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[DiscoBunnie]

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Hi again!! Honestly you guys would smile if you knew how much I bounce around this site, trying to get back to this thread! Thanks for hanging in there with me (in many more ways than one!) So back to whats is taking the place of "al". Abelltoday is extremely productive, amazing how much energy one finds when "al" stops robbing of us of that precious ability to actually "do" things. For the moment, I am absorbing the clarity of life that comes with 14 days!!

My son moved back in, that is definately a plus! I took one week off work to "renew" myself. I'm walking the dog almost daily. I wouldn't recomment roller skating and if you do venture there, buy the "good" pad's!!

It is not always easy, and "al" does pop his head in every now and then. It takes everything I have, including the powers at be, to run him off. I have to share with you that I've had a recurring dream, I drempt I got drunk and woke up with that ever familiar haze, guilt, shame and disgust. I was so upset that I ruined my AF days. Then I wake up feeling a huge sense of relief that it was just a dream! Some sort of energy force keeping me on my toes I guess!

Hope everyone is doing well. You are all in my thoughts daily and always in my prayers. Keep it sober, you are worth it!!!

Hugs,
-the Bunnie

[derrygirl1]

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DB,
Welcome, I grew up with my mother drinking almost every night and I'd have to carry/help her to bed, and I swore I'd never be like that, fast forward XXXX years and I feel I've missed the last 7 years of my childrens lives. But children are very forgiving....good luck and congrats on 14 days.

[Janice]

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Discobunnie, welcome to MWO. You have come to the right place!!! You'll soon get used to the boards - everyone has their "favourite" place I suppose but you can "jump" around any of the forums and post on anyone's thread or start a new thread of your own. You'll soon get the hang of it. Personally, I have a soft spot for "Starting Out" and the newbies in need daily thread. We check in daily to see how everyone's getting on - and to support and encourage each other along the way. Good luck on your journey - you've made a great start!! Janicexxx

[Lotus]

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Hi DB

Just read your post and wanted say a big welcome.

I am sure you will find all the support here.

Mandy x

[DiscoBunnie]

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Thanks for the reply's Derry, Janice and Mandy... You are very right about there being a lot of support here. I couldn't have done this without all of you guys. So far so good, but I have been struggling with one thought... " I keep waiting for that overwhelming craving to rage its attack on me!" So far, its been 31 days AF and some days are easier than others, I just keep waiting for that "moment" to hit me.

I keep repeating to myself, "don't take that first sip..." after about 100 repititions of that mantra, I can take some deep breath's and move on, its rather scary...

Its raining like crazy here in Southern California!! What are some fun outside activities/hobbies you enjoy while AF?
I tried roller skating, that is TOTALLY out of the question!!

You are all in my thoughts and prayers and remember, "don't take that first sip!" ....
-mary

[universal]

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Hey Disco,

Wow, your story hit home - I have many times been afraid that my daughter would leave to go live with her dad because of my behaviour and she's only 7! But even at that young age she has said to me many times "mom, why were you walking funny last night?, or mom, you didn't make any sense last night" - scary things.......

I am on day 5 and happy to be here - 12 AF days so far this month - this place is a great place to be.

As for where to go - I like the newbies in need thread on just starting out - go there everyday and post and read, very helpful.

As for what to do? I live in Canada so I have to be inside right now (flippin freezing outside - LOL) so I read a lot, play board games with my daughter or just order a pizza and veg with a movie.......usually do laundry, folding etc while watching a movie to keep my hands busy.......

But I really enjoy a cup of tea with a book or a magazine - that works for me! Or of course, come here!

Good luck in your journey, hope to see you on the newbies thread.