Starting Day 1 .....AGAIN..............

[Mrs.Hyde]

Morning all...:new:

Well I have been quitting since 2001...
I've joined the groups.. bought the books.. listened to the CDs.. done the affirmations..
I even bought a subliminal "total abstinence" Cd which I play for an hour each day.....

Still I pick up a drink at the first sign of discomfort... usually emotional stuff...
The most I have ever accrued is 8 days straight...
I turn into the "wife from hell" after a few days so my husband is not all that encouraging..
In fact he tells me I am ok...
I know I'm not ok... I have a real desire for a sober and fulfilling life without alcohol..
(I only drink white wine.. and only around 4 or 5pm.. and never after I eat)

I think I've tried it all..
Are some nuts just too hard to crack

Look forward to some help and/or inspiration from others here

Mrs.Hyde
(as in jekyll and..):upset:

[Karl1981]

Starting Day 1 .....AGAIN..............

hi there im another fellow Aussie.

maybe try posting in the 'newbees' section, and tell a little about your self.
u might of tried a few things but ya havent tryed here, have ya have ya :H

:welcome:

[Kirova]

Starting Day 1 .....AGAIN..............

No nut is too hard to crack! Have you tried the supplements? Kudzu and L-Glutamine seem to work pretty well for me. You might also consider checking out the "Toolbox" thread in the Monthly Abstinence forum -- lot of great info and tips there. Keep trying Mrs. Hyde -- the journey is so worth it.

[Sunbeam]

Starting Day 1 .....AGAIN..............

It occurred to me not too long ago that I had forgotten how to relax without alcohol. Maybe that's true for you. There is a whole menu of choice available at this link:
Relaxation Strategies

[Mystikeyes]

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Mrs.Hyde;523764 wrote: Morning all...:new:

Well I have been quitting since 2001...
I've joined the groups.. bought the books.. listened to the CDs.. done the affirmations..
I even bought a subliminal "total abstinence" Cd which I play for an hour each day.....

Still I pick up a drink at the first sign of discomfort... usually emotional stuff...
The most I have ever accrued is 8 days straight...
I turn into the "wife from hell" after a few days so my husband is not all that encouraging..
In fact he tells me I am ok...
I know I'm not ok... I have a real desire for a sober and fulfilling life without alcohol..
(I only drink white wine.. and only around 4 or 5pm.. and never after I eat)

I think I've tried it all..
Are some nuts just too hard to crack

Look forward to some help and/or inspiration from others here

Mrs.Hyde
(as in jekyll and..):upset:

Have you ever tried Anti buse? It got me to 30 days. If you take it you will get sick if you drink.... real sick!

[Mrs.Hyde]

Starting Day 1 .....AGAIN..............

Thanks for the replies..
I think that perhaps I have not been serious enough about it..!!!..
Or made enough effort..?
(What's the use and who cares anyway)
I haven't tried antibuse.. my doctor didn't want to give me that...or antidepressants..
He says that Omega 3 oils work just as well.so I'll see my naturopath..
I'm just going to take it a day at a time.. and do whatever it takes..
Mrs.Hyde

[Mrs.Hyde]

Starting Day 1 .....AGAIN..............

Denial

Hi again...

Well I just didn't feel I could write down all the nightmares alcohol has caused in my life..but I see how honest other people have been and I guess I should say something ...
I am 69.. my plan was to have a lovely sober 2009 leading up to my 70th birthday when I will have a nice little trip someplace to celebrate.. whale watching would be great..
So far I've had 12 sober days out of 20..

I have been a drinker for most of my life.. mostly binge drinking.. first beer then gravitated to the white wine poison... (the box kind).. which I have been consuming over the last 35yrs..pretty much daily .. now I have got to the stage where I can't say if I will stop at one... mostly if I start I drink until oblivion..
Moderation is harder than abstaining...

It's actually been worse since I married my present husband of 33 years.. he is a daily drinker and smoker and nothing is going to convince him to give up either of those.. but that's his life and nothing to do with me.. it's just makes it harder for me.. easier to get at...and even encouraged..I think he feels threatened.. I get that..

Basically I am good in all other areas of my life... I found out 2 years ago I am gluten intolerant. and I am vigilant about what I eat.. eating healthy ..taking supplements etc..
I think I am creative and kind ..I have nice friends.. (only one knows I have a drinking problem.. I keep it well hidden at home)

I have had countless accidents and one DUI ...and like somebody else said..
The pain I get in my liver is nothing to the pain I get in my soul..
I have to heal this part of me in this life..I'm not coming back to do this again

Thanks for reading..
Mrs. Hyde