I started drinking around the age of 16. We use to travel to Staten Island with fake ID's. Drank all thru high school and didn't stop after that. Got my first DWI around the age of 25. Married when I was 30. My drinking and his drugging destroyed that after 2 years. Had a son which stopped me for awhile, but not for long. Started bartending and that was the beginning of the end. Drank just about every night. It was free too! Started with the cocaine and went thru alot of money, but thankfully never got addicted to it. Bartended for almost 20 yrs. Got My second DWI when I was about 38.. Again cost me tons of money. That didn't stop me. Kept right on drinking and got my third DWI just a few years ago. They were all ten years apart so I only lost my license for 6months at a time. I lost my two jobs after the last one.. One I had to quit because I had no way to get there. The other I was fired because a customer smelled alcohol on my breath and informed my boss. One of many jobs I had lost over the years from drinking. With the last DWI I had to move in with my sister. After her seeing me drunk numerous times, she put me in a rehab for 30 days. They recommended a long term facility and I ended up in the Salvation Army for 9 months. There I settled down and actually enjoyed being there. Never met so many sincere people, all there to help you in any way they could. I got kicked out for cursing at a supervisor. I was so mad at myself. I was just about to reach the phase on how to cope when released, and finding a job b4 I left. I was no way ready to go home. I think if I were able to complete the phases, I would have never started drinking again.
That was May. By Aug. I had to go detox for 4 days in a rehab. That was 1 yr. ago this past Aug. Since then I have been hospitalized 4 x's for al. related reasons. 2x's the police picked me up and brought me to ER. Don't even remember why. Once I called 911 myself because I thought I was going to have a heart attack. I just couldn't calm down. It was a panic attack.
When I started getting pains in my back, under my ribs and swollen legs these past weeks, I finally had to say to myself, "Enough is enough!" I lost the most recent job I had due to al. I work at Giant Stad. also, just during the FB season on Suns. only. That's over now.
So presently I have no job, no license, and about $200 to my name. My sister forbids me to get my license back. Says her rates would skyrocket since I live under her roof. So that's not an option. Let's not forget that my credit is shot too. Judgements, garnishees, etc. That stops me from having anything in my name. They'll conviscate anything I own. The only way I see myself getting out of this mess is if I win the lottery, or applying for one of these gov't grants I see plastered all over the internet. Anybody know anything about them? Any suggestions are welcome.
Welcome to my world! :elk:
That was May. By Aug. I had to go detox for 4 days in a rehab. That was 1 yr. ago this past Aug. Since then I have been hospitalized 4 x's for al. related reasons. 2x's the police picked me up and brought me to ER. Don't even remember why. Once I called 911 myself because I thought I was going to have a heart attack. I just couldn't calm down. It was a panic attack.
When I started getting pains in my back, under my ribs and swollen legs these past weeks, I finally had to say to myself, "Enough is enough!" I lost the most recent job I had due to al. I work at Giant Stad. also, just during the FB season on Suns. only. That's over now.
So presently I have no job, no license, and about $200 to my name. My sister forbids me to get my license back. Says her rates would skyrocket since I live under her roof. So that's not an option. Let's not forget that my credit is shot too. Judgements, garnishees, etc. That stops me from having anything in my name. They'll conviscate anything I own. The only way I see myself getting out of this mess is if I win the lottery, or applying for one of these gov't grants I see plastered all over the internet. Anybody know anything about them? Any suggestions are welcome.
Welcome to my world! :elk:
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