sick and tired of binging

[katey]

hi all I'm new to mwo..well I popped in a few years ago and out again after a right bender after 2 weeks AF..I don't know if I'm dependant on alcohol but I certainly do abuse it and mostly get blackouts after a nights drinking....I've just turned 30 and I've been drinking since I was 16..I've always been a party girl and have a big circle of friends in the same boat..I woke up at 5 this morning with my heart leaping out of my chest after been drinking for 2 days solid..woke up on a friends couch the morning before and went straight to the oflicence for more drink and then onto the pub once it opened..this is a fairly regular habit for me, but then I wouldn't even think about drinking again for a few days, sometimes for a week and then wham its time to go out again and do it all over again..when I woke up this morning I just knew that I can't carry on like this any longer..I get completly out of it when I'm drunk and only for friends god knows how I make it home at times..I've got myself into some scrapes as well, been arrested for drink driving, thrown in a cell for not being able to tell a taxi driver where I've lived, fell in a river backwards, I've fallen asleep in pubs, ruined past relationships oh the list is endless, i won't bore ye anymore with it.. What I'd like to know is there anyone who's a similiar kind of drinker to me...I rarely drink at home, I can sit in a pub and say no to drink, when I'm not drinking I don't even think about it..I've tried a few things like swearing to myself I'll just drink 1/2 pints (rarely do though!?), or saying I'll give it up and I'll behave myself for a while, then have a major slip up ie 3day binge..I'm just gonna give it up altogether for a month and try get my head clear, gonna buy some milk thistle and maybe that L glutamine and just stay out of pubs altogether, no going in for a coffee!! anyway thanks for listening, wish me luck!:thanks:

[hart]

sick and tired of binging

(((Katey))))

I don't know where u r from, no profile, but I'm guessing UK. When my hubby, whose from Dublin, and I go to Ireland we drink soo much. And the drink is so much stronger than in the USA.

We are AF now, and hope to maintain it when we go to Ireland, but man it would be hard. So many get togethers involve drink there.

I am not a binge drinker. I'm an all or nothing, daily drinker. I'm 11 days, as is hubby, AF this time, we made it to 34 again.

I don't think I could do it w/o Campral, but Joe is. It sounds like you have had some close calls in your life, seems like a good time to get a handle on it and gain control.

There's a great group of people here at MWO, stick around, read, maybe go into chat. We can help if you commit yourself. :welcome:

[katey]

sick and tired of binging

Hiya, cheers for the reply, I'm from Ireland so you were nearly right!! And you're sooo right about the whole social scene here..its so easy to get sucked into it and even harder to say no..I actually used to drink way more than I do now but I suppose as you get older it's not really that acceptable to be getting into the states that I do! So I'm determined to do the 30 days if not more, I've only done about ten before..and then the usual blowout..anyways I'll sign off now, thanks for your time and good luck with it all (especially on your trip here!) all the best

[katey]

sick and tired of binging

Another paddy who's way too fond of the shtout!!! I just love a pint of the creamy black stuff thats why I better sort meself out or I won't be able to have any of it anymore!:upset:

[ezzmae]

sick and tired of binging

Hi Katey

When I lived in Ireland I used to drink just like you, it is much harder in Australia to maintain that lifestyle - not enough pubs. I think I now drink the Australian way, in my backgarden. Since having 2 kids I changed to bingedrinking at the weekends, not all weekends but late afternoons and evenings until I blacked out. I started every Sunday and Monday with a hangover. I can go all week without a drink but come the weekend I had to have one, and one for never enough. Circumstances stopped me living your lifestyle and will power and determination is stopping me drinking now. I think that it has been easier for me to stop, as I have different triggers. I don't drink with my friends, I don't socialise in pubs, I don't have to surround myself with drink everyweekend. This things have help me stop.

