My story sorry if it is long??I was adopted twice as a child, once at 8 months and again at 8 yrs old. My great-grandmother adopted me first and the state decided she was too old to care for me thus the second adoption. I recently found out she was alcoholic and I remember her giving me Peppermint Schnapps for any and all illness.
My new parents should not have been allowed to adopt. I saw my new father molest my adopted sister on several occasions and the new mother was even in the room. They divorced when I was 12. She became a religious zealot. She threw out the alcohol, which I retrieved from the trashcan and hid it in my room, thus began my drinking. When the physical abuse, to get the devil out of me started, I went to live with the father and his new older wife. She resented me from the beginning. I was 13 at this time and learned how to eat and purge, my history with bulimia starts. The new step monster did know how to make homemade wine, so access was easy and her wine eventually began to taste water-downed?.hmm?..wonder how that happened?
Neither of my adopted parents/step parents drank to excess. Alcohol was around for special occasions. A six pack of beer could remain in the refrigerator all summer.
I joined the Marines at 18. Back then it was common to have beer in the middle of the day at lunch. Drinking on the weekends was what all hard core Marines did back then?male and female. That continued for the next 20 years of my life. During those 20 years I married and divorced 3 men, which were all heavy drinkers. Retired in 02 and married # 4. Started drinking during the week at this time out of boredom I think. Gained 80 lbs in less than a year and was miserable. Bulimia was at this point mostly overeating to point of passing out or getting drunk, eating excessively and not remembering to throw up. Always one for quick fixes, I decided to have surgery to lose the weight quickly. Had surgery on 3-24-06, which was 2 years ago today. Lost the weight in 6 months. No longer have the ability to overeat nor can I throw up?so bulimia is solved or so I thought. I didn?t drink for 6 weeks after my surgery because alcohol is harder on the body. I was out with the girls and decided to ?try? one drink which became 7 or 8 and I haven?t gone more than 5 days sober since then. Lately I have started drinking around 2 in the afternoon whereas I usually would wait until 6 or 7 PM.
This past year my adopted dad died, step monster died last month. I haven?t spoken to them in 23 years anyway when they disapproved of my first marriage. I am sure my drinking would have disappointed them anyway.
My current husband and I are legally separated but live together like we are married. He was my drinking buddy until I made the decision today to take action for me to get better. It is time to let go of the past and be in the present and sober. For me abstinence is the only way and I am looking for all the support I can get!!
My new parents should not have been allowed to adopt. I saw my new father molest my adopted sister on several occasions and the new mother was even in the room. They divorced when I was 12. She became a religious zealot. She threw out the alcohol, which I retrieved from the trashcan and hid it in my room, thus began my drinking. When the physical abuse, to get the devil out of me started, I went to live with the father and his new older wife. She resented me from the beginning. I was 13 at this time and learned how to eat and purge, my history with bulimia starts. The new step monster did know how to make homemade wine, so access was easy and her wine eventually began to taste water-downed?.hmm?..wonder how that happened?
Neither of my adopted parents/step parents drank to excess. Alcohol was around for special occasions. A six pack of beer could remain in the refrigerator all summer.
I joined the Marines at 18. Back then it was common to have beer in the middle of the day at lunch. Drinking on the weekends was what all hard core Marines did back then?male and female. That continued for the next 20 years of my life. During those 20 years I married and divorced 3 men, which were all heavy drinkers. Retired in 02 and married # 4. Started drinking during the week at this time out of boredom I think. Gained 80 lbs in less than a year and was miserable. Bulimia was at this point mostly overeating to point of passing out or getting drunk, eating excessively and not remembering to throw up. Always one for quick fixes, I decided to have surgery to lose the weight quickly. Had surgery on 3-24-06, which was 2 years ago today. Lost the weight in 6 months. No longer have the ability to overeat nor can I throw up?so bulimia is solved or so I thought. I didn?t drink for 6 weeks after my surgery because alcohol is harder on the body. I was out with the girls and decided to ?try? one drink which became 7 or 8 and I haven?t gone more than 5 days sober since then. Lately I have started drinking around 2 in the afternoon whereas I usually would wait until 6 or 7 PM.
This past year my adopted dad died, step monster died last month. I haven?t spoken to them in 23 years anyway when they disapproved of my first marriage. I am sure my drinking would have disappointed them anyway.
My current husband and I are legally separated but live together like we are married. He was my drinking buddy until I made the decision today to take action for me to get better. It is time to let go of the past and be in the present and sober. For me abstinence is the only way and I am looking for all the support I can get!!
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