the same story every day so long as i don't drink. I am still only sober a short time but also aware that i am not cured of this disease and never will but i pray i can keep going and stay sober. what have you to loose, if you want it bad enough you will do what it takes , good luck and keep posting:goodjob:
Billy J , I have read your 8 pages of posts and i have been fighting my addiction to alcohol for a number of years like you, I am a daily drinker and my 6-7 day binge had a 1 maybe 2 day break before the cycle continued and the frustration waking up every morning knowing i am killing myself , knowing i have lost my job, home, been bankrupt and missed my kids growing up drove me close to insanity, I went to AA numerous times over the years and i cant remember my record for being sober but it was never more than a week , 2 at the most , I was anti AA and did'nt go near the place for years until 9 days ago when i hit rock bottom , just wrecked and could'nt do this any more, Best thing i ever done , I am going to at least 1 meeting a day and making it my no1 priority and it is bloody working, i hav'nt looked at 12 steps or shared much but the meetings remove my desire to drink , not rocket science and can't explain why but i am not drinking , you said you were sober for 1 1/2 years before when going to AA , must be something there, I think i avoided going to meeting and told myself they were rubbish because in my head i knew they helped me stop drinking and i was'nt ready to stop and did'nt want to stop, i don't care if the same old timers tell the same story every day so long as i don't drink. I am still only sober a short time but also aware that i am not cured of this disease and never will but i pray i can keep going and stay sober. what have you to loose, if you want it bad enough you will do what it takes , good luck and keep posting:goodjob:
it took me 41 years ti figure everything out,this sitee also helped me figure that out,rethinking,teaching the brain,not the brain teaching me and telling me what to do,is what we were tot a lie,somewhat,what our for fathers and mothers did,was not rite,this drinking ,drug thing has been going on for years,it will never stop,on its own.i ve learned to moderate,but every once in a while i like to walk into a wall,then like ground hog day,i pick myself up and try try again,do i want to stop forever,no,but ive lerned to deal with that aspect of my life,:thanks:without people like you,:upset:i could become sad again.:thanks:gycogood luck to you
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