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[moeskie07]

ok, I did it again. Went out once again by myself after a bottle of wine. Went to the closest bar to the house, just in case. But of course, drank too much had to have a stranger drive my car to his house and woke again at an unkown place, embarrased.

my story is, I am a single mom with one teenage daughter, who is almost never home. So I cure the loneliness with a bottle of wine 4 nites a week, with an accasional night out. I grew up in foster care, and so real family around. I want to stop the drinking and find some other things to do. I work from home which also doesn't help. Some days I think of wine all day, can't wait to stop and pick the bottle. My daughter doesn't know of the frequent use, I hide that. I also suffer from panic attacks, go figure. Which the wine does not help, I had to stay in bed all day to recover, finally at 7pm I can actually eat and get up. I wasted my whole day panicking that something was wrong with me, and I would die in my sleep. I know tomorrow I will forget all about this day, and say I will never do that again. I have to give myself some credit, I have slowed the outings down, but i would like to eleminate all together. This is my first time ever writing this down, and funny I thought I would be ashamed but it actually is a relief to tell someone.

I would like some feed back from anyone who may be in the same type of boat as me.

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[Cinders]

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Moeskie,

I am in a different boat but have sailed the same seas.

I would read RJ's book and come up with a plan. Why we started drinking or want to continue drinking no longer matters once we are alcoholics. The substance that "worked" for us has now become a much worse problem than we were treating and no longer is an aid.

I hope you can find some way to stop the cycle and get your land legs again.

We will do anything we can to help you on your journey.

Cindi

[rubywillow]

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Hello, Moe! Wow, that's a scary story. Thank God you're OK, PLEASE be careful. There are a lot of crazies out there. Yes, it is cathartic just to tell our story, and that's the beauty of this place. No judgement, just concerned and compassionate members. I would suggest you take the time to write out a plan, a goal, and talk to as many people here as you can and find out what has helped them. RJ's book is the place to start. For me it's a been a year of experimenting til I found what works for me. As for your daughter, don't be so sure you've hidden this from her; I thought I had too, only to find out years later how hurt she was with me over my drinking. Good luck, stay in touch. And be careful.