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    Hello everyone,

    I found this website quite a few months ago and recently returned to purchase the PDF of the book, which I received Friday and read last night. I also spent a lot of time this morning reading many threads on the forum. It's great to have so many varied perspective and experiences in the mix.

    For some history, I probably started drinking at about age 13 and didn't think much about it until I was in my early 20s. There is a long history of alcoholism on both sides of my family. At any rate, when I hit about 25 I completely quit drinking without a program or any sort of help. That lasted about 9 years. I had always pretty much been a social drinker, but I was bothered by the times I just seemed unable to stop and to the regrets I would always have the next day about something I had said or done, etc.

    After many years of not drinking, and having spent most of them becoming a much healthier person both physically and mentally, I wanted to experiment to see if I could after all that be a moderate drinker (for context, I had tried AA and it didn't fit for me). I began drinking again 6 years ago and I think the first couple of years were fine, but it has now progressed. Weirdly, I've never been a home alone drinker (and I'm still not), in fact, I rarely drink when I am at home, and when I do it's usually only one or two. My greatest difficulty with drinking seems to be in social situations -- I don't know when to or simply refuse to stop once I get going. I enjoy the social drink (obviously WAY TOO MUCH), but it DRIVES me crazy that I can't seem to stop after 1 or 2. And I don't typically drink everyday or even by myself -- it's much more of a binge-like social activity.

    So, here I am. Today I ordered all supplements and the social drinking hypnotherapy CD. I think it is a good place for me to start. I have read the Topa threads with great interest and I will definitely go that route if I don't find that my cravings subside enough using these other aspects of the program.

    I am looking forward to spending time in this great community. Thanks!!

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    Hello Wild,

    It is good that you are taking stock of your drinking at a time when you do realize it may be heading in the wrong direction.

    I was just the opposite of you where my drinking was at it's worst when I was alone where at social settings booze would just make me sleepy.

    Keep posting, keep learning and keep coming back to MWO as you will find a lot of positive attitudes to help keep you going in the right direction.

    4tb
    Is Addiction Really a Disease?
    Watch this and find out....
    http://youtu.be/ekDFv7TTZ4I

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      #3
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      Welcome on board Wild!
      Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; He's the one who will keep you on track. Proverbs 3:6 The Message

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        Thank you 4tb and vlad for the welcome. And yes, I will enjoy being here, learning from others and sharing. It will help a lot!

        I'm anxiously awaiting for my package to arrive, but I am leaving for holidays on Friday (for 11 days), so I am worried it won't get here before I leave. I drank a lot last night. The good thing is that I talked today with my boyfriend and told him that I do believe I have a drinking problem. He thinks I probably do as well, and I am amazed he hasn't said anything to me about it until I brought it up myself. I feel lucky to have someone who really loves and supports me. I told him about the MWO program and that I am starting with the supplements and CDs. I told him I want to try to moderate first, and if that doesn't work I will quit. I am tired of not being able to stop at one or two. Anyway, I feel much better now that I've talked to him about it.

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          Hello and Welcome

          Sounds like you have a Great plan in place. It is awesome that you will have the support of your BF as well. Those close to me always tiptoed around my drinking until I decided to get help. I was not fooling anyone. I became less and less sociable as I did more and more drinking. I was starting to think that I was agoraphobic. I am now actually living life. I am hardly ever home. It is so nice to be able to "show up" for life. I wish you well as you begin your journey, and look forward to your future posts.
          "Decide-Which Voice in Your Head you Can Keep Alive" (Shinedown)

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            Seacailin;371541 wrote: Sounds like you have a Great plan in place. It is awesome that you will have the support of your BF as well. Those close to me always tiptoed around my drinking until I decided to get help. I was not fooling anyone. I became less and less sociable as I did more and more drinking. I was starting to think that I was agoraphobic. I am now actually living life. I am hardly ever home. It is so nice to be able to "show up" for life. I wish you well as you begin your journey, and look forward to your future posts.
            I think the most crucial part of my plan has been coming around to admitting I drink to excess into oblivion. And then saying it out loud to my boyfriend. I can't believe for the amount I do drink publicly (socially) that no one (especially him and my friends) has actually ever said anything to me! I'm surely not fooling any of those folks either.

