Jolenje - My Story

[gyco]

Jolenje - My Story

wow interesting life,its odd your in as good of mind,as you are,this is a great site,i beleive there are many stories here like yours,female abuse,your brother was a rock,no one knows why people do what he did,never will,if anything he is a t peace with himself,no matter the out come,when i was in treatment there was a lady like you there,after all there family went thro,the family didnt recognise the fact of the abuse earlier,she also had a hard time to come to grips with it,the father is still alive,i no its hard,i beleive in my life there was a kinda ,of abuse,but the wonderful thing is i have like you,a wonderful partner,she s not perfect ,but she s there for me,i also have 4 kids,young adults now,we dont have to let them fall into what we survived,we do our best, i hope for you. the best,keep trying,you'll succeed,gyco

[startafresh]

Jolenje - My Story

Hello,
I too, thank you for your story and just to say from me, good that you're posting on here and I will be thinking of you.
Best
starta:l

[Jolenje]

Jolenje - My Story

Everyone who has taken the time to read, and reply, thankyou so much, it means so much to know I'm not alone...and boy I've felt that way an awful lot, especially lately...
I am doing okay, I have been making a conscious effort in the last two weeks...

• The best thing is, I am in treatment with a psycologist for my grief/anxiety/stress/insomnia, so this will hopefully help me to in the long run.
• I am cutting back the wine, (cold-turkey is too hard for me...at this stage anyway...)
• I have designated nights that I have drinks, and am working on cutting back the number of drinks I do have.I am trying to not start drinking until later in the night, rather than 5 o'clock.I am drinking more herbal detox, calming teas on my AF nights.

I am really looking forward to the future, and hope that I can finally deal with the past...

[rubywillow]

Jolenje - My Story

Jo, your story is amazing, and touching. Thank you for sharing it. I hope we get to know each other well enough to really talk about it later, but the first thing I would suggest is you work on your guilt, since I haven't heard any reason for you to have any, but yet you do. You deserve love, and beauty in your life, and now, even in a remote region, you have SO many new friends any time of the day or night. Welcome to you, and I'm looking forward to really learning about you and becoming friends.
Rubes

[brittzak]

Jolenje - My Story

I am so glad you have found MWO. It must have been very hard sharing your story with us. But, at the same time, it is a turning point and a time of healing for you and your family. I am glad you are seeing a counselour. You are doing all the right things to move in the right direction. Hold your head up and keep sharing. Lean on us for support. Keep reading and sharing.

[byebyebridgetjones]

Jolenje - My Story

Jolenge !
Good ! You came back. I've been thinking of you. Sounding a lot more optimistic now, I see.
There's a thread called the 'next day' thread in general discussion that you might want to check in on. A few other Aussies there.
I'm glad you're finding the right way for you.
Bridge.

[DiscoBunnie]

Jolenje - My Story

Dear Jolenge, I have read all the responses replied to your post. I don't post very often, but your post touched me, so here I am....

First, I have experienced the great losses that you have, over the last three years, I have found that those losses are an easy excuse for continued self destructive behaviour, and the worst part is that the general population condones our behavior. We have to rise above that. Our lost ones would not for us to be in such a state, and worse, use their loss as an excuse!

It is time to step up to the plate Jolenge, take your boots by the straps and know that you are indestructible. You are stronger than alcohol, you are stronger than drugs, you are stronger than any thoughts that try to destroy you. Think about that, you are here, in the present... that makes you strong and valuable, don't let anything take that away from you....

Believe in YOU. Look at what you have overcome, not very many people could survive what you have survived. You are a strong woman. You are here for a reason.

I believe in you, don't let me down...... =)

[Jolenje]

Jolenje - My Story

Thanx everyone....you know who you are!

I am trying, and looking forward to the future!

I have gone back to my old routine (prior brothers suicide) of Wed night drinks with dinner... Fri/Sat night drinks with football...

In future I plan to cut back further, via nights and amounts...

Wish me luck!