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[domino]

I'm new here. I just joined today. I really want to quit drinking. I realized after reading so many posts that I am an alcoholic. It has been consuming my life. I don't sleep well, and when I awake at 2:30 in the morning (every morning) the first think that I think about is having a drink so I can go back to sleep. How do I get out of this downhill slope? I used to bodybuild - that was my addiction. Then, I had another child and along with that, came a cheating husband. Everything left me from there. Five years ago, my grandmother died, and this past June, my grandfather died. When does it stop? How do I find the strength to get out of this hole. It's been six years since I went one night without a glass of wine. Now, it's a bottle and then some. I'm even thinking about a drink for breakfast! I know that's ridiculous! What do I do? How do I find myself again? Anyone, please help. I don't even know if I can do this without constant supervision. I feel like I am dead. What do I do?

[SKendall]

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Welcome! This a great site for emotional support and understanding of people with drinking issues.

There are many threads from Newcomers to Long Term Abstainers. Read and post, you will get a lot of support.

[tlrgs]

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first again welcome .. and i know we have all been there .. and its hard to see the light at the end tunnel.. but know there is light there.. you have to reach for it grab it do what you know in your heart you have to do for yourself .. and we are here for you .. and you sound like you want the change and being here is a great start.. read ,,come here everynight and day ,, do what ever it take for you to get your life back ,, and have you thought about going to AA MEETING they do help .. just to be able to talk and listen ,, stay strong and think positive

[greeneyes]

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Hello domino, and WELCOME!

First of all, you're at a great site. Lots of understanding, guidance and support here. The more you read, the more you'll see you are not alone and people here will give you advice and reassurance about what you may experience as you quit AL, the beast, etc. (alcohol). And best of all cheer you on!

First of all, commitment! Be committed to your goal. What is your goal? To quit entirely? To drink "normally"?

Download or purchase RJ's book and read it and do it! Order the supplements, kudzu and CD's if you can. People say the kudzu from this site IS superior to other cheaper brands available. If you can't, at least take some vitamin supplements to replinsh what AL has depleated.

And exercise.

And drink lots of water with fresh lemon squeezed in it to help flush out the toxins.

Eat regularly and healthily to nouris your system and keep your blood sugar stable. If your body is satisfied, you may find the cravings less.

Hang around here. There are lots of folks like you here. We've hidden bottles, broken things, said regretful things, don't remember things, etc. We all want to leave that life behind. Glad you do too!

[domino]

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I was incredibly excited to see that you all have replied in support of my goals. Thank you all so very much. I really need it. I'm too young for this. I do flush my system with cranberry juice, lemon juice with honey and water, as well as a vitamin supplement. I still don't feel that it is enough. I just don't want this life anymore. I don't want to forget anything. I'm beginning to have trouble running my business. I'm scared. I have kids. I'm not a 'mean' drunk. I'm quiet, like my grandfather. I enjoy drinking with friends and family. My biggest problems are, knowing when to stop and to not drink when I'm alone. That was my grandfathers problem, too but, he was happy. I don't want to be happy like that. I want to be happy doing what I used to to do. I feel like I'm going crazy. I want out of this mess.

Oh, Green Eyes, I bought my grandfather a pirate plaque for his last birthday which now proudly hangs over my doorway to the beach. It says, 'Don't let the door hit you in the arse on the way out'. He laughed his 'arse' off when I gave that to him for his last birthday. lol.

[Princess Fiona]

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Welcome Domino,
One day at a time, get through the first 24 hrs, then the next etc etc....
When you feel like a drink, take a walk, log on, phone someone, anything!!!!
Always remember, one drink is not enough, but one drink is too much..... don't have the first glass.
We have all been where you are, I on the otherhand, was a mean, horrible drunk, I thought I could moderate, was AF for 60 days then moderated, within 2 weeks, I was a mean, horrible drunk. I am now 162 days AF, and am a changed person, I know that I can NEVER, pick up that first drink.
Have a wonderful AF day, ODAT
LOL x x x:welcome:

[LVT25]

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Dear Domino-

I believe you can do this, anyone can if you want to bad enough. First, you need to get the alcohol out of the house and don't buy any more. you already know to drink water and juice to flush out the toxins. Get the book, keep busy, change up your routine....
It will be very hard at first, but it gets easier and IT IS SO WORTH IT!!!!
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