Hello, everyone, I just arrived here, and here is my story:
Smoked pot from age 13-around 30, heavy drinking from age 25 to now (50), as well as a cocaine period from late-20?s to mid 30?s. I quit the pot and blow on my own, and modified my drinking to weekends and changed to beer and wine after I quit the big ?C?. I switched to taking (prescription) diet pills when I drank as a substitute.
I met my soon to be second wife soon after, and let her know about my past, and that I am an alcoholic. She has lived with it since then, but last year finally demanded that I quit the pills and do something about the drinking. Since that point, I have told her lies (I never did that before, I just told her that if she didn?t want to live me she didn?t have to?) about pills (although I did finally quit those) and about drinking.
I need to quit, and I have quit things before, just not EVERYTHING, and it really scares me. The current plan is marriage/substance counseling (I know a doctor who can do both at once,) SOS meetings twice a week (I am not religious), and antabuse and vivitrol.
I need to stop for good. If I don?t I will lose my wife. I also need to make up to her for all of the years I was using instead of giving to a relationship.
That?s it. I met a few of you in the ?first time? thread, and I like the positive, no-judgmental atmosphere here.
:thanks:
Smoked pot from age 13-around 30, heavy drinking from age 25 to now (50), as well as a cocaine period from late-20?s to mid 30?s. I quit the pot and blow on my own, and modified my drinking to weekends and changed to beer and wine after I quit the big ?C?. I switched to taking (prescription) diet pills when I drank as a substitute.
I met my soon to be second wife soon after, and let her know about my past, and that I am an alcoholic. She has lived with it since then, but last year finally demanded that I quit the pills and do something about the drinking. Since that point, I have told her lies (I never did that before, I just told her that if she didn?t want to live me she didn?t have to?) about pills (although I did finally quit those) and about drinking.
I need to quit, and I have quit things before, just not EVERYTHING, and it really scares me. The current plan is marriage/substance counseling (I know a doctor who can do both at once,) SOS meetings twice a week (I am not religious), and antabuse and vivitrol.
I need to stop for good. If I don?t I will lose my wife. I also need to make up to her for all of the years I was using instead of giving to a relationship.
That?s it. I met a few of you in the ?first time? thread, and I like the positive, no-judgmental atmosphere here.
:thanks:
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