There is no doubt that I have an alcohol problem. I have been drinking at least a 6 pack or more (sometimes wayyy more) of beer a day/night for quite some time. Sometimes I drink around 10 beers and am totally blotto by the time I go to bed. I don't know why I drink it. Just a habit I think, though I do like the taste of beer. If I don't drink, I find it difficult to sleep, but realize that I'm passing out (not sleeping better) when I do drink a lot. I drink no other alcohol other than beer.
Additionally, I have put on weight and have become unfit, which is very bothersome to me as I'm an athletic person. I often wake up in the morning very blobby and fuzzy. I know my health is at risk for doing all this. I've had some discomfort in my right side area after heavy drinking nights. I'm 60 yrs old and I am concerned about my health.
Several times, I've gone a week or more without drinking with absolutely no cravings or withdrawal symptoms. Naturally, I get cocky and think....this is so easy. But it isn't.
Today, I'd gone 7 days AF and felt great. I had no intention of drinking today because I wanted to prove to myself that I could go 30 days AF. Maybe I could Mod.
I'm a golfer and after our rounds we all have lunch together. The waitstaff in the grill room automatically pour me a glass of draft beer and have it waiting for me when I come in. So....yeah...today there it was. I decided to drink it because I figured I could just drink that one beer (having not had any for a week) and then go back to drinking my water or fruit juice when I got home.
Didn't work that way.....I had to go to the grocery for some things, and ended up buying a 6 pack and ...yeah...it's gone now.
I have NO intention of drinking tomorrow. I will not buy any beer.
I just don't know...though, I don't think the idea of "moderating" means killing a 6 pack one day a week !!!
By the way...I've been taking L-Glut, but I think it's more my own mind not having cravings more than the results of the L-Glut.
Can I quit drinking?...or at least just have ONE beer here and there? Or am I too far gone?
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