Dear addiction
Dec 27 2007
Needed to drop a line to my one time, and what I thought was a life long friend. In the beginning you were great. With you I felt good about myself, you got me through tough times and bad situations, you also helped me meet countless people, and we always had fun when we were together.
Without you was good too, but tended to get boring quite quickly. I was very young, looking for new life experiences, I needed to sow my oats and keep my adolescent mind full of new hopes, thoughts and experiences. With you I achieved this by always meeting new people and exciting situations. After our relationship grew and we fell in love, doing anything without you seemed pointless. As in any relationship it takes a while for the true colours to show. I discovered what a thoughtless, selfish bitch you really were. Because you had already taken a lot of my strength and soul, showing you the door seemed out of the question, so I kept you around. I tried several other love affairs. This was in vain, as you always managed to chase them away. For you this wasn't enough, not only did you chase the people, most important and beneficial in my life away, but you started stealing my money, sanity and well being. Next you decided to become my own personal judge, only allowing me to do things that kept you occupied. Once in a while, when you couldn't be around, you handed me over to the courts, they judged me and locked me up so you wouldn't miss anything.
Ironically, every time you did this, it was for things you had me do. You're a rat, a cheat, a piece of shit. Still being not so young but apparently quite stupid, I kept you around. Today I decided to sit down and ponder why nothing in my life seems good anymore. What I realized was you molded my life, which now seems really screwed up. I look at my bank account and assets and wonder why they are miniscule, despite the fact I have always made as much or more money than the people around me, my age. They are set for life, Im not. I look at numerous long term relationships, all of which were great, and there gone. I wonder why when I'm around solber people a lot of times, I feel totaly out of place, and don't always no what to say or do. I'm running out of space to continue this list, it could go on indefinitely, but I must assume you get the point.
I now realize that for the last 25 years or so you have been nothing more than a menace to me. Now it's time to say goodbye FOREVER. I can no longer trust you, you steal from me 24/7. For this it is now my turn to play judge. For all your crimes against me, I give you a life long restaining order against me. This should keep you out of my life forever. I can only whish I could put you to death, so you couldn't use anyone else like you've used me. Unfortunately, this is not possible. So to sum up this letter I'll make it short. Dear addiction: FUCK YOU!! You are out of my life, My new friend recovery, and some good solber people have taken your place. So long FOREVER.
Sincerly
Bill
Former out of control boozer.:wavin:
Dec 27 2007
Needed to drop a line to my one time, and what I thought was a life long friend. In the beginning you were great. With you I felt good about myself, you got me through tough times and bad situations, you also helped me meet countless people, and we always had fun when we were together.
Without you was good too, but tended to get boring quite quickly. I was very young, looking for new life experiences, I needed to sow my oats and keep my adolescent mind full of new hopes, thoughts and experiences. With you I achieved this by always meeting new people and exciting situations. After our relationship grew and we fell in love, doing anything without you seemed pointless. As in any relationship it takes a while for the true colours to show. I discovered what a thoughtless, selfish bitch you really were. Because you had already taken a lot of my strength and soul, showing you the door seemed out of the question, so I kept you around. I tried several other love affairs. This was in vain, as you always managed to chase them away. For you this wasn't enough, not only did you chase the people, most important and beneficial in my life away, but you started stealing my money, sanity and well being. Next you decided to become my own personal judge, only allowing me to do things that kept you occupied. Once in a while, when you couldn't be around, you handed me over to the courts, they judged me and locked me up so you wouldn't miss anything.
Ironically, every time you did this, it was for things you had me do. You're a rat, a cheat, a piece of shit. Still being not so young but apparently quite stupid, I kept you around. Today I decided to sit down and ponder why nothing in my life seems good anymore. What I realized was you molded my life, which now seems really screwed up. I look at my bank account and assets and wonder why they are miniscule, despite the fact I have always made as much or more money than the people around me, my age. They are set for life, Im not. I look at numerous long term relationships, all of which were great, and there gone. I wonder why when I'm around solber people a lot of times, I feel totaly out of place, and don't always no what to say or do. I'm running out of space to continue this list, it could go on indefinitely, but I must assume you get the point.
I now realize that for the last 25 years or so you have been nothing more than a menace to me. Now it's time to say goodbye FOREVER. I can no longer trust you, you steal from me 24/7. For this it is now my turn to play judge. For all your crimes against me, I give you a life long restaining order against me. This should keep you out of my life forever. I can only whish I could put you to death, so you couldn't use anyone else like you've used me. Unfortunately, this is not possible. So to sum up this letter I'll make it short. Dear addiction: FUCK YOU!! You are out of my life, My new friend recovery, and some good solber people have taken your place. So long FOREVER.
Sincerly
Bill
Former out of control boozer.:wavin:
zwink:
c: :heart:
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