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    Fed Up!!!

    :new: Wow! To wake up this morning not hungover is wonderful!!! My second day AF. I found this site yesterday through desperation. I have had it! I am sooooooo over this disease.
    I read alot of your stories yesterday and i related to everyone of them in some way. I hope to god that everyone can help me stay sober and I can help in the same way.
    I feel that I have to share a little of my story...I am a very private person so AA is out! Nobody would have a clue what I suffer not even my boyfriend he knows I drink to much though. My father maybe a little but not to the full extent because I lie about it when he does ask me about the booze. He has been sober over 30 years now he was a very sick man when he did drink but he has won the battle. I thought I had one as well...not so.
    I had my first drink in my teens, started goning to AA at age 19 stopped drinking for 8 YEARS!!! Picked up again at 29 and have not stopped for 15 years. Well, I did stop for 11 months, next time 3 months, next time, 3 weeks and so. on I think everyone can relate.
    I now wake up 5 out of 7 mornings feeling like a bus has run over me!! My calf muscles ache, my head feels like its going to blow up I feel sick, no energy and the GUILT!!
    I cannot even remember most nights after 7 oclock. It's not that I fall down or cannot speak I just cannot remember. I wake up and think (what the hell did I watch on TV, did I have a fight with my boyfriend?) and so on it is horrible. I pick up the tv progamme at times the next morning just to see if I can remember anything. Sometimes I watch the clock the next day till it reaches 12 then I have a drink just to make me feel better.Wine is my drug of choice. I cannot even drive the next day my head is to fuzzy and i'm to jumpy.I miss work...lucky I only work partime. I still function, I dont look like a have a problem, I'm healthy, fit and have a job in the health industry (what a joke) I have my own home and beautiful garden. I'm so scared of what I am doing to my liver, kidneys and my nervous system. I want my life back and to smell the fresh air in the mornings..I use to love the mornings! I use to jump out of bed put my runners on and... go I want that back I WILL have that back!! My father always asks (how is the booze going?..just watch it, it has claws and it can grab you without you even being aware) Well i am aware those claws have grabbed me. But not yesterday or today.. maybe not tomorrow. Lets just be hopeful. Thanks for listening.:thanks:

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    Good for you Mia, Keep upi the good work. You will find alot of great support here. I'm new and still reading alot of posts myself but finding it all very helpful.
    If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at begin to change.

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      #3
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      :thanks: Thankyou gemmy1 I know I do need help and support. I know in another 4 hours time is when it gets tough!! xx

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        Mia thank you for sharing your story. So honest and your story sounds so familiar to me. Especially the part where you don't remember what show you watched on TV the night before....Boy! I can really relate to that! That has been a part of my nightly life for too long. I'm back to day 1 again and am determined to get sober.
        I love the mornings too (or used to). That time of day is the most beautiful to me. Sun coming up, birds singing and everything coming alive. Ahhh........ Wonderful...
        We can do this! Good for you for your AF days. Stay around and keep posting and reading.

        Love and Peace
        When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.
        -- Franklin D Roosevelt --

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          :hello2::colorwelcome:
          :beach: life does change as long as you are willing to change yourself ..
          best thing about the future it comes one day at a time..

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            greenhouse1;306526 wrote: Mia thank you for sharing your story. So honest and your story sounds so familiar to me. Especially the part where you don't remember what show you watched on TV the night before....Boy! I can really relate to that! That has been a part of my nightly life for too long. I'm back to day 1 again and am determined to get sober.
            I love the mornings too (or used to). That time of day is the most beautiful to me. Sun coming up, birds singing and everything coming alive. Ahhh........ Wonderful...
            We can do this! Good for you for your AF days. Stay around and keep posting and reading.

            Love and Peace
            Thankyou Greenhouse1 for listening to my story! But I only made day 1 AF. I only had 2 glasses last night but im disappointed in myself once again

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              tlrgs;306551 wrote: :hello2::colorwelcome:
              Thankyou:thanks:

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                gemmy1;306373 wrote: Good for you Mia, Keep upi the good work. You will find alot of great support here. I'm new and still reading alot of posts myself but finding it all very helpful.
                Thanks for listening gemmy1. But I only lasted one day AF.

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                  #9
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                  Mia, Welcome!

                  Are you taking any of the supps?

                  Just keep trying. Never, ever give up!

                  Love, Me
                  :l
                  Alcohol is simply the device between success and failure.

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                    Thankful;306902 wrote: Mia, Welcome!

                    Are you taking any of the supps?

                    Just keep trying. Never, ever give up!

                    Love, Me
                    :l
                    Thankyou for you welcome No i'm not taking any supps? I didn,t know there were any untill I found this site. Any suggestions? :l

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                      Hi Mia, thanks for sharing. You found the site, now I'd recommend you get the MWO book and come up with a plan. The book spells out the program which is based on exercise, supplements, hypnotic cds, meds and support. Some do it all, others do what fits for them. Keep coming back here also!
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                      NF since June 1, 2008
                      AF since September 28, 2008
                      DrunkFree since June 1, 2008
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                      :wings: In memory of MDbiker aka Bear.
                      5/4/2010 In loving memory of MaryAnne. I pray you've found peace my friend.
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                      The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.ray:

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                        Thanks LVT. I will buy the MWO book. A plan mmmm especially at 4 oclock in the afternoon. Wine oclock time I call it. This is the hardest time for me. I have read sooo many stories on this site. I just did not know that there were people like me with the same story. I am going to try AF1 again today. I'm still fed up! I'm still finding my way around this site..so hope you get this message. I'm not very good with computers or not drinking

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                          Mia, yes as suggested if you get the book it will spell out the full program (including the supplements) and you just apply what you feel is needed for your particular situation. You'll find your way out.

                          Also, read a lot of the posts in Holistic Healing. There's a lot of information there on different supps that people are taking.

                          Good luck! Keep trying. It will click for you.

                          Love, Me
                          :l
                          Alcohol is simply the device between success and failure.

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                            Hi Mia - download the "My Way Out Book" - it will give you a whole program. This web site is the "meeting" place so to speak - but the "program" with the supplements, exercise etc. are really the foundation of why this works. This support is the "group" that gathers to talk about how, why and when -- you can download the book right here for pennies on the dollar!!

                            Best to you - if you did it one day --- you CAN do it again - for many!!
                            Liv
                            AF since Jan. 1, 2008 .... It all began right here


                            Raise your hopeful voice, you have a choice, you made it now.


                            (from the Movie "Once")

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                              #15
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                              Make sure you do something different today at 4:00. Have a cut of tea or a fizzy beverage. You may be seeking that relaxing moment, which you can create without the wine. Or get out and go shopping. Anything different.
                              My life is better without alcohol, since 9/1/12. My sobriety tool is the list at permalink 236 on the toolbox thread under monthly abstinance.

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