            How long have you been on the MWO program Seacailin?

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              re

              well done your in the right place,
              9 years sober i would love to think i would be the same..wishfull thinking,
              i did try AA i hated it.i ues to think AA was the only thing to stay sober but thats not true i think you can do with out any programme well just a little help may be,:goodjob:


              WildAtHeart;370901 wrote: Hello everyone,

              I found this website quite a few months ago and recently returned to purchase the PDF of the book, which I received Friday and read last night. I also spent a lot of time this morning reading many threads on the forum. It's great to have so many varied perspective and experiences in the mix.

              For some history, I probably started drinking at about age 13 and didn't think much about it until I was in my early 20s. There is a long history of alcoholism on both sides of my family. At any rate, when I hit about 25 I completely quit drinking without a program or any sort of help. That lasted about 9 years. I had always pretty much been a social drinker, but I was bothered by the times I just seemed unable to stop and to the regrets I would always have the next day about something I had said or done, etc.

              After many years of not drinking, and having spent most of them becoming a much healthier person both physically and mentally, I wanted to experiment to see if I could after all that be a moderate drinker (for context, I had tried AA and it didn't fit for me). I began drinking again 6 years ago and I think the first couple of years were fine, but it has now progressed. Weirdly, I've never been a home alone drinker (and I'm still not), in fact, I rarely drink when I am at home, and when I do it's usually only one or two. My greatest difficulty with drinking seems to be in social situations -- I don't know when to or simply refuse to stop once I get going. I enjoy the social drink (obviously WAY TOO MUCH), but it DRIVES me crazy that I can't seem to stop after 1 or 2. And I don't typically drink everyday or even by myself -- it's much more of a binge-like social activity.

              So, here I am. Today I ordered all supplements and the social drinking hypnotherapy CD. I think it is a good place for me to start. I have read the Topa threads with great interest and I will definitely go that route if I don't find that my cravings subside enough using these other aspects of the program.

              I am looking forward to spending time in this great community. Thanks!!
              sigpic

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                #8
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                Welcome Wild. I am the same when i go out. Remember leaving the house, but cant remember coming home. I drink till blackout. There are so many friendly helpfull people here. All the best
                To Infinity And Beyond!!

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                  #9
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                  WELCOME...You have a great attitude so thats a huge first step.Life gets BETTER AND BETTER when we regain control...AL IS NOT MY FRIEND...
                  sigpicEyes on the PRIZE, a SOBER Future !!!

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                    #10
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                    Welcome Back Wild!!!

                    It is great that you have the support of your bf and you have all the tools heading your way to make your new journey.
                    "The person who says it cannot be done should not interrupt the person doing it"

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                      Sorry, I did not see your question before now Wild. I began lurking around here last May. I did not stop drinking until July 5. I made it for around 40 days. Now I am struggling with the weekends. I have formulated a new plan. I have stocked up on lots of L-Glut. Last time that I picked up I had been out of it for a week and a half. I am not sure if that was a contributing factor. I am still considering the Topa, but I am undecided at this point. I know that I must go to AA meetings and make some sober friends. Boredom and lonliness are Huge triggers for me. Today, I am sober, and will stay that way.
                      "Decide-Which Voice in Your Head you Can Keep Alive" (Shinedown)

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                        Hi WAH, Just in case you are lurking. You sound a bit like me with the not being able to stop at two or three. It seems that switch doesn't work for us. I too had great success in the beginning of this program. Is it the positive thinking? The hope ? The resolve? Why do the supps and CD's work so well in the beginning, but seem to be more difficult later on? Guess we just keep trying and maybe we can be like those that have found success with moderating or maybe we just have to not drink. Take care, Keek

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