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[KateH1]

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Bootsie.................thank you...that was amazing. Extremely amazing........................................... .................................................. ............................................I should give barbie more credit!

Just kidding, truly, thank you for those beautiful, insightful words.....may I join you two on the beach?

[trixietrack]

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bootsie you are a poet

[free bird]

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Determinator, Wow....It takes a lot of courage to write what you did. I think it's how we begin to heal ourselves...I wish I had your guts.

Bottsie, That was truly beautiful.....thank you.

[bootcampbarbie]

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ah thanks guys. appreciate the love and i really just appreciate all that we have here at mwo. so det congrats and welcome back to af land. i now actually fell off the af wagon last nite. not hard just a few drinks. but well back on the af train today with you

[MyOwnWoman]

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OMG - Determinator, I just remembered that last night I had a dream that I saw you and Mrs. Dx on some TV show last night, and they even had your name on the bottom of the screen as Determinator. I remember thinking, 'He doesn't look anything like I would have imagined'. You were short and of apparent middle-eastern descent, shaggy dark hair covering most of your face. Is this what you look like?
I hope you're feeling better. Apparently there are a lot of folks thinking about you lately...

[Determinator]

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LOL, MOW, sad to say I don't look like Apu from the Simpsons (though I do have many cherished freinds from the far east). I'm semi-heavy set anglo with almost no hair..since I cut it myself with one of those buzz-cutter thingys. I do have a couple strange pics posted on the forums...thinking of adding a few more. XXX yes feeling better today. still shook up but eating again which is a good sign for sure

[SKendall]

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D and Dx - I am honoured to know you both.

A heartfelt thank you.

Love Hilary

[bootcampbarbie]

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my little dwarf friend is quite handsome actually........ lmao

[bootcampbarbie]

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i'm the one who is middle eastern.....

[hippie37]

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What a shitty childhood you've had D
I didn't realise just how much the Aussies (and Kiwis for that matter) took this male macho drinking bullshit until I saw a film called "Once were Warriors" about a hard drinking New Zealand guy. Thankfully I've never had to relate to this kind of drinking living in the UK.

It sounds all to familiar though with the miss spent youth due to alcohol and drugs. I was very much the same in that respect, not nearly as rough though as you had it with family members etc. I'm still today probably a big kid at heart because I missed out on a big important part of the learning curve during those teenage years. I never learned to take responsibility for my actions as I always had the drink as an excuse to back me up all the time. It was my best friend and got me out of all kinds of shit. The thing I find today with being A/F is that I can learn these things I missed out on as a child and bring some normality into my life (well as normal as you could get for me!). The hardest part is to not lose your identity with it. You can still be the person you are know and keep your ideals etc but doing that being sober takes hard work and effort. I've stopped hiding behind the booze and using it as crutches to get me through life and macho bullshit aside its fuck'n scary as hell at first But I am so starting to reap the benefits now and especially concerning my 3 year old daughter.

I am truly sorry to hear about your shitty childhood but your drinking now seems an extension of that and to me you need to break the ties with the past.

Good luck Deter and although I haven't been around that long it seems you and your wife have many good friends on here already for help and support I hope I have the same influence as you in making friends here myself.

Love and Happiness
Hippie
xx

[Chief]

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I'm glad you're back with us, Det.

You were dealt a tough hand, and as they say, you have to play the hand you're dealt...
You have played it well. My hat is off to you. Please stay the course and always remember we are all here..

Don

[hart]

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I'm so glad u and Ms. Detx r here for us and each other. U r a very special part of MWO :l

[livingfree]

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you are an inspiration to me

I should be working right now but am sitting here crying reading this. Esp. because as I watch these boards you are one of the people that truly inspires me so much Determinator. Wow - What a story you have to share and what an inspiration you are to me. To see where you walk every day - how each day is a commitment to beating this - I am at a loss for words. Thank you
Liv

[happydog]

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Det.....Reading your story has made me get a big lump in my throat......glad you made it through the other end, you are a good strong person...... just like to give you a big:l

Love

Teardrop.x

[universal]

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Det - you are such an amazing part of this website and have helped me already more than you know! You have such a great positive outlook - it's amazing to see especially after what you have been through. Your story truely touched my heart.

So glad to know you.
Love and Hugs,
Uni