I dont know who started this site, but THANK YOU. Im 50 yrs old male, have a 27 yr old son and a 21 yr old daughter. Been married for 28 years. Im a binge drinker who can leave the booze alone for 4-6 weeks and than BOOM,OUT OF NO WHERE, I'll start a 4-6 day drinking binge and go completely out of control and drink until im so darn sick, that I MUST quit. Quiting is pure HELL for me, I have severe DTs, horrible dreams, cannot eat, my liver hurts,and I cant urinate correctly because my kidneys hurt from all the abuse of the binge drinking. Blood pressure usually hits 185/127 and im a walking TIMEBOMB.
I quit and joined AA and went COMPLETLY cold turkey with NO BOOZE at all,for a year and a half. Than I got tired of the same old stories you hear in AA all the time and decided it was time to ENJOY myself again and restarted drinking about a year ago.Today will mark the 6th day OFF of my last 5 day binge and im starting to feel pretty good again.I found this site when I looked up the new drug CAMPRAL that my doctor just ordered me on Monday.
Im very healthy when im not drinking. I pump Iron for about 45 minutes a day,and do about 25-30 minutes of cardio-4-5 times a week. I take a ton of herbs and vitamins during this time as well. BUT, when the binge drinking occurs, all this HEALTH just goes for NOTHING.Alls I give a darn about is the HIGH from the binge and NOTHING else matters. Im sick and tired of putting myself thru this and sometimes I just wished that God would just take me,but I love my family so much, that I dont want to imagine what their life would be without me here. My poor wife of 28 years? I often WONDER what has kept her here for so long? She tells me that im a great loving and wonderful person when im not in the Binge mode.
SO, Since I quit once for a year and a half, im going to TRY and go ALL THE WAY this time. I'll start the Campral as soon as it arrives from the mail order as permy Insurance.And I'll visit friends in here like there is no tommorow. Im not shy at all when it comes to open forums, I use various sites not related to booze all the time.
Yes,im SCARED because I have not learned to have a ''GOOD TIME'' without involving booze and when im sober, I cant stand to be around people that are drinking, they irritate me. So im going to have to LEARN how to have a ''GOOD TIME'' without involving booze.
I'll give it my best shot this time. Doctor says if I was'nt in such good shape before I start these binges, that I'd of probably been dead 5 years ago,and this SCARES the heck out of me.
SEE YAH ALL------OFTEN.:new:
I quit and joined AA and went COMPLETLY cold turkey with NO BOOZE at all,for a year and a half. Than I got tired of the same old stories you hear in AA all the time and decided it was time to ENJOY myself again and restarted drinking about a year ago.Today will mark the 6th day OFF of my last 5 day binge and im starting to feel pretty good again.I found this site when I looked up the new drug CAMPRAL that my doctor just ordered me on Monday.
Im very healthy when im not drinking. I pump Iron for about 45 minutes a day,and do about 25-30 minutes of cardio-4-5 times a week. I take a ton of herbs and vitamins during this time as well. BUT, when the binge drinking occurs, all this HEALTH just goes for NOTHING.Alls I give a darn about is the HIGH from the binge and NOTHING else matters. Im sick and tired of putting myself thru this and sometimes I just wished that God would just take me,but I love my family so much, that I dont want to imagine what their life would be without me here. My poor wife of 28 years? I often WONDER what has kept her here for so long? She tells me that im a great loving and wonderful person when im not in the Binge mode.
SO, Since I quit once for a year and a half, im going to TRY and go ALL THE WAY this time. I'll start the Campral as soon as it arrives from the mail order as permy Insurance.And I'll visit friends in here like there is no tommorow. Im not shy at all when it comes to open forums, I use various sites not related to booze all the time.
Yes,im SCARED because I have not learned to have a ''GOOD TIME'' without involving booze and when im sober, I cant stand to be around people that are drinking, they irritate me. So im going to have to LEARN how to have a ''GOOD TIME'' without involving booze.
I'll give it my best shot this time. Doctor says if I was'nt in such good shape before I start these binges, that I'd of probably been dead 5 years ago,and this SCARES the heck out of me.
SEE YAH ALL------OFTEN.:new:
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