I've come to understand, drinking to forget actually works!

[reichertty]

I've come to understand, drinking to forget actually works!

So far so good

Hi Juliana,

Yes, I am currently reading In Defense of Food, I also have checked into Dr. Schulze, he has an amazing super food and his description of it and how he came to make it is surprising. At any rate, yeah, I'll let you know what I think of IDOF when I finish it. It's very interesting, I always love when books like this make it into the mainstream (how sad I assume it's in the mainstream because I saw it an airport).

Day 2 down, so far so good. Feeling better, but, still not sleeping so great. That cat is really driving me nuts. I really should have named him Dino, I sometimes feel like Fred Flinstone locked out in the cold, outwitted by that cunning rascal.

I'm tired this morning, not feeling like writing too much, will check back later.

Have a great day/night everyone.

[reichertty]

I've come to understand, drinking to forget actually works!

84 hours AF

I'm 3 days plus in. There you go Vic, I posted on day 3 AF, believe me now? Good. Still no shakes, but, sweats have come and gone here and there. Then again, that could be attributed to many factors. I have high blood pressure, my temp is .5 degrees higher than average, I'm incredibly out of shape (I had to go to my g/f's apartment last night to clean the litter box out and the elevators were out, I had to trek my fat ass up 13 fucking flights of stairs and then back down... good thing I didn't have groceries with me), and I'm a smoker, so, my lung capacity isn't the greatest. All of these could contribute to the sweats and I'm not completely discounting the detox theory, but, I've still got them here and there. Like this morning, I was running late to work, so, I was rushing, got into my office and I had to turn my fan on, I was sweating, but it didn't last for long.

I don't know where all those long posts came from, I can't seem to write much anymore.

Virgin Cheers everyone, good luck with the weekend, g/God save me!

R

[4theboyz]

I've come to understand, drinking to forget actually works!

Hey Reichertty,

I like your honesty and no B.S. approach to your posts. Have a great AF weekend!

[Victory]

I've come to understand, drinking to forget actually works!

CONGRATULATIONS

What a champion, am so proud of you, :goodjob: knew you had it in you. Lucky you for minimum detox symptoms. Keep up the good work. See it wasn't as hard as you thought was it?

[reichertty]

I've come to understand, drinking to forget actually works!

Wasn't that hard.. ha!

LOL, wasn't that hard after all? Hmm... okay, I guess it wasn't too bad. Now I just need to quit leaning on my Mary Jane crutches and walk on my own.

On the plus side, I've been to the driving range a ton this week, I washed my car, I cleaned my house (well, I kept up with the dishes at least, I'm a bachelor, I'm allowed a skewed definition of "cleaning house"), I drank enough water to fill an olympic sized pool (and on that note, I'd like to apologize to the smelt in the sacramento delta for taking so much water away from you guys, shit, I was thirsty too! By the way, I love your eggs in sushi, keep up the spawning!)

Ahh Jesus, I'm talking to fish now, time to sign off.

[reichertty]

I've come to understand, drinking to forget actually works!

One note before I leave for the weekend...

I wanted to say that, I am getting some clarity. Instead of being a bum on the couch, I'm actually thinking more (and remembering it, imagine that) and am even thinking of going back to school. As I was relating to someone else, I used to be such a passionate person but all of that got drowned out... well, more like drowned in its own vomit, but, I'm starting to feel it more again and I'm feeling more motivated. I know, I know, it's only been about 4 days, but, still, when I'm not numb or paralyzed by the thoughts and fear alcohol induce in me, I'm moving and thinking and acting and any succesful effort to pull my gums off the teet make me feel like I can take on the world! And on that note, if anyone is reading this and lives near the ocean and knows how to and/or is involved with marine conservation, please please please write to me. In fact, if anyone knows anything about any sort of environmental conservation issues in general and how to get involved with them, please write me. Seems like taking 4 years of classes is a bit much to ask of someone who just wants to save the fucking sea turtles! Regardless, I'm interested in hearing what you have to say.

Pieces

[Sunbeam]

I've come to understand, drinking to forget actually works!

Congrats to you, and thanks for the lovely photo! The water bodies near me are only fresh. Most of my conservation efforts are pretty local - guiding other gardeners and homeowners who may not see themselves as gardners, though my Master Gardener Volunteer efforts. I love my profession, but after 30 years, many days I feel more satisfied through my volunteer efforts.

[Kirova]

I've come to understand, drinking to forget actually works!

Hey reich -- that's inspired! You may want to look into oceanconservation.org as a starting place.

[viking1975]

I've come to understand, drinking to forget actually works!

hey buddy

Hi bud, I know your feeling of hopelessness and desperation! I don't have weight issues i'm 31 and weigh 150 pounds...but i'm starting to get high blood pressure issues from drinking for too long and too much. I was a 12pack a beer on weekend night guy and 6 pack after work person..either way how much you drink if you feel it's too much..it's too much. I used to love being outside..loved the outdoors..camping and fishing...alcohol has stripped me of love other than my love for beer....i'm two days sober now...this is really hard...very hard...i'm climping the walls today because i have way too much energy today and i feel like i'm 18 again..lol...make a goal bud and i'm hear to listen to ya man!! I know where your coming from!

