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not over-joyful tonite..

Taking on too many things right now. Diet, trying to get a job, had my hair done and it looks like total sh*t, husband is out again, its like i am looking for an immediate fix to my alcohol problem.. weekend is here, my biggest trigger time and i know this will pass. I feel so unmotivated tonite, you could give me a bag of money i would not even want to go and gamble! This is the kinda torture one has to go through to get to the other side. Who on earth wants to do this 'how many times?' i knew this was not going to be easy. Every time stopping it gets harder and harder and harder. The disease seems to worsen. You have to live it to tell it. So enough fussing right now. I'm feeling a bit better already! ... not really.. missed meeting today and i don't like going to Saturday hospital meetings.

The second dose of Topa makes me feel so weird and sleepy. I get forgetful and can't remember some things. I have vivid dreams when i sleep, my sleep could be better at nite.

I appreciate all the kind comments. I planned NOT to post yet about my recovery, yet i needed to release some fears right now. Day 6 and i am not a happy camper tonite like my normal self. I'll find me again.

Love Ripples.. :l

[CS04]

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Ripple, I am enjoying your "real you" posts. Many of us are still struggling, too. I know you say you don't feel like yourself, but it is good to be open with whatever you are feeling. Hang in there.

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love you rippy .. keep on keeping on girl you are getting it

[kaponium]

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Rip into it, Ripster, you wee ripper! Right beside ya, mate

[A Work in Progress]

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Stick with it, Rippy, sometimes you won't want to, but every time you ride out the hard times you get STRONGER!!! Hang on to that knowledge, use every trick in the book, and don't let ANYTHING de-rail you... weekends, husbo drinking, feeling un-motivated... all of that will come at you and you HAVE to ride it out...

I know you can do this, you are sounding GREAT!

[Ripple]

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Good today, not resting well enough though.. thats part of this process!! The sleep deal can drive one insane again.. I'm a little off, yet in good spirits today. I must put aside what my husband does, he knows he was out of control last nite and admits to me today he feels like total crap. He says my hair looks good, i look like a blonde hooker. This week was most difficult as all i thought about was this weekend. Now tonite and tomorrow.

:fingers: I am not going to the bar tomorrow nite for the game with Frank. He can go, i rather watch puppy bowl with Olive. Ollie is going for surgery on Monday, we had to cancel before due to lack of funds.. so i am home with her Sunday.. and of course being a pest here..

Love to all. wish me luck tonite .. Ripples.. :l

[gyco]

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thnx rips, you are blunt, but you no also you can stop,that my dear is a bonus,i was at a second AA meeting today, and as ive said b4, it is not for all, but i did say it has little chance to work if one does it on there own,and yuor rt family can be a biginfluence on how we act,i do wish you well,and thnx for being honest gyco

[Ripple]

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Gyco and others.. i need MWO right now. Hopefully, readers may see how using on-line resources help when your out of your mind!!! Husband is sleeping from last nite, everyone i know is off, its Saturday nite. This is where i come 2 connect to someone. Nervous energy i have right now. There is not a thing left to do in this house. I am so well planned, A Ham 7.5 pounds is already prepared for Sunday lunch. I washed it.. made some cuts, applied clove powder, orange juice and water, topped off with local maple syrup. Covered with foil. Placed in fridge. Ready for the morning.. Morning request here is pancakes and sausage.. Cranberry Coffee. My life sucks..

Shopping after lunch, so he can clean up. I need a new book and my rice cooker. We have a sort of seperation right now. Its okay, we did this before. He likes his freedom as mine will come in a few weeks. Can't wait till MONDAY ...

:thanks: Ripple.

[A Work in Progress]

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What's happening, in a few weeks, Rippy?

I'm so glad you made it through last night without drinking... I wasn't sure if you were just upset, or upset PLUS thinking about drinking... You're doing great!

[Ripple]

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coach..

Right about now wip i am ready to rip a toe nail right the hell off. Smoking butts non stop and trying to get through tonite. Olive is sleeping with Francis .. good .. i need a break. I just cleaned up poop from her being upstairs last nite with me on computer. Last nite i was so stressed out. Veggie soup is working.. too much coffee is no good. I should know better.. my life better improve.

Ripple..

[A Work in Progress]

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Well, yeah, I hope your life DOES improve, a lot! Are you on some kind of vegetable soup diet? Can't you cut yourself some slack, while you get through your first month or so being AF? It shouldn't be a march through hell, should it? What can you do to minimize the misery?

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POO.

wip, i'm okay.. i eat a lot in recovery.. trying to lose weight.. yet i had to flush cookies.. first i let them soak, then GONE. Had 3 after soup.. i am sick now. Just looking for a fix. Should have never bought god damn cookies.. Instead of drink, I have purchased more food than any person can imagine!! Another batch of soup and better.. i added my own natural tomato juice. I have bad news.. i am in a slot tourament next friday. Its a BIG ONE..

Ripple.. :l

[last call]

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Poo

What is a slot tournament? :huh: :elk:

[Ripple]

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Please explain to me.

Mary-ann, your avatar creeps the living hell out of me. Why is that avatar special to you? I like avatars too, i never liked that one!! Before i say anything to you, i need you to tell me "why" you like that thing. We cannot get to know one another unless we are honest.

Now, this tournament is something i have never participated in! It is a nite out and i know i might DRINK.. darling.. any more questions?

:thanks: Ripped.

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Rippy, I agree with you about that avatar. I have to avert my eyes, hate to even look at it. Sorry, Mary Ann.

Rippy, ditch the stupid tournament, OK? If you have really decided not to drink again, then you know the drill. Don't go to places and events where you will find it very difficult not to drink, especially early on. And particularly if you are ALREADY saying that you "might" drink. Either you are taking this seriously... or not.

I care a lot about you and would hate to see you get started again, because it is clearly destroying you. You are having a tough time giving it up this time, how many times do you want to go through this?