im a 35 year old man from nottingham and i have a problem.
when i was 18 my mum and dad split and my dad committed suicide.
i began going out drinking every night and going to raves taking recreation drugs at the weekends.i still went to work and always have but the following few years were a blur and still are.i lost my licence due to drink driving which didnt help my drinking as now i could drink anytime anywhere and i did,if i was going somewhere after work id even have a drink on the way on the bus,but never told anyone.whatever i was going to do i would have a drink before,usually white cider as it was cheap and strong.
three years ago my mum died of meningitus and i tended to drink more again.
i got married a year ago and will be planning a family soon but want to stop drinking.
for as many years as i can think iv drank about one to two litres of cider and up to four cans of lager every night.
i keep thinking ill not have a drink tomorrow but the following day after work i convince myself that ill not drink as much and ill slowly cut down,but this never works.
its not like im drinking for fun more of a habit.ill make excuses to pop to the shop then drink a can or two on the way back,or ill hide drink in the house and secretly drink it.
im not proud of this and this is the first time iv ever told anyone at all.
i no no one can click their fingers and make me normal but i need to change so i get to live a long life and have children and be alive to see them grow up.
not sure how to end this now so ill simply say
thats my story.
thanks for taking the time to read it.:thanks:
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