I'm a 36 year old mom of the most amazing little boy, and I don't want to miss out on anymore of his life. I've been drinking a full large bottle of red wine every day for several years, minus the pregnancy. Sometimes I end up dipping into a second bottle. I start drinking around 11:30am (there have been more than a few depressing winter mornings when I've started earlier), and I drink until around 8pm. On the days that I have to get out of the house, I'm just thinking about where I'll pick up the next bottle, or if it's been enough days since I last ordered from the liquor store (because of course I don't want them to think I have a problem!). This has been so easy for me, because I work from home and have no friends or family in the area to be accountable to (other than my husband, who is supportive). I hate myself most of the time, and wake up at 3am every morning thinking that "today will be the day I stop....". The longest I've been able to quit on my own was ALMOST 5 weeks, last year. As soon as I get that first taste, it's just impossible to stop.
I'm excited for tomorrow. I really hope this works, because I relate so much to the My Way Out story. I look forward to sharing more of my progress on this site, and to reading about yours.
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