Well, I've very rarely posted but joined the forum a while ago. Since then, I managed to go A/F the first time for 7 days and the second time for 35 days. It seems as if each time I do that, it takes me quite a while to resolve to quite drinking again.
I'm hoping that, by posting here, it will help me in my journey to become alcohol free forever. I think that writing thoughts, actions, etc. out might assist me.
I'm a recently retired woman who feels as if drinking wine each night is making my life smaller than it should be. I only drink in the evenings and during that time, don't like to do anything else except watch television and work on my laptop in front of the TV. I drink every single evening. SOmetimes even when I don't feel like it.
I do seem to do things to excess, whatever it is called -- addictive personality or something else. I drink Diet Pepsi to excess although I've cut my consumption in half during the last week -- still way too much though. Also, I don't have a weight problem but I LOVE sweets. So I have alcohol, my diet and Pepsi to kick.
Tonight will be my first night alcohol free. I feel very determined. When I drink, I don't read and I used to be a huge reader. I have some good books now that I plan on reading. WHen I drink, I don't even like to go anyplace in the evenings because I won't be drinking. I do go, but when I come home, no matter how late it is, I feel compelled to drink my wine. I hope that my workouts in the mornings at the gym become easier. I hope that I can be a more spiritual person, more generous in my thoughts as well as my actions, just a better person.
I will try to be brutally honest here. If you read this, please bear with me as I ramble.
In my past efforts, I stopped posting and stopped reading others' posts. I've found that being here does help a lot and I am motivated by others.
I wish all of you the very best and join you in your efforts -- let's kill this demon!
T2L
I'm hoping that, by posting here, it will help me in my journey to become alcohol free forever. I think that writing thoughts, actions, etc. out might assist me.
I'm a recently retired woman who feels as if drinking wine each night is making my life smaller than it should be. I only drink in the evenings and during that time, don't like to do anything else except watch television and work on my laptop in front of the TV. I drink every single evening. SOmetimes even when I don't feel like it.
I do seem to do things to excess, whatever it is called -- addictive personality or something else. I drink Diet Pepsi to excess although I've cut my consumption in half during the last week -- still way too much though. Also, I don't have a weight problem but I LOVE sweets. So I have alcohol, my diet and Pepsi to kick.
Tonight will be my first night alcohol free. I feel very determined. When I drink, I don't read and I used to be a huge reader. I have some good books now that I plan on reading. WHen I drink, I don't even like to go anyplace in the evenings because I won't be drinking. I do go, but when I come home, no matter how late it is, I feel compelled to drink my wine. I hope that my workouts in the mornings at the gym become easier. I hope that I can be a more spiritual person, more generous in my thoughts as well as my actions, just a better person.
I will try to be brutally honest here. If you read this, please bear with me as I ramble.
In my past efforts, I stopped posting and stopped reading others' posts. I've found that being here does help a lot and I am motivated by others.
I wish all of you the very best and join you in your efforts -- let's kill this demon!
T2L
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