[katey]

sick and tired of binging

I'm the opposite i love being out in the pub..at the moment most of my friends are meeting up at their houses and drinking as they've no money and I've no interest in that..just love being out!! If only I could drink and not turn into a little demonic pixie!! i think its the volume of drink thats the killer in Ireland...I was in spain for a few months and never once blacked out as its just not cool to be gulping down pints over there, it was sipping wine like a lady all the way!! :H have you stopped drinking completly? maybe a blast of Australia, a good man and a few kids will sort me out i'm going for some Transference healing tomoro hopefully it will kick start me into a new and healthy life...anyway nice talking to ya, all the best xx

[gyco]

sick and tired of binging

hi katey,you sound like my kind of lady,25 years ago,party party party,and then you can wait as long as i did,one day it will come and bite you rt in the a s s ,you also sound like your having fun,slow down are my words for you,don't have to stop,when you drink to much thee next time,think of it,as a doctor giving you a sedative,really ,that's what your doing to your body and mind,i hope I'm not offending you,hope it helps gyco

[boozehag]

sick and tired of binging

Hey Katey
Yep I can identify with your binge pattern very well. I am the queen of binge drinking and like you I would write myself off completely and then not drink again for another week and always in a social (or really anti-social) context - basically out torturing the unsuspecting general public. I did prevent myself from doing it for quite a while by moving to NZ, getting married and having kids but unfortunately the old boozehag was only in hiding and came back with a vengence once the kids got older. Since I joined MWO I have found that you can break that binge habit which may be more physcological than physical once you figure out your personal triggers and the longer you go the easier it gets. Initially you can become anti-social as you get to grips with it but I dont have any problem now socialising without it now (although I do get bored quicker).
BH

[cymru]

sick and tired of binging

Hi Katey.
Your story is so similar to mine. I can go for along time without a drink, but once i start i cant stop, and can binge from 1 to 4 days. I think us bingers drink till we physically cant drink anymore, we let our bodies recover and then start again. Its a sad cycle, but i think its something that can only get worse, not better. At 33, my binging has got progressivley got worse, and i know that if i dont break the cycle that things will get to the point of no return.
Keep reading and posting, and pm anytime.

[katey]

sick and tired of binging

Hi guys thanks for all your replies..just back from yet another mad weekend and its Wed..I stopped yesterday but still feel like the walking dead today..Was so pleased with myself on saturday..I talked myself out of the 30 days Af thinking I'd start on monday as it was a close friends leaving party..went out and enjoyed a few glasses of beer and went home very sober and proud of myself..got up early sunday no hangover feeling great..but by six that evening sussed out they were all still out so called up there and didn't sober up till tuesday!! feeling exactly like I did last week and just so wanting to get off this merry go round of madness!! anyway bought kudzo, l glutamine, and milk thistle this morning so gonna start taking them pronto and and just hide meself away for the next few weeks..met a nice guy over the weekend and will be even reluctant to meet him at the mo cause I couldn't imagine trying to date someone new without any alcohol..that says it all really!! Sorry for ranting on but it does really help just writing this down, helps to make sense of stuff in my head...anyways i'll sign off...does anyone know how long it takes for kudzo and l.G to work??

[jessie]

sick and tired of binging

Binger

Hi to you all,
I used to be a daily drinker but have now reached the state where I will binge for 2-3 days till I basically black out. I've been on MWO before, but now I really want to try to break this habit. Also I'm a secretive drinker - as if there is something revengeful and satisfying about secret drinking. Heaven only knows what. And of course everyone knows - they can smell it. Let's kick this monster back where it belongs. I've made a list of admirable, happy people that I know who is non-drinkers. Hopefully that will motivate me.
Chin up.

[jessie]

sick and tired of binging

Katey, I feel so dreadful after a binge that I have considered ending it all. Really scary! As I sit here I am deeply motivated. Let's go for it.

[aliciabutterfly]

sick and tired of binging

i remember the first time i binged like that...started at 9PM and didn't finish until 3AM two days later. being around certain people makes that seem so acceptable.

[WannaBFree]

sick and tired of binging

Hellooo there,
I am originally from Oz and have been a binge drinker since 13 with one 8 month sober period tucked in there. I am 26 now and have nearly 3 months under my belt and to be honest I have never been happier, it hasnt been sunshine and lollipops but that is not because of a lack of alcohol. I figure if i cannot go at least a year happily without alcohol then yes I def have major issues with it, surely life cannot revolve around a bottle of diluted poison? I will stick with it for a year ( not long in the grand scheme ) and do a much needed personal inventory and then decide if i think I can go back to modding ( figures i have read suggest unlikely ) or my life will be so fab without it i would not even consider it! Ha Ha here hoping ( raises a glass of ginger beer in a cheers ) best of LUck to ya

[dorri]

sick and tired of binging

hi katey i can see where you are coming from , but oddly for me i dont get very drunk in the pub im the sado who drinks at home alone after a stressy day at work in the afternoon , i know ther are other reasons too and one is low self essteem , i really hope i can work thro this demon for the sake of my family and myself good luck