I Am Confused And Need Help To Understand

[sidkroken]

Hello My Name Is Antonio. I am 38 years old, I am married to a beautiful lady and have 3 wonderful children, ages 12,5 and 7 months.

I have always been a social drinker, even during my teen/college years, I would only drink on weekends when we went to the bars, so maybe 2 weekends a month and then I would only drink about 5/6 beers. Even in my adulthood and after getting married I would only drink socially, and then not many 5/6 beers.

For the last year I have been drinking about a 6-pack every night and have been feeling guilty about it and can't seem to stop. Every day while I am drinking I say to myself this will be the last night I drink and then I will stop, but I end up having the beer making me feel relaxed and refreshed from the work stress of the day. I don't duffer any hangover or any reduction in function the morning after, I do feel fine, I have no physical pains etc from the drinking etc. I guess this is my cry for help since I don't understand why I need to continue drinking and why I have a hard time stopping it.

Thanks so much for your time.

[on my way]

I Am Confused And Need Help To Understand

Antonio, read thru some posts, you’ll find there are people here including me, which were drinking a lot more than what you have described and are now alcohol free. I won't lie, it is not easy but it can be done.
You obviously think you have a problem which is why you posted here. That is the first step. The MWO book is a very good read, it’s a good place to start. I followed the supplement plan not the topa. I am now AF and not looking back.
If you want to stop it is up to you, this is a good place for support. I would share your thoughts with your wife. My husbo has helped me a lot.
I know from my experience, my kids and husbo deserved a lot better than what I was giving them while self medicating with wine. I now read more bed time stories, help with home work and could drive them if there were an emergency.
I do not miss the al and have found many other constructive ways to chill out after a stressful day.
Alcoholism is a sneaky bastard, gets you before you know what is happening. Try for 30 days, you have nothing to loose.

Good luck to you, Nat

[Sunbeam]

I Am Confused And Need Help To Understand

Now is the time to kill the beast, don't wait until your problem is as bad as some other stories you will read here. It is too easy to think, "I'm not so bad, they are so much worse". Don't be fooled. You have the motivation. Now is the time.