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Hi I have only discovered this site today.
Again I'm going thru the depressive state i feel after another bender of a weekend. I don't drink daily, however i find i can't really go more than a few days without thinking/craving for a drink. The best i can to is 1 week. I find when i drink i completly loose control and don't know when enough is enough. I thought it was just me, however i'm realising after reading the posts that what i had been suspecting, is I am developing a problem. I feel shame and depressed after my drinking, whether it's a big nit out (in a small town, not good!) or just at home, not remembering how i got to bed etc. I black out often, almost every time, even only after a few drinks. I want to stop drinking, I don't want my kids to see me drinking all of the time. Today is AF day no.1. As i'm not too regular in my drinking, it's been easy, however in two or three days, i really need to support my decision. I feel ashamed and hate myself when I drink. I want to learn to be me and confident on my own, not behind alchol. I know when i learn to do that i'll have total respect for myself. Untill then I'll day each day as it comes.
Hi I have only discovered this site today.
Again I'm going thru the depressive state i feel after another bender of a weekend. I don't drink daily, however i find i can't really go more than a few days without thinking/craving for a drink. The best i can to is 1 week. I find when i drink i completly loose control and don't know when enough is enough. I thought it was just me, however i'm realising after reading the posts that what i had been suspecting, is I am developing a problem. I feel shame and depressed after my drinking, whether it's a big nit out (in a small town, not good!) or just at home, not remembering how i got to bed etc. I black out often, almost every time, even only after a few drinks. I want to stop drinking, I don't want my kids to see me drinking all of the time. Today is AF day no.1. As i'm not too regular in my drinking, it's been easy, however in two or three days, i really need to support my decision. I feel ashamed and hate myself when I drink. I want to learn to be me and confident on my own, not behind alchol. I know when i learn to do that i'll have total respect for myself. Untill then I'll day each day as it comes.
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