The last few weeks have been rough. I had a physical several weeks ago, just before going out of town on business for a week. You know, one of those trade show deals where everyone focuses more on drinking than working, and it is expected. After nights of endless binges, consisting of drinking rocks glasses of tequila waking up not knowing how I got back to my room, I returned home with a letter from my Dr. with blood test results. Let's just say the old liver isn't what it used to be not to mention a very high tryglyceride levels. After opening the letter I knew what I had to do, quit drinking. And quit I did, for a whole 5 days followed by a weak attempt at moderation.
Today, I went for my follow up appointment with my Dr. I really wanted to lay it out what was going on, but it was easier to say to him that I quit drinking and have been exercising the last 2 weeks since the letter came in. But he knows. As soon as I said that he said that is great, let's run some blood work to see if the liver panel has dropped at all, as if I really hadn't drank, it would show. I half confessed (more like 1/1oth) that I had a couple on the weekend. He said, that should still make a difference, and ran the blood work. He then followed up by saying no booze at all for the next 30 days, and we will retest. This was quickly followed up with, "Can you do it??" Even more proof he knows.
I returned home tonight to a message from his office saying I needed to call them to follow up on the new results. Never thought he would get 2 hour turnaround to call me on it. As shitty as I feel about it, I actually appreciate it. But I am scared. I have spent tonight, distant from my family. Trying to figure out if I can beat this thing. I don't know if I can. God knows I have tried many times, only to find a self serving reason to jump ship.
Tomorrow I will call him. Hopefully I will be smart enough to let him in, he is a great Dr. and I hope he can help.
I have started a blog to help me with this. If you are interested, check it out at stevesstruggle.blogspot.com/
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