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[Skywriter]

I just spent a good hour writing My Story.. only to find a computer foul up would not let me post. Needless to say this will be much shorter.
I really did want to curse god after my post got lost. I poured my heart out. I held my hand out for help. but the Powers that be smacked it and moved on without me. I must say, this makes me want a drink or a joint REALLY badly. so I am not even the resolved spirit I was moments ago.
In short, I have turned a lifelong hobby(started drinking at... 7 ~finishing the bottom of cocktails that my parents friends left after a party) into a daily obsession. I smoke cigarettes and pot and have a lovely loving relationship with beer, wine and Mike's Hard Lemonade.(YUM!)Sometimes when I have none in stock and I don't want to buy a whole six pack I'll run up to the store for a big bottle of SOMEthing...anything really, and chug it, wipe my mouth and feel like I actually ACCOMPLISHED something... like I got away with murder. Sometimes I've told the children, 'Mom's just going up to the store be right back and I swing into the nearest bar(VERY close to home) and swig down the 2 for 1 special... I come home and get a great feeling of having pulled the wool over... whose eyes? None but my own.
No one at home, husband kids or family has suggested I quit. I guess because I'm really no trouble at all when drinking... it's the next morning...or afternoon when I HAVEN'T had one... I start to feel edgy angry short tempered. ...but that slips completely under the radar.
So here it is day TWO of deciding to make a change. My head aches, my eye is twitching, my thoughts boiling... Hopefully this is the place for me to get support and make some friends who actually WOULD like to see me succeed. (As the life of the party~ many would agree it's a far better time they have when EYE am drunk).
So hello to all of you and believe it or not... this was MUCH shorter than the last(unpublished) post!
Right now the half bottle of pinot is waiting patiently for me to fail. My bag of weed sits stoned and alone in it's hiding place and a full (count 'em 20!) pack of cigs is outside on the back porch bar.. they are joining together in three part harmony and calling my name.
But I will resist, cease and desist...with help.

[Guest]

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Maybe just start with one thing at a time, a triple whammy seems alot in one go! Just concentrate on the drink for now perhaps, then the weed and leave the fags till last. There is no point in setting yourself up for failure...however if you really feel you can do all three, my very best wishes to you, stick around..were a nice bunch here, most of the time..lol!

[Skywriter]

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Thankyou Limers! You know I wondered about all that too. From a finacial standpoint I vow not to BUY any more of the deadly three and maybe knowing the supply is limited I will just quit eventually altogether. Actually the 'fags' (love that term) are going to be easier than the others because they really just got scary expensive and they just don't taste right anymore. Could lack of alcohol change the taste of things?
Happy to meet you and thanks for replying.

[cyclefan]

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Hi Skywriter. MWO is a good place to make friends who will understand and assist you on your journey. Most people will suggest that the best way to succeed is to set a goal and make a plan. Reading RJ's book is a good place to start. There's a toolbox thread here too, that gives good suggestions for goals and plans. I'll direct link it for you, in the future you can find it by going to the Monthly Abstinence section under Goals and looking for the thread on the top. It's a sticky so it is always there.

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html

Shout out if you need a hand. Nice thing here is pretty much nobody's story is unique, so no matter what you are going through someone will be able to relate. Chat is fun, someone is there most evenings. Just Starting Out is a good place to get your feet wet at MWO. Just poke around until you find the place you feel most comfortable. Best wishes to you!

[irish eyes]

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[QUOTE=Skywriter;602580]I just spent a good hour writing My Story.. only to find a computer foul up would not let me post. Needless to say this will be much shorter.

Hopefully this is the place for me to get support and make some friends who actually WOULD like to see me succeed.

Sky you are very welcome here and you have come to the right place loads of support and people here actually want to succeed. As Limers said try not to do all 3 together, difficult enough trying one. You will eventually get off all 3 but now concentrate on just one. Stay close and post often we will help if we can.:welcome:

[Skywriter]

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Thankyou

Thanks cyclefan and irish..I already feel better about being strong during this my 2nd Happy hour free day, as it is close at hand. I think I will hang out here instead of on the back porch wich will trigger me for sure.I definitely want to work the whole system here, the book and supplements included. I appreciate all of you who replied.:thanks:

[goingtofeelgreat]

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hey - welcome to MWO. It is a really loving and secure place. I am fairly new. Take a look around, you will find lots of support.
I just recently started the L-Glut (got it at the health food store), it's an amino acid that they use for exercise/body building etc. It is really working for me. I don't have the cravings as bad and lots of energy.

Anyway, best of luck, and remember, there is always some one around to talk to here.

:welcome: