:new: My mom died a year ago, september 29, 2008 after a two year battle with cancer. I go to a big ten school where partying is huge and began to drink seriously after that. Over the past year i've had a drink or gotten drunk nearly everyday but after taking a semester off to deal with my grief issues I decided i wanted to apply to law school but my drinking was seriously hurting my grades and my ability to apply to myself to studying for the LSATS. I lost my best friend over it nearly six months ago...she couldn't handle the monster I had become. Lately, neither can I.
So over the past month, back at school, with the help of my therapist and priest, I realized that things weren't happening to me (lackluster grades, loss of friends etc) I was happening to them or more specifically...I was letting the Alcohol happen to me. So I decided to get sober.
My doctor prescribed me Naltrexone (has anyone tried this) and so far haven't had any withdrawal symptoms except the extreme loneliness of knowing that tonight I'll be alone because all my friends are going to the bars and it just makes me want to drink more. Social life here revolves around alcohol and I am terrified that I'll lose even more friends because i don't drink, (the irony is obvious i know) which will lead to being completely alone, which will make me drink and around and around it goes. I thought maybe this would be a good place to get some support.
Any encouragement is desperately needed. I want more then anything to call my mom but obviously can't. I feel very alone right now, though i know this is the right, and healthy decision.
So thats my story, but i just hope it's not all of who I am.
Peace and love
So over the past month, back at school, with the help of my therapist and priest, I realized that things weren't happening to me (lackluster grades, loss of friends etc) I was happening to them or more specifically...I was letting the Alcohol happen to me. So I decided to get sober.
My doctor prescribed me Naltrexone (has anyone tried this) and so far haven't had any withdrawal symptoms except the extreme loneliness of knowing that tonight I'll be alone because all my friends are going to the bars and it just makes me want to drink more. Social life here revolves around alcohol and I am terrified that I'll lose even more friends because i don't drink, (the irony is obvious i know) which will lead to being completely alone, which will make me drink and around and around it goes. I thought maybe this would be a good place to get some support.
Any encouragement is desperately needed. I want more then anything to call my mom but obviously can't. I feel very alone right now, though i know this is the right, and healthy decision.
So thats my story, but i just hope it's not all of who I am.
Peace and love
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