ok..here goes. i have a great life, great kids, great job, great family and even a great possibly ex-husband. Thats now ..not always.
I started drinking at I think around 13. Of course i got really drunk. My dad drank alot but now he doesnt really drink that often although i think he has his own addicitons. My parents fought non stop. My mother died when i was 18 and she was 43 (im 43 now). My dad moved his girlfriend in right after my mom died. We are catholic and he had a priest there to try and help us understand. There wasnt any physical or sexual abuse. I think it was just mostly mental. I have 3 sisters that i love dearly. None of them seem to have an addiction issue (except one sister has a food thing). Just me.
But i was loving the lifestyle. I went to college and met my roommate who i was friends with for 20 years. There were drugs and alcohol flowing like crazy. we did alot of crazy things
I have worked at the same company for 21 years. I have a very good relationship with my family (sisters and dad). even my dad's wife (the woman he moved in after my mom died) has really helped out. My husband and i started to get really involved in drugs with my friend. Things got really out of control. There was alot of sex and alot of drugs and alcohol.
Last April i got a DUI (dismissed just last week). In december i got an offensive touching charge.(dismissed) My kids (who adore me) were embarrassed and afraid of me. I was becoming an embarrassment to my company. I left my husband 6 months ago...so i spend 50% of the time with the kids. When they are here ..i am sober. when i have to work i am sober and when i know i will have to drive..i am sober.
Outside of that i drink. I just got Balcofen and hoping it will help. Ive learned so much from both AA and from this site. People care about how i am doing.
Anyway, thats where i am. Last November i made a feeble attempt to kill myself. The cop who had to take me in asked me how my life is. The F'd up thing i had to say is that things are good. There was just something that caused me to feel that despereate. It was so hard to explain.
Anyway..my life and story. Not as sexy as others but..it belongs to me
I started drinking at I think around 13. Of course i got really drunk. My dad drank alot but now he doesnt really drink that often although i think he has his own addicitons. My parents fought non stop. My mother died when i was 18 and she was 43 (im 43 now). My dad moved his girlfriend in right after my mom died. We are catholic and he had a priest there to try and help us understand. There wasnt any physical or sexual abuse. I think it was just mostly mental. I have 3 sisters that i love dearly. None of them seem to have an addiction issue (except one sister has a food thing). Just me.
But i was loving the lifestyle. I went to college and met my roommate who i was friends with for 20 years. There were drugs and alcohol flowing like crazy. we did alot of crazy things
I have worked at the same company for 21 years. I have a very good relationship with my family (sisters and dad). even my dad's wife (the woman he moved in after my mom died) has really helped out. My husband and i started to get really involved in drugs with my friend. Things got really out of control. There was alot of sex and alot of drugs and alcohol.
Last April i got a DUI (dismissed just last week). In december i got an offensive touching charge.(dismissed) My kids (who adore me) were embarrassed and afraid of me. I was becoming an embarrassment to my company. I left my husband 6 months ago...so i spend 50% of the time with the kids. When they are here ..i am sober. when i have to work i am sober and when i know i will have to drive..i am sober.
Outside of that i drink. I just got Balcofen and hoping it will help. Ive learned so much from both AA and from this site. People care about how i am doing.
Anyway, thats where i am. Last November i made a feeble attempt to kill myself. The cop who had to take me in asked me how my life is. The F'd up thing i had to say is that things are good. There was just something that caused me to feel that despereate. It was so hard to explain.
Anyway..my life and story. Not as sexy as others but..it belongs to me
well done cacky in sharing your story,every little helps us all try and understand our complicated lifes,the ifs the whys,& the maybeys
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