AL has always been there ? sometimes a bigger crutch than others!!
In her infinite wisdom, Mother Nature blessed me with horrific morning sickness so the question of AL and pregnancy was thankfully removed from my hands! I had a late miscarriage with the first, which was tough with all the emotional stuff that goes with it and then had a breakdown 3 months later. I tried various holistic / natural / spiritual resources over the next 5 years to assist with the depression. Eventually I gave up and went the pharmaceutical route of ADs.
Now, 3 years later with 2 years of seriously out of control drinking, decisions have been made. I can?t go on like this!!!!!
So, 18 of the last 20 days have been AF ? not consecutively, but next to 0 days AF last year, pretty good. With some clarity with me now, I am coming off the ADs and hope I can maintain some equilibrium. My girls need me!!! I need me!!!! I thnk that my marriage is over, I have been hiding from feeling anything for too long ? not sure if it?s me feeling dead, or the marriage??? but hopefully time and clean living with show me the right road to travel.
Thanks for listening.
Take care
xxx
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