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[BabyShambles]

I'm 23 n I have accepted that I have lost control. Thats all I know right now n I'm terrified. I dunno where to begin with my problem cos right now I don't see an end.

[dexterhead]

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Hi BabyShambles.: welcome. !!! you have found a great site and a lot of support. most of us are terrified when we show up here, but now you are not alone.

[BabyShambles]

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Thanks I'm in panic mode more than usual. I've looked around this site n everyone here seems great. Were all in the same boat. I really dunno where to go from here.

[BabyShambles]

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I just cant convince myself that sobriety is right. It feels wrong to not drink its a strange obligation that I feel I need to fulfill even tho I kno the consequences.

[memarcie]

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BabyShambles,
No one can convince you sobriety is right. You have to decide for yourself.

And where to go..... I'd suggest you download and read the MWO book. Hang around here and read, post, chat.

:welcome:

[ducky]

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Hey Baby,

Post more.

If you are feeling the need to quit then something is up.

Have you read the book?

I wish I was 23 again and could not f it up.

[sickandtired32]

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BabyShambles, I was you at 23 and thought the same thing about not thinking sobriety is right that got me to where I am now 32 and still in the same position with drinking. Had I worked harder to quit back then I would have had the psat 9 years happier and healthier I am sure. POST, share and read everyone here is in the same situation that is why we are all here and here for eachother!!! We are in this together you do have support!! I am back at day 1 but I will win and you will too!

S&T32

[Sunbeam]

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I wrote down all my personal negatives for drinking. That helped me want to stop.

[BabyShambles]

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Thanks everyone:-) I feel in a better place today. I spent yesterday n feeling ill n sorry for myself but I feel in a better place today. I'm going out for a friends birthday tonight, my intention is not to drink but I'm not confident in myself. The thing is that if I don't drink I will be so proud of myself that tomorrow that I will have to celebrate with a drink tomorrow lol. I know it isn't funny but if I don't laugh I'll cry:-s. Thanks again I'm sure site will be a big help:-)

[dexterhead]

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Hello Babyshambles: you're not Pete Doherty are you?:H :H

[BabyShambles]

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No but I am a fan lol. I kept myself busy today I decided not to go to my friends b day party. I explained why n she was understanding (relieved i'm not ruining another party) I've sent her some flowers n I'll make it up to her when this is all over. I rented some vids to watch instead. I bought a quater bottle of vodka just in case. Its less than I normally drink but I made a deal with myself that I'll only drink if something happens. I kno I shouldn't have but its one step at a time.

[dexterhead]

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yes, baby steps, whatever way works for you. good that you're not Pete, a little too much drama:H :H and Kate Moss and all that

[greeneyes]

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Baby... if something happens? For me that is like oh, the garbage can and recyle bin are at the road still. Blame hubby and find an excuse to drink. Darlin' ya can't have it in the house because there will always be an excuse. Always. And it becomes the blame/ shame hampster wheel. Get off the ride. I'm sucking but can still try to give advice.

[4theboyz]

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Baby,

I don't know enough about you to really offer advice other than my own perspective. I was 23 once a long time ago it seems. That age is glorious, exciting full of new experiences and can come with an awful lot of disappointments.

Becoming an adult is gut check time and doesn't come with a guidebook for all the emotions that come with that territory. 23 is a time of life that is your time, your time to be who you are according to your values not someones else's expectations.

What has always helped to bring me out of my doldrums is to focus on your own feelings and needs. Find and remember the things that used to make you happy without all the drugs or alcohol and go back to them. They can bring you comfort and help you find your way. IMO, you won't find happiness anywhere other than deep inside your own self.

Good luck!

[BabyShambles]

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Thank u for that:-) I have my intentions to stop but somehow I can talk myself into having a drink. Even tho I feel ill the only thing that makes me feel better is alcohol. I look at all the opportunities I've missed over the past few years n I could kick myself.
I still have my dreams n ambitions but the seem impossible without alcohol. I feel I can't win.