Like twanyfrog i'v read the posts all week and i had posted a couple of times but hadn't shared my story. I think it was because i didn't know where to start. At the beginning.But where was the beginning???
I'v known since I was three years old where i wanted to spend my life. My favorite toy was a squeaky toy kangaroo with a joey in it's pouch. whilst growing up in Scotland i had always been fascinated
with the wild life in Australia. The closest i felt i could get to Oz was to have an Ozzy pen pall. My fortune changed when i met my hubby, a lovelly ambitious man with a good heart.
I was a lone parent when i met him. We had my daughter,two little boys and an other on the way when one day my hubby came home from work and told me the great news. He had the chance of a great job in Australia.We jumped at the chance.
We arrived in Oz in 99 with three young children and a 6 week old baby Thats when i my drinking started. I missed my family and friends,my hubby had to work long hours,it took me months to find my way around and my confidence was flat line.the stress of having 4 kid and being left on my own as much was horrendous. So Friday night was my night sit in front of the tv with a bottle of wine and destress.That worked for a while and then it was Saturday night as well. To cut a long story short i now destress every night of the week with a bottle and a half of wine.
Like many of you do or did. I arrange my life around my drinking. The phone used to ring a lot but hardly anymore.I don't go anywhere and don't want friends to know what i'm really like.
What happend to my beautiful Australian dream?The nearest i get to the great out doors is my back yard and even then thats a bit fuzzy
lluf
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