Finally after 10 months

[Seacailin]

Finally after 10 months

Good for u Cucks

It is difficult to comprehend why we hurt Ourselves when others hurt us. Guess it is part of the insanity of the disease. Stay strong. I wish u well

[Evie.Lou]

Finally after 10 months

You sound very wise and I know you have the strenght to make all your Dreams come true...

[gyco]

Finally after 10 months

hi 83 im kinda in the same boat, thnx for sharin, youll never let me down,as long as u keeep comin here and tellin yur stories ;that is why i think were all here,as far as drinkin som hav better better control than others, and it sems you realise that,its when you dont,as far as an alchoholic where ive gone only u hav e the rt to call u tht, harsh word,gyco PS ive been sober 8 months mostly on my own,i find this site amasing and the people,ive been in and out of AA for 10 years,som people it works 4, som people it dont , u hav to make the decision

[cuckoosnest83]

Finally after 10 months

To all my lovely friends, thank you so much for your responses. It means more to me than words can express. I realized that it always helps to have a plan in order to take your mind off of drinking so tonight my plan was to come home, put on a cd of my best women's tunes (Chakka Khan, Aretha Franklin, Gloria Gaynor etc) and get out in the yard and do some yard work. While out there some memories came flooding back of me and my ex doing yard work together and I started feeling a little sad again but within 10 minutes 2 little angles appeared at my doorstep in the disguise of two 11 year old boys wanting to know if I had any work for them to do. They are neighborhood kids and regularly help me out when they want to earn a little money. I did have a few jobs for them to do and we worked out in the yard together for a little over an hour. These two young boys, Cole and Dan, have know idea how much they helped me. After we got done the yard work, we sat by the pond and fed the fish and they talked to me about their day and turtles and fishing. I've decided I'm not starting a journal but instead I'm starting a blessing book because I think blessings abound if you just look for them. Like today these 2 little boys showing up at my door was a huge blessing for me. Love to you all.
Cucks

[cuckoosnest83]

Finally after 10 months

Hi Gyco, you are very right. I don't think anyone has the right to label you but yourself. I don't like labels but I think the labe functional alcoholic best describes me. I have always met my commitments but I also have a huge drinking problem that I need to address. I'm very happy for your 8 months sobriety and that you have done it on mostly on your own is an indication of a strong will and desire. Congratulations, well done, Gyco.

[wakupmom]

Finally after 10 months

Hi to you Darlin cucks.
I have not posted for some time, but i read as usual,when i can.I also joined here the same time as you, give or take a couple of months and i so understand your sense of failure.I can also relate whole hartedly with your lose of your partner,that must have been so painfull.I too can understand the dissapointment that you are not where you wanted to be 10 mths on.Well so am i .BUT i have learned a lot about this illness/ disease in that it progreses even when we are sober.So in a nut shell we have periods of sobriety and then if we take a drink we are right back to the begining- but worse.Its a bloody night mare of an addiction and i REALLY would not wish it on my worse enemy.BUT we must never give up,Thats what is holding me together.I think that you are participating in AA.Does that help?
Any my friend i wish you the best of lifes best.Looking forward to hearing of your progress.
Here for you xx

[newjoe]

Finally after 10 months

i'm proud of you

I'm soproud of you, you're much stronger than i am. you're an inspiration to me..

[livingfree]

Finally after 10 months

Cucks - I'm very proud of you. I remember writing in my journal -
"it's time for the tears to cease - they are a symbol of wanting to hang on to something that I HATE".

You sound stronger and more determined than ever before ... you can do this for YOU. There is a relationship waiting over the rainbow for you. Walk towards it free ...........

Love to you

[Ripple]

Finally after 10 months

hey chris.....

i am looking very forward to meeting you in Boston. So far Hubby is still taking me, the rest will be history. hopefully we can bond up good so he doesn't have to be part of these wonderful things. i cannot believe i am going to meet people from MWO!!! OMG. :H

[Carmac]

Finally after 10 months

Cucks,

Thank you for your posts and openness. Its been particularly relevant to me for the past few weeks, I have been going AF (after months of the ups and downs) plus breaking with my significant other. Oh, and looking for my next work assignmenty as well!

But its the right thing at the right time and I, too, am ready for new beginnings. Two weeks AF and planning for many more. Regrouping and enjoying the days one at a time. This site has been wonderful and reading other's stories insightful.

Thanks again and I wish you all things you are looking for.....

[AMELIA]

Finally after 10 months

Hello from me too Cucks!
You sound like you are really strongly committed.
I'm still not where I want to be either - but as Wakeupmom says 'dont give up trying!'.
Love to you and wishing you AFness soon.
xxx

[magic]

Finally after 10 months

Hey 44!

Indeed, blessings are bountiful if you will only look.

m. xxx :l

[universal]

Finally after 10 months

Cucks. we have been in odat together a while.........you are strong........you can do this.........I'm so sorry for the pain you are going through but I know you can kick some a@@................

We're in it together..........all of us........you have all of us with you. Lets do it.

[bootcampbarbie]

Finally after 10 months

ah honey. i haven't been on site in sometime and wanted to say i love you. you have always been a blessing to me. and in those times when i was having quite a challange you were right there in step. i want to thank you for that. well i don't know what to say honey bunny. i just waltzed through as i check the date on my watch 7 months. i am not counting days as im not thinking about sobriety. sure i see a glass of wine or something and think oh hey a drink but not like oh hey a drink if you know what i mean. like crackers. now chocolate that is a nother story. hahahaah but honey it was worth the trip for me. so what ever i can do to support you let me know. you deserve a beautiful sober life and more than that there is alot more after sobriety that is just the begining.