Hello, I've been lurking around for months. I've responded to a few posts and am hoping I have enough time and privacy to write this before I hear the morning rustle of my husband and kids waking up ( 3 grown kids, home after college, soon to move out, ). I love good wine. For years now, maybe 20 years I went from a nondrinker to a drinker of luscious expensive wine. I was drinking close to a bottle a night. Often when we're out with friends we'll share a few bottles. I am extremely high functioning, never have missed work, have had only a few hangovers in my life, but dont get me wrong, I do NOT think i am any better than others here who drank 3 bottles a night. Its a mindset, an addiction, a bad habit. I am opting for MOD ( at least right now because you know i really LOVE a good glass of wine). I had a great exchange with someone on the site about butter ( mentioned in the book) and yes, I would love to think about wine like I do about butter. I mean can you imagine at 5pm thinking," god, only one more hour before I can crack open a stick of butter?" I think not!
So far, i've read the book, started the CD's which I'm not loving, but will keep trying, the L-glut and the kudzu, milk thistle, waiting for the Topa, plus the all-one powder.
I took the big step of telling my husband, who drinks but does not have a drinking problem, as he can take it or leave it. It was huge for me to tell him; now he knows and that alone helps me not keep knocking them back at night. I've started waiting til he gets home from work ( 6:30 or 7) as opposed to 6 pm sharp! Thats a good new big thing. Dont drink alone ( even though I always love having a glass of wine while I cook), I think If hes not home yet,i'll just pour it ( oy, addict mind) and keep it on the counter til he comes. 2 glasses max. I've now done this for 4 nights. It doesnt sound like much, but I feel pretty good about myself. I'm staying up later ( as opposed to passing out at 10pm) and waking up feeling good. My goal is to drink maybe twice during the week, and Saturday night if we're having dinner with friends, and being able to have a few days a week AF. I am hopeful. I've been having one glass with dinner, the second while watching The Daily Show, then tea!!! I know my kids think its unusual that moms got a mug of tea at 9pm ( thats the other goal, no drinking after 8 or 9). I really love wine, the better the wine, the more I love it ( also thinking about buying crappy wine, perhaps a good strategy for me, and cheaper). Honestly, I have not had an AF day in, well, years. When I had cancer 5 years ago ( which I may have gotten from my excessive drinking, gulit!) and I was undergoing chemo, I didnt drink. When the chemo was out of my system, the wine came back in my life. So, thats me. Waiting for the Topa and hoping that helps me cut way way back. Thanks for listening. Oh, also very scared because I am flying solo, no doctor so i'll be taking myself through the topa experience alone. Very scary! Would love to communicate with any of you who can relate. Thanks for this site!
So far, i've read the book, started the CD's which I'm not loving, but will keep trying, the L-glut and the kudzu, milk thistle, waiting for the Topa, plus the all-one powder.
I took the big step of telling my husband, who drinks but does not have a drinking problem, as he can take it or leave it. It was huge for me to tell him; now he knows and that alone helps me not keep knocking them back at night. I've started waiting til he gets home from work ( 6:30 or 7) as opposed to 6 pm sharp! Thats a good new big thing. Dont drink alone ( even though I always love having a glass of wine while I cook), I think If hes not home yet,i'll just pour it ( oy, addict mind) and keep it on the counter til he comes. 2 glasses max. I've now done this for 4 nights. It doesnt sound like much, but I feel pretty good about myself. I'm staying up later ( as opposed to passing out at 10pm) and waking up feeling good. My goal is to drink maybe twice during the week, and Saturday night if we're having dinner with friends, and being able to have a few days a week AF. I am hopeful. I've been having one glass with dinner, the second while watching The Daily Show, then tea!!! I know my kids think its unusual that moms got a mug of tea at 9pm ( thats the other goal, no drinking after 8 or 9). I really love wine, the better the wine, the more I love it ( also thinking about buying crappy wine, perhaps a good strategy for me, and cheaper). Honestly, I have not had an AF day in, well, years. When I had cancer 5 years ago ( which I may have gotten from my excessive drinking, gulit!) and I was undergoing chemo, I didnt drink. When the chemo was out of my system, the wine came back in my life. So, thats me. Waiting for the Topa and hoping that helps me cut way way back. Thanks for listening. Oh, also very scared because I am flying solo, no doctor so i'll be taking myself through the topa experience alone. Very scary! Would love to communicate with any of you who can relate. Thanks for this site!
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