I have been divorced for over 9 years and basically have my kids 24-7. There is no every other weekend or anything like that...lots of pressure and responsibility on me. Maybe that's when my drinking really picked up...not really sure.
Anyway, I have bought all of my supplements, but have not received my Topamax yet. I guess it is an accomplishment that I have totally stopped drinking on my own and it's been 13 days. I don't feel proud of myself. I feel like a total loser and pathetic. I am having a very hard time and when I'm driving home I definitely feel like having a beer to take the edge off.
Last night I went home and cried in the bathtub for a while...I was so tempted to go to the store and get some beer, but I didn't. This is very hard and I feel empty inside and that I have nothing to offer...I don't like myself, so who else possibly would?
My boyfriend of almost one year broke up in December. We are trying to work things out. The main problem was how I acted when I drank way too much. Pretty embarrasing. The morning after I would almost hate to wake up to hear what I said or did that was bad...definitely not a good feeling.
Anyway, thanks for listening to me.
Sherrie:new:
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