lately, i have only been drinking on the weekends. I put my daughgter to bed at 7 get up and have start drinking wine. it only takes 3 glasses of wine to make me not remember going to bed. when i see my eyes in the mirror in the morning i begin my hiding process. visine, makeup, moisturizer, mouthwash, ice on my eyes lately to help with the redness.
my older sister killed herself when she hit a tree while driving with a 3. something % of al
in her blood. thank god it was a tree and not a family. all my siblings drink except one. there were 7 of us now there are 6.
my mom hardly drank because she would get drunk very easily, she died 8 years ago from smoking. i loved her and was so close and had a great childhood. my dad is awesome he hardly drinks.
sometimes i can have a great time drinking, but most times i hate myself in the morning.
i have been reading here for a while, i have the supplements and cds. i can't take meds cuz i'm bi-polar and they wouldnt mix with my other meds for that.
maybe my friends know, maybe they don't im careful not to text or call while drunk, but i'm sure they can smell it on me.
i'm so done with the fights while drunk. they make no sense. my husband gets so angry with me for trying to work on things with the stepkids etc. we havn't had sex in 2 years.
i love the feeling of the first glass. as i pour the second one i know its over.
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