sick and tired of binging
Hi Katey,
I know how how you feel, I used to be a binge queen. I screwed up twice during a period of 6 months AF. I can binged from 1-6days, a short 4 hours out, opened my eyes and I down again with the beer next to my bed..I will not stop even my body is letting me know it cant take that anymore. I definitely abuse alcohol. It will stopped only if I was out cold. I don't get myself very drunk in Pub too, similar to Dorri, I usually drank at home. I drank like a lonely fish. At times, I felt like cr*p and in my thoughts was to end it all.
But deep down, I knew that is not true, I cannot end like that just because of my abnormal behavior. So I got up one day, instead of bringing the beer/alcohol to my mouth, I walk right up to the basin and empty it. All I could thought of was, its either I keep binging & die, or put a stop.
I cant deny that I did slipped after that, but I pick myself up again, and keep tryin' to put the beast back into the cage.
My 4 younggins were over at my mom. I am glad I am improving now..so that my children could all come back to me next year..I knew I have to maintain this as much as I can to be AF. I'm back into 2 months AF now. My children had not been staying with me for 3 years since..and I'm so glad they are returning to me next year, and will be in my care again. My bf is also arriving tomorrow night from the states.
Now I'm preparing for all the school transfers etc to get them all ready for next year.
Katey, I know you can do it. You will get there. Trust yourself or at least trust the real you that might be uncounsiously left un-noticed or much attention..I didnt care much about the 'real me' before and left pretty unattended. But now , I do. And I know you will too.
Good luck. Have a blessed day ~
Regards
Hi Katey,
I know how how you feel, I used to be a binge queen. I screwed up twice during a period of 6 months AF. I can binged from 1-6days, a short 4 hours out, opened my eyes and I down again with the beer next to my bed..I will not stop even my body is letting me know it cant take that anymore. I definitely abuse alcohol. It will stopped only if I was out cold. I don't get myself very drunk in Pub too, similar to Dorri, I usually drank at home. I drank like a lonely fish. At times, I felt like cr*p and in my thoughts was to end it all.
But deep down, I knew that is not true, I cannot end like that just because of my abnormal behavior. So I got up one day, instead of bringing the beer/alcohol to my mouth, I walk right up to the basin and empty it. All I could thought of was, its either I keep binging & die, or put a stop.
I cant deny that I did slipped after that, but I pick myself up again, and keep tryin' to put the beast back into the cage.
My 4 younggins were over at my mom. I am glad I am improving now..so that my children could all come back to me next year..I knew I have to maintain this as much as I can to be AF. I'm back into 2 months AF now. My children had not been staying with me for 3 years since..and I'm so glad they are returning to me next year, and will be in my care again. My bf is also arriving tomorrow night from the states.
Now I'm preparing for all the school transfers etc to get them all ready for next year.
Katey, I know you can do it. You will get there. Trust yourself or at least trust the real you that might be uncounsiously left un-noticed or much attention..I didnt care much about the 'real me' before and left pretty unattended. But now , I do. And I know you will too.
Good luck. Have a blessed day ~
Regards
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