[viking1975]

I've come to understand, drinking to forget actually works!

Congrats on 3days man!!

:goodjob: i'm on 2days and i'm planning on going back to school! going back to church again!

[reichertty]

I've come to understand, drinking to forget actually works!

Day 6.5

and still going strong. Have almost broken down virtually every day and sadly, this is not really getting much easier, though, I'm not thinking about it quite as much as before. Then again, I haven't really changed my habits or routine up much save for my choice of beverage.. that could be bad, could come back to bite me in the butt, but, I don't know what else to do.

[reichertty]

I've come to understand, drinking to forget actually works!

Hi Viking

Thanks for the posts. Sorry to hear about your medical problems, but, from experience and a lot of finger crossing, when I had these problems before, they went away on their own a short time after quitting drinking. If you think it's serious though, don't take this as advice (well, don't take it as advice regardless), consult a medical professional, but, in the mean time, keep it up. Seems ironic that every toast in virtually every language is translated "to your health," what a crock of shit, eh?!

So, yeah, I've always wanted to go back to school and have a few times, but, eventually, I discovered I couldn't study and party concurrently, just didn't work for me, so, I never followed through, I just dropped my classes and headed to the bar. It would be so great to pursue something I actually want to do now though. How much more is that degree going to be NOW than 10 years ago when I just wouldn't have appreciated how big of an accomplishment it really is.

Well, I really can't say whether I'm going to stay sober, I'd like to, though, the addicted part of my brain wouldn't agree. At any rate, stay in touch, glad to meet you, glad to meet someone my age finally. I don't know about you, but, the whole "I'm too young" ideology kept me from sobriety for a long time. I still feel too young to be an alcoholic, but, whatever, can't worry about semantics. It is what it is, right?

[viking1975]

I've come to understand, drinking to forget actually works!

reichertty;284034 wrote: Thanks for the posts. Sorry to hear about your medical problems, but, from experience and a lot of finger crossing, when I had these problems before, they went away on their own a short time after quitting drinking. If you think it's serious though, don't take this as advice (well, don't take it as advice regardless), consult a medical professional, but, in the mean time, keep it up. Seems ironic that every toast in virtually every language is translated "to your health," what a crock of shit, eh?!

So, yeah, I've always wanted to go back to school and have a few times, but, eventually, I discovered I couldn't study and party concurrently, just didn't work for me, so, I never followed through, I just dropped my classes and headed to the bar. It would be so great to pursue something I actually want to do now though. How much more is that degree going to be NOW than 10 years ago when I just wouldn't have appreciated how big of an accomplishment it really is.

Well, I really can't say whether I'm going to stay sober, I'd like to, though, the addicted part of my brain wouldn't agree. At any rate, stay in touch, glad to meet you, glad to meet someone my age finally. I don't know about you, but, the whole "I'm too young" ideology kept me from sobriety for a long time. I still feel too young to be an alcoholic, but, whatever, can't worry about semantics. It is what it is, right?

Hey bud, I hear ya man! My blood pressure has dropped like a rock on day two...i'm feel alot of regret right now for all the mistakes i did as alcoholic...i'm proud of you man....6 days going forward....great job...and i'll get to 6 days with you too...i'm hear for you bud!

[reichertty]

I've come to understand, drinking to forget actually works!

Holy shit, I made it a week!

I've made it a week since my last drink, a bottle of wine. I know I feel better, but, the gains are not as BIG as I'd hoped. Don't get me wrong, I'm not discouraged, I guess I was just hoping for some life changing epiphony to come with a few days AF. But alas, life goes on. Wake up. Go to work. Come home from work. Make dinner. Do the dishes. Watch TV. Read a book. Go to bed. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. I'm beginning to remember why it was and would be so easy to drink to excess, I'm bored out of my mind, I feel unaccomplished, I hate myself for allowing myself to be lazy and lethargic, I just don't fucking know what to do with myself or my life. Sigh. I still feel a bit comatose. As I said, I'm not discouraged, I'm just trying to figure out how to handle my life now that I'm not as numb as I was, dumb as I was.

[Cinders]

I've come to understand, drinking to forget actually works!

Reicherrty,

Wow. You are talking about real life, now. Not the AL life where things were "glamorized" by AL until he/she snuck in and sucked your real life out.

Now is the time to think about something you would really LOVE to do. Not the usual, go to the gym, go to the library,... but something YOU WOULD REALLY LOVE TO DO.

I know. Family makes it "difficult" but not impossible.

Okay???

Figure out what makes you "tick" without AL and then you are truly on you way...

Love,
Cindi

ps. I am looking forward to the gym (believe it or not) and dance lessons. I have ALWAYS wanted to learn how to dance.

There is something in your life like that. Figure it out and make it happen!!!