Hello to everyone here, am I glad to read such supportive and positive messages. my family tree is one that has its roots deep in the bottle. my father and brother both have died as a result of the physical effects of alcohol, aged 57 and 36 respectfully. I miss them both and hear their warnings when I look critically at myself and see so clearly how I am following directly in their footsteps.
I am 42, I drink secretly and openly, I drink at various times of the day, I drink sometimes when I am working, I have been to meetings drunk. Not drunk enough that it's noticeable, just enough for me to be animated and witty. occasionally I miscalculate my trickle of alcohol intake and find myself in a sad pathetic drunk state at home, arguing with my partner and still pretending to be sober... or having only had 'one' glass of wine !
I started drinking as a teenager and although there have been many years when I have curbed the cravings and been super healthy and fit, its always with me. when I was pregnant, I thankfully was strong and did not feel like drinking.
Wine is my downfall, most mornings I wake up thinking TODAY I will not drink... then I pop to the shop for groceries and the wine bottle is in the basket... or something upsets me, stresses me or needs celebrating....anything. Somedays I have 2 glasses, otherdays I can drink a litre, very occasionally I will not drink. I leave myself notes to make sure that I remember what I did, who I spoke to and what I said.
Well that's me, I am sure I will get to know many of you here.
I AM going to become a person that I love and respect... that person does not drink like I do
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I am 42, I drink secretly and openly, I drink at various times of the day, I drink sometimes when I am working, I have been to meetings drunk. Not drunk enough that it's noticeable, just enough for me to be animated and witty. occasionally I miscalculate my trickle of alcohol intake and find myself in a sad pathetic drunk state at home, arguing with my partner and still pretending to be sober... or having only had 'one' glass of wine !
I started drinking as a teenager and although there have been many years when I have curbed the cravings and been super healthy and fit, its always with me. when I was pregnant, I thankfully was strong and did not feel like drinking.
Wine is my downfall, most mornings I wake up thinking TODAY I will not drink... then I pop to the shop for groceries and the wine bottle is in the basket... or something upsets me, stresses me or needs celebrating....anything. Somedays I have 2 glasses, otherdays I can drink a litre, very occasionally I will not drink. I leave myself notes to make sure that I remember what I did, who I spoke to and what I said.
Well that's me, I am sure I will get to know many of you here.
I AM going to become a person that I love and respect... that person does not drink like I